Luka leaned back against the wall hugging his arms tighter around him in an attempt to keep warm. He didn't know what to think. Should he let his mind wander and be happy that his dream was coming true? Abby was pregnant with his child after all. The big question was whether or not she would keep the child. She had an abortion before, who was to say she wouldn't have one again. It seemed to him that she was dragging the decision out for so long just to torture him. A kind of punishment for putting her in that position.
He took in a deep breath and let it out slowly, watching his breath form in the cold air of the ambulance bay. He wasn't even sure he loved Abby so much that he'd want to spend the rest of his life with her. Did he love her? Yes, he did, he was sure of that. But, sometimes he felt like they weren't meant to be. Almost as if there was someone out there that he was meant to be with, he just hadn't met her yet. Shaking his head he pushed those thoughts out of his head. It had been so long since he'd been married with children, he was sure all his doubts were just down to nervousness. He was never one to believe in faith anyway. He was sure of one thing; he wanted to be a father again, more than he'd ever wanted anything.
"Hey!"
Luka turned to see Carter was now standing beside him. Relief flooded over him, it felt good to be broken out of his thoughts.
"How's your first day back?" Luka asked he knew how hard it could be to settle back into the hustle and bustle of the ER after a long absence.
"Okay, in some ways it feels like I never left." Carter replied with a slight shake of his head. "I could do without everyone asking how I am every two minutes though, it's been six months. I've moved on."
Luka nodded in reply. Carter had come home from Africa six months ago, after finding Kem kissing another man who she admitted to being in love with. Carter was crushed, they had been engaged for two months and for half of that time she'd been sleeping with someone else. When he arrived back in Chicago, Luka was the one who helped him pick up the pieces. Stopped him from going back to depending on drink,
"Speaking of which, when do I get to meet this mystery woman of yours? You've been dating for over a month now." Luka's curiosity was getting the better of him. Carter had been going around with a stupid grin on his face the whole time because of this woman. And he wouldn't even tell Luka her name. Luka was anxious to meet this fantastic woman, Carter's words, who had so quickly stolen his heart away.
"Soon," Carter replied a smile, "you'll get to meet her real soon."