Disclaimer: I do not own One Tree Hill. Sad.

Don't Rock the Boat

The Tree Hill gang has all crowded into Nathan's small apartment for a night of fun and hijinks. Most of them were drinking alcohol but nothing crazy was going on.

Nathan spoke loudly, "I want to play Truth or Dare!"

Brooke laughed, "Jeez, Nathan. What are we, eight?"

Haley spoke in Nathan's defense, "I want to play, too. Come on, Brookie! Humor us."

Brooke smiled and the group migrated into the living room. Nate and Haley sitting on a recliner. Peyton and Jake on the couch, with Brooke and Lucas separate on the floor.

Brooke broke the awkward silence, "Okay, tutorwife. You wanted to play. Truth or dare?"

"Truth."

Jake jumped in to ask the question, "Who was your first kiss and how old were you?"

Brooke rolls her eyes, "Okay, now I really feel eight."

"Don't be such a partypooper," Haley interjects, "I was thirteen. Charlie Hicks."

The girls let out a loud and obnoxious, "Ewww!"

"He was baby cute. Of course, prior to braces and well, his awkward foray into puberty," Haley explained herself.

Lucas speaks, "Moving on…"

Peyton speaks up, "Okay, L. Scott. Truth or dare?"

"Dare."

Peyton pauses to think, "Let's see. Haley, do you still have that cheer uniform here?"

"Yup!"

"Okay, then. You get that, Hales. And Luke has to stand outside wearing it and hitch a ride somewhere."

Brooke smiles, "Classy, P. Very classy."

Luke stands up, "This is nothing. Let's get this show on the road."

Thirty minutes pass and the game is still in full swing. Meanwhile, Brooke was becoming less inhibited and has become quite talkative.

Haley asks Brooke, "Truth or dare, kiddo?"

"Truth, I'm a coward."

Nathan speaks right away, "What's the one thing you regret doing more than anything else?"

Lucas snorts, "This should be interesting."

In any other case, Brooke would've shot him a look to kill, but now she was deep in thought.

It's silent for a minute or two, and Peyton speaks up, "Tonight, Brooke. Not next Tuesday."

"I was fifteen", Brooke begins, "and I got pregnant," Brooke doesn't look up from the floor but she knows that jaws were falling and eyes were open wide.

"I wasn't going to have a baby. I was a kid. Who had no idea that there were consequences for her actions. So, I took the only way out that I knew. The Planned Parenthood in Fayetteville did inexpensive, confidential abortions. Bye bye, baby," Brooke paused.

"But now I want that baby more than anything…"

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Brooke always arrives to school in style and the following Monday was no exception. She had been avoiding her friends since her drunken confession the previous Saturday night.

She walks through the hallway a few minutes before school was to start and Peyton found her quickly.

"Brooke, wait."

Brooke stops abruptly, "I shouldn't have said what I did. I talk when I'm drunk. You, P. Sawyer, are supposed to watch me when I drink so I don't make myself look like an ass."

"Brooke, why didn't you talk to me then?"

"I don't know. I knew that abortion was my only option, so why spread the news and risk all of Tree Mountain finding out?"

"I guess that makes sense. But we're best friends and I wish you would've let me comfort you."

"Yeah, me too. But I was young and scared shitless. I had to get rid of her and out of sight, out of mind, right?"

Peyton cocks her head to the side, "You tell me, Brookie."

The bell rings, and Peyton puts her arm around Brooke and they walk together to first period.

Once lunch came, Brooke was still apprehensive about facing her friends. She warily walked to their usual lunch table.

"Hey Tigger", Haley yelled towards Brooke, "Come sit, babe. We don't bite."

Brooke smiles, "Yeah, I know that. I might, though." Brooke sat down and began to seem more comfortable.

Nathan grunted, "Damn, I hate Mondays."

Lucas smiles, "Who doesn't?"

Haley chimes in, "I don't mind them."

"That's because you're weird", Brooke smiles.

