Hey, I got bored and decided to elaborate on what I had written about in my "Sarena in Wonderland" story. I may or may not finish this. I'm just bored.

That's not a really good reason to write an over 3,000 word story.

yeah, I know looks around where are the guys?

Mikey...

Say no more.

sweatdrops Disclaimer: She owns nothing.

Enjoy

Leo's Ordeal

Sarena clutched at Leo like he was a life line. She was so scared. Leo smiled sweetly and wrapped his arms around her, bringing her close to his plastron. Sarena had always been afraid of the dark, probably as a result of being dumped down into the sewers so many years ago. Whatever the reason, it didn't matter to Leo. He was always there to love and protect her, even if they were stuck in this construction cave in. Leo really hoped that Raph and the other would fine them soon. He didn't know how much air they had and wasn't sure if it was enough for the two of them. Leo looked at his little sister who, though calmer than before, was still shaking with fear and had her eyes shut tightly. He went through his mind again and again, trying to think of a way to calm her down. At times like this he remembered what had happened before, after they had defeated the Utrom Shredder. When he had been so out of control he had almost destroyed Sarena, and with her now very unstable emotions it wouldn't have been much longer. He shuddered in fear as he remembered that time.

He wasn't sure how it happened. One second he was resting in the infirmary on the Utrom's home planet with Sarena snuggled comfortably at his side and the next his world had been shot into darkness. He didn't know what was happening. He couldn't hear, see, feel, or anything. It was like he didn't exist, but that's not what sent him into panic. What sent him into panic was the fact that he couldn't sense Sarena anymore, she was lost. He tried to call out for her, both mentally and verbally, but he couldn't do that either. He couldn't even sense his brothers who, although they all shared a link, he had never had sensed as strong as Sarena.

"How does it feel to be taken from everything you know and love?" A voice rang through the darkness. Leo didn't like it. It sounded like his, but it was darker, more evil. It was like that time they went to rescue Angel's brother. The creature had taken him over briefly, but Sarena had brought him back just in time. "It feels awful doesn't it?"

"Who's there?!" he yelled "Show yourself!" A chuckle rang out.

"If you insist." Suddenly standing before him was himself, only it wasn't him. This Leonardo had evil red glowing eyes and an evil smirk plastered on his face. Leo could sense a dark aura to him.

"Who are you?"

"I am your dark side, manifested when you were taken over by the creature and from Sarena's nightmare."

"What do you want?"

"I want to take your sister for myself." No way Leo was gonna let that happen. If anyone was going to have Sarena, it'd be him.

"Don't you touch her," he growled.

"You're not exactly in the position of authority anymore Leonardo," the double said. "I am, but don't worry. I'm not going to hurt her yet. I still have to pull off the good big brother act to gain her trust. When I do hurt her however it'll make her so scared of you that if you do ever get out, unlikely as it is, she won't even be able to be in the same room as you much less look you in the face." Leo felt his anger grow by the second. How dare this…this…shadow try to hurt his little charge. He wouldn't allow it. Sarena was too pure, too innocent to be tainted by the likes of him. "I'm afraid there's nothing you can do. You're trapped inside your own heart while I'm out in the real world waiting to claim your precious hot little princess." The double began to fade away. "Don't worry, I'll let you see her again, while I'm having fun with her." He chuckled and vanished, but not before he spoke one last time. "Remember my name, Shadow." He was gone, Leo was alone.

He didn't know how long it had been, days, weeks, months, years, hours? It all felt like eternity to him. He was slowly losing his grip on his identity. Leo knew that, if this kept up, someday he won't even be able to remember his own name, but he struggled to keep the face and name of his precious princess in his head at all times, to make sure he didn't lose her. He heard a scream ring through the darkness. Even as his memories were fading he still remembered that voice. It was Sarena, she was in danger. An image appeared before him. Sarena was trapped underneath his body while Shadow forced her into a rough kiss. It made his blood boil to see this. That should be him kissing her, gently, not this dark side of him.

"Leo, stop, let me go!" she screamed. Shadow smacked her across the face, hard. Leo's anger started to grow.

"You think I actually loved you?" Shadow asked her. "Why would I love a weak little brat like you? You're just a burden. I only looked after you because Master Splinter forced me to." That wasn't true at all. Master Splinter had told him to look after her, but he hadn't forced him to. He looked after her by his own free will, because she meant the world to him.

"Sarena! Don't listen to him! Everything he says is a lie!" She couldn't hear him. Ugly tears were dripping down her beautiful face, now marred by a big red three fingered hand print. "Shadow! Let her go!" He wouldn't listen. Shadow only smirked. He dipped a hand down to her waist and Leo looked away.

"What's wrong Leo? I thought you'd like seeing her in pleasure." Shadow's voice rang in his head.

"That's not pleasure, it's pain! You're hurting her!" Even if it was pleasure he wouldn't have liked it. He wanted to be the one to pleasure Sarena, in a way that only he could.

"Well I guess I could let you join in the fun." Sarena screamed and Leo felt a lot of pressure inside his lower plastron. He wasn't…he couldn't, this only made Leo's anger grow even more. The part he hated was that he was enjoying this. Shadow was tainting his secret love, he was feeling everything, and he was enjoying it. He couldn't let him finish. This was a dream, but he couldn't let Sarena's innocence be tainted either way. Hearing Sarena's screams of pain were the last thing Leo needed. His anger fueled the dormant powers locked within him and he pushed Shadow out of Sarena's head. The last thing he knew was Sarena waking up, covered in cold sweat, before the darkness took him back.

This happened many times and every time he was able to push Shadow out. He wanted nothing more than to gather Sarena in his arms and comfort her, protect her, keep Shadow far away from her, but other than force him out of her mind at the last second there was nothing he could do. He sensed a weakness in Shadow's aura and, while it startled him, used the opportunity to return to reality. When he opened his eyes Sarena was hanging from a broken staircase while a typhoon of water rushed bellow her. She looked so scared. He understood now, Shadow wanted him to get her to calm down before she fell. Though he hated being a part of Shadow's plan he had no choice. He had to save her.

"Sarena." She looked at him with scared eyes. He put on his best gentle big brother smile and soften his eyes from the hatred of Shadow to the love he had for his little charge. "It's alright, I've got you." Sarena seemed to sense that he was different than he had been recently because she smiled and took the hand he had offered her. It was sweaty, but other than that it was the skin he remembered so well. As he pulled her up he felt Shadow push him back into darkness. The last thing he saw was Sarena bright green eyes looking at him with happiness. He wished he could keep her that way.

A while later, at least he thought it was, Shadow pushed him forward into his body. It would have great if not for the fact that he hurt all over. He opened his closed eyes slowly and saw Sarena kneeling over him, worry etched on her face. His breath was shallow, something must have really happened for Shadow to make him come forth. He slowly, without thinking, raised his hand to let it travel up her arm to her cheek. It wasn't Shadow's doing, he could sense that, it was his own naturally instinct wanting to be closer to her. As he stroked her cheek Sarena sighed in bliss and placed her hand on his. Her eyes looking at him in love and trust. He smiled, glad that Shadow hadn't broken the trust she had with him.

"Leonardo." The word traveling from her lips was like heaven to him. No nicknames, no "big brother", it was just Leonardo. He couldn't ask for anything else at that moment, he could die happy, but Sarena made it one better. She placed her lips on his and whatever pain Shadow had received vanished from his body, the cold that had surrounded his heart was melting rapidly under the warm touch of his angelic princess.

'Please, if there is a god, let me stay until she opens her eyes again,' he prayed. Almost too soon the kiss ended, but Sarena didn't open her eyes.

"I don't want to wake up and find that this moment is a dream, everything else can go, but just this moment can stay for eternity." Oh how he wanted to scoop her up in his arms say sweet nothings in her ear and explain everything to her, but apparently he didn't need to. "I know something's wrong Leo. Something's making you act like…well…Raph," She said with a laugh. "I want you to know that no matter what happens I won't leave you. I'll stay by your side just so I can be with the real you again. I don't care about the nightmares because I know you're trying to stop them, but something's preventing you. I can feel your presence when they end, you stop them from becoming worse than they already are." She laid down on top of him, pulling him into a hug. Leo wrapped his arms around her. He had been wrong, this was all he could ever ask for.

"Sarena, I…" She placed her fingers on his mouth.

"Don't speak. I just want to stay with you."

"Then please don't open your eyes."

"I won't." He sat up the best he could and placed Sarena on his lap, rubbing her back in small circles.

"I don't know when and if I'll be back, but please know that I'll always love you and want to protect you. Even from myself."

"Leo." She opened her eyes. "I l…"

'Time's up.' Leo was pulled back into darkness.

"No, she was just about to.."

"To what? Tell you that she loves you?" he asked mockingly. "Why would she love a freak like you? You're a mutant turtle, she's a human. It would never work."

"She'd love me because I…"

"Love her?" Shadow's voice disappeared and Leo was left to contemplate on what had happened. Did Sarena really love him? He wished he knew for sure. Suddenly he felt an intense rage burst through the link. It was Sarena. It wasn't directed at Shadow, but whatever it was, it was driving her crazy with anger. After a while she seemed to run out of rage and that was the last thing he felt.

He could feel Sarena again. She was scared, Shadow had destroyed her so much that it had created a hole in her heart. Wait, a hole in her heart? That's it! That was how he'd get out. Leo summoned the last of his strength to push out of his body and into Sarena's heart. He fit comfortably inside the hole. It wasn't dark anymore. It was bright and warm. Everything that made up Sarena floated around him and filled him to the core. He would've gone to sleep right there and then if he hadn't remembered that he had a job to do. He peered through her eyes and saw what was going on. She had tried to run away and Shadow had caught her by grabbing her wrist roughly. Leo shook with rage. How dare Shadow touch her. He was too busy glaring at her to notice that Leo had escaped, but as long as he was connected to Sarena he could pull him back and maybe even her with him. Using the pendent as a medium he took slight control of her body and slapped Shadow with her free hand, hard.

Using her voice he said "You've changed Leo and I don't like! What's more you'll never see my face in the Lair again until you go back to normal!" He gave her back control to let her run. Sarena's eye grew large as she saw what she had done. Out of fear she ran for the bridge, ignoring Shadow's calls. She jumped off the bridge to the water bellow. Leo used the last bits of strength he had left to protect her from the water's crushing pressure as she hit it.

Sarena swam all the way from the bridge to the harbor. Already out of breath she leaped through the rooftops to her friends' apartment. When she got there she leaped through the open balcony window in the original trio's room and landed very unninja like on the carpet. Her friends gasped in surprise as Sarena, as thus Leo, fainted on the floor.

"Do you think she'll be alright Kimra?"

"I don't know I'm a designer not a doctor."

"It seems as though she's been through a lot, maybe we should call her brothers." No, he couldn't let Shadow know where they were. This was their only hiding spot. He had to do something.

"No." Her friends looked in surprise as Sarena slowly struggled to sit up. Leo was using what little strength he had to move her body and use her voice. "Please…don't tell them…I can't…" Leo's strength left him and Sarena slipped back into unconsciousness. '…Protect her yet.'

The next time Leo awoke Sarena was asleep in a futon in the original trio's room next to Kimra lying a few feet away. Leo smiled from inside her heart. He was glad his sister had such good friends that took care of her in her time of need. He quickly slipped into sleep with Sarena's warmth flowing all around him.

As he fell asleep he could of sworn he felt a breeze from the balcony window on her body and a three fingered hand brushing a stray hair from her forehead as an all too familiar voice said "I will withdraw: but this intrusion shall, now seeming sweet, convert to bitterest gall."

As I said before I may or may not continue, but I hope I do. Sorry for those of you who have been wondering about what the shell is taking me so long with that Valentine's Day story. I told you I get writer's block easily.

mutters liar, you're just procrastinating again.

What was that?

Nothing!

Read and Review. I'll do my best to work on something for the Valentine's story. I have the basic plot, but I can't get the filler stuff right.

mutters Liar.

Huh?

Nothing

shrugs and leaves

Mikey broke the TV so now he's being chased by everyone, even Master Splinter. After all, Mikey did know that sensei's soaps were on in five minutes. giggles