A/N Hey guys! I thought this story up last night and I had to write it! Its set a couple months after the season finale. This isn't going to be a full-length story – at least not yet. I'll see what you guys think of it before I make up my mind! Oh and I promise to update my other story by the end of the week, so don't be too mad lol

When My World Crashes

With a hand over my enlarged belly, I walked into Karen's Cafe. By now you would think I was used to the all the stares I got and the whispers that everyone spoke behind my back when they thought I couldn't hear. But how could anyone be used to something like that? I quickly scanned the place, making sure he wasn't here, before going over to a table in the corner and sitting.

The place was busy as usual but there were quite a bit of people here for this time of night. She wondered if anyone she knew was working here? Besides Karen of course... And speaking of Karen, I saw her come out from the kitchen and when she saw I was here she gave me a small smile and mouthed that she would be right over to talk to me.

I nodded and gave her a small smile before turning my attention to the sidewalk outside, happy couples walked by hand in hand and the smile I had been wearing was quickly turned upside down.

"Brooke?" I heard someone say my name and turned and saw it was Karen. She sat down across from me and had placed a cup of hot cocoa in front of me.

"Karen, its nice to see you again." I greeted her and gave her a genuine smile, I hadn't got to see her much lately, my job and school had been keeping me busy for the last couple of weeks.

"You too sweetie, how's... everything?" Even after this long she still hadn't been able to say it. I knew what she was talking about; she was looking my hand that was still placed over my abdomen. I could understand why she couldn't say it though; it had to be slightly uncomfortable, given the circumstances.

"Well work is hell and I think I'm about to die, having to walk all over school all day." I sighed dramatically. "My feet are so swollen its horrible..."

Karen chuckled and looked down to her own very enlarged belly. "I know how that is, working even twice a week is a killer. I don't know how you're doing it or how I did it before. But hey only a couple more months to go right?"

I frowned at the thought; childbirth kind of still scared me. "Yea..."

"So did you find out the sex?"

I shook my head, I had originally planned to find out but I didn't want to know just yet. I still had hope that maybe things would go different and I would be able to find out with him...

"Well it's always a nice surprise, I found out but I'm not telling anyone yet. I'm going to wait until the surprise baby shower that everyone doesn't think I know about." I smiled, wondering what everyone was planning. I wish I had been included...

"Your awfully quiet Brooke, is everything ok?"

Why would she ask that? I mean everything is terrible. No one knows though, maybe that's why. I hadn't let them know. But that is my fault I know. "Everything is ok considering." I didn't want her to worry or know, she would probably tell him and then I would have to see him. It was hard enough at school; I wonder how he is doing though? Sometimes he looks happy when I see him in the halls while he's with Haley and Nathan but other times he looks completely miserable.

"Um... how is..."

Karen bit her lip a little, knowing what I was going to ask. I wasn't even sure why I asked, I wasn't sure I wanted the answer.

"He's got his good days and his bad. But Brooke he really..." I held my hand up. "Karen I know, I'm sorry I know you wish things could work out but I don't see how that can. I love him more then anything on this planet, but he kept things from me, I can't let myself get hurt again now, especially not when I have more then me to think about."

The older women nodded, I hoped this time she would understand, I loved her son dearly but I just couldn't do it. Not yet.

"Listen Brooke, I love talking to you, you should come by more often, but I should probably get back to work." I just noticed the café had recently been filled with twice as many people then there had been when I had come in.

"Ok. It was nice talking to you, I'll try to come in sometime next week!" I smiled and stood up, this was getting harder and harder each day, how was I ever going to loose all this weight!

Karen got up and she hugged me goodbye before heading back into the kitchen. I let out a deep breath and looked down at the table once more. I didn't really want to leave but there was no reason for me to stay, so I looked down at the floor and walked out. I couldn't stand seeing everyone staring at me. Yeah I'm pregnant and I'm only seventeen, but come on I wasn't the only one!

Once I was outside and the cool air hit me I felt a lot better. No one could stare at me and point, I wasn't being judged. I looked around, no one was really walking around and it seemed like no one was on the streets. It kind of seemed dead out, it was a little creepy. But I still had to walk home, oh how I wish I had my car. It was times like this that made me wonder why I had gone through with this in the first place. Why had I? Maybe it had to do with the fact he had come and begged me to not go through with what I had planned, saying he would do anything.

Yea, now that I think about it, it probably was that. He had offered anything for so long as I kept his child. So I told him to stay away. I didn't want him anywhere around me. I didn't think he would agree but he did. He told me he loved me and he didn't think that this was a mistake, and if him leaving me alone was what it took for me not to kill this mistake then he would leave me alone.

And he did. He didn't talk to me, he barely looked at me. It was what I wanted though, it hurt too bad to see him and talk to him. But after a couple months it seemed like maybe I had made the wrong choice, maybe I did need him. All those days of puking my guts out and having no one there to turn to really got to me. But I had made my decision and I stuck to it. I wouldn't go to him, no matter what. Apparently he didn't want me, I know if he'd wanted me bad enough he would have talked to me, he would have done anything. Even after he'd promised to stay away.

But somehow I knew things would be ok, with or without him. I would have this child, I would raise it, and hopefully get married one day. I wanted to be in love though, I never thought of having children and not being in love, I had been in love. Damnit I still am in love but look where it got me? I don't know what things will be like once this baby is born, I know it will be hard and tough, and with no help it would make it ten times worse. I don't know if he will want to see it after its born, I don't know if I want to let him, but we will see.

And my friends, fuck them. As soon as they found out what had happened they all turned against me. Haley because she is his best friend and thinks it was totally wrong for me to shut him out of this, Nathan because he is his brother and Haley's husband, and Peyton. Well she moved away. She moved to live Jake after figuring out Lucas wasn't what she wanted. After she had to screw up my relationship with him and her. Some friends I have.

Lets see, only a block left. I feel like I can't walk anymore and suddenly this eerie feeling comes over me like something bad is about to happen. Chills go up and down my spine as I walk past some bushes hidden in the shadows where the light from the streetlight can't reach. My breathing gets a little quicker and my pace speeds up just a little, I'm freaking myself out for probably no reason, but when I hear footsteps behind me I feel like I'm in one of those horror movies… My house is in view and I'm almost home. I just have to walk by my neighbors' house, I don't even look to see who is behind me, I just want to be inside behind locked doors.

I reach my door and I quickly pull my keys out of my pocket but and fumble with them for a minute trying to find the right one. The footsteps are coming up my driveway; I start to panic just a little, as I can't find the right key. Suddenly they stop, as does my breathing. The person is right behind me.

"Brooke." My name came out in such a low tone I could barely hear it. But I instantly know who it is. Do I dare turn around?

"Yea?" I choke out; I hadn't heard his voice in so long… I hadn't heard him say my name… Brooke you're loosing it stop!

I feel his hand on my shoulder and I tense and suck in a bunch of air. I feel him start to pull away but he doesn't. He leaves his hand on my shoulder and I could almost see the wheels in his head turning to try and find the right thing to say. The only problem was, there was no right thing.

I don't know how much more of this silence I can take, I don't know if I can turn around and face him, I know I will have to but I'm not ready to see his face, his eyes are clouded with tears, I know. His voice said it all; he was so close to breaking down.

What was I going to do? What could I say? A couple of months ago if we were in this position we would be talking and laughing and going inside, he would make love to me and tell me how much he loves me when we wake up the next morning. That's the way it still should be. But it isn't. The quiet between us is awkward and unfriendly. But there is something else, something that had always been there. Love. I still loved him and it was killing me to stand here and not comfort him, but where was he when I needed him? I pushed him away but couldn't he see how bad I was hurting and really needed him?

"Lucas." I cried, turning around, looking him in the eyes for the first time in months. He looked tired and lost. His eyes were red and he had tears coming out of them, this was something you would never expect to see from Lucas Scott. She had only seen him cry a couple of times, and it was breaking her heart.

I know he tried to smile when I turned to look at him, but it didn't come out right. He didn't look shocked to find me in the same state as him; I just now realized I had tears streaming down my face. We stared at each other for a moment but I was at a loss of words. I couldn't think of anything. Suddenly all those thoughts of me wanting him to stay away vanished and all I thought was I needed him.

His hand that was still on my shoulder pulled me closer to him, and surprisingly I willingly went into his arms. He held me tightly and it felt so good. I breathed in his scent as my tears soaked his shirt. I wrapped my arms around him; at this point I never wanted to let him go. I didn't want him to let go.

After a couple of minute just crying in each others arms we pulled away from each other, it had started raining so we were not only soaked by tears but from rain. We looked at each other and I felt my heart start to hurt again, how could I have pushed him away for so long?

He had an arm around me still as I pulled out the right key finally and opened the door. There was no need to speak that would come soon enough; right now we just needed to get inside.

After we had got in, we both went upstairs and into my bedroom. We changed into dry clothes, I had found some of his old ones that were still here, and now we were lying on my bed facing each other with the lights off. He hand put his hand on my baby bump, well it was more then a little bump now but still. And both of us were trying to come up with the right thing to say.

I never thought this would happen, its one of those things you think about but don't really expect. But now it did. Lucas is here in front of me, father of my child, my ex boyfriend who I am still in love with. I need him, oh how I needed him. But were there any words for what had happened between us?

Finally, after a bit, which seemed like hours, Lucas finally opened his mouth and spoke.

"You know, I've played this through my head a million times, how this would happen. But now I'm here, I don't know what to say."

I didn't say anything, just kept my eyes locked with his and nodded, showing him that I was listening.

"But Brooke," he sighed and bit his lip a little, which I thought was totally adorable, and this gave me this look I had never seen before. "Brooke I'm so sorry. I should have never kissed Peyton, I should have told you that I did, I never wanted her. I know I screwed up twice with you, but Brooke you're my world. I tried living without you and I can't do it. I need you, I love you so much!"

By this time I had tears coming out of my eyes again. I knew everything he was saying was true by the tone he was using.

"Lucas. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for pushing you away," I cried and he pulled me to him, I could tell he was getting a little choked up again also.

"I'm so sorry. I needed you so bad; you hurt me so much I just couldn't deal with the pain anymore. But all it did was make it worse, all those days when we didn't talk, when I didn't hear your voice, when I couldn't tell you I love you."

Lucas kissed my forehead softly and whispered something, trying to calm me down. I was crying against his chest and I couldn't stop.

"Shh Brooke it will be ok." I heard him whisper and I looked at him. "How do you know?"

He gave me a reassuring smile. "We'll work everything else out later ok? But it think we've said enough for tonight. I promise this will all get better, I love you Brooke Davis and I'm going to be here for you, and our child."

But I was still crying, and the last part made me cry harder. He rubbed my back and I looked up at him and he kissed my cheek. Suddenly everything stopped. I stopped crying and he stopped moving. The kiss had sparked electricity between us, and things we hadn't felt for a long time. He looked at me and wiped the rest of the tears off my face, and kissed my cheek again. My heart started racing. It felt so good to have him kiss me again.

We looked at each other again and he put his hand onto my cheek, and he started moving closer to me. I felt like I would die if he moved away, but he didn't and finally his lips crashed onto mine and we kissed with all the passion and love we have for each other, suddenly everything seemed ok. Right now things were good, and maybe tomorrow things might get a little better.

Ok guys, its up to you! If you want me to continue and make this a full story then tell me. If you want it to just be a little one-shot then its ok too, just let me know! If you decide for it to be a full story I will most likely either finish my other story first or work on both of them. Please review and let me know what you think!