"Ha, thanks, Brookie."

"Oh, anytime tutorwife."

Brooke smiles brightly, "Well, we could ignore the fact that it's Monday and start making crazy, wild plans for this weekend."

Peyton laughs, "Only you, Davis."

"I'm not ashamed!"

Nathan chimes in, "Just don't get wasted this time, Brooke. Only one major confession a month, please."

Haley punches him in the arm, "Haley! What was that for?"

Brooke adjusts in her seat, "Don't worry about it. You guys had to find out sooner or later. Might as well have been when I was drunk."

"If you want to talk about it, we'll always be here to listen. If you don't want to talk about it, then we'll keep quiet. Including you, Nathan."

"Thanks, Hales", Brooke smiles, "I would love to talk about it, just not here and now. Too public, you know?"

Everyone nods in agreement.

"Why don't you and Peyton come over for dinner. A girl's night in on a schoolnight!"

The guys grin and Lucas speaks, "What a rebel you are, Haley!"

"Be careful. Don't want you to get too wild now."

"Shut up, Scotts. I'd love to come, Haley, thanks."

Peyton agrees, "I'll bring the raw cookie dough."

Brooke licks her lips, "Then I'm definitely in! Great suggestion, Blondie."

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The girls gather in Haley and Nathan's apartment at about 7 that evening. There was lots of ice cream involved.

Haley was as chipper as ever, "Okay, girl talk!"

Brooke sighs, "I guess this is my cue, then", Brooke smiles as the girls both nod, "the end of freshman year. I won't name the guy- it doesn't matter. I was throwing up for weeks and I knew I had to be pregnant. But I still kept drinking. Because I'm a moron. Before I knew it, I was fairly far along. I got the abortion very hesitantly. Spur of the moment even though I knew it had to happen. I was just a little over four months pregnant. A girl. It took just a half hour for her to disappear from my life", Brooke was practically crying at this point.

Peyton was the first to break the silence, "She obviously hasn't disappeared, Brooke. Physically, yeah. But otherwise, she's very much around."

"Always the perceptive one, Peyt", Brooke half-smiles, wiping tears from her cheeks.

Haley speaks next, "She's all you think about, right?"

"Why am I surrounded by such smart people?"

Peyton and Haley spoke simultaneously, "Well?"

"All the time", Brooke mutters under her breath, "all the G-ddamned time. Sometimes I wonder if I made a mistake. But then I think about how I was so unprepared to be a mother. But I still wish I could've had that baby."

Haley and Peyton grab Brooke for a group hug. Brooke, as always, had to spoil the moment, "You know I love you girls more than anything, but every now and then I like to breathe."

The girls smile and stand together.

Peyton is the first to speak, "I'm sorry you spent so long holding all that inside. I will never know what that felt like. But I'm glad you finally told us. Even though you were drunk when you did." The girls all smile.

"So Tigger, anymore confessions?"

"Truth? I think I'm pregnant again."

Peyton, as usual, broke the silence, "Oh boy…"

"You took the words right out of my mouth, Peyton", Haley responded.

Peyton paused, "Felix's?"

Brooke's eyes bulged slightly, "Oh g-d, no. Felix and I are, like, way done."

"Do you know who the father is?" Haley asks cautiously.

"Tutorwife! I'm not that much of a slut!" Brooke playfully hits Haley and they smile.

"Well?" Peyton gets back on topic quickly.

Brooke shifts in her seat, "Take a wild guess, P."

Peyton doesn't miss a beat, "Lucas."

Brooke nods and begins to cry, "I've been pregnant, I've had umpteenth scares, and still I don't learn. What the hell is wrong with me?"

"Goodness, Brooke. Nothing is wrong with you, right Peyton?"

"Hey, Haley James-Scott never lies", and all three girls giggle.

"Do you even know if you're definitely pregnant?"

"Um, I haven't take a test but I know what being pregnant feels like. Plus, I'm almost more than a month late."

Haley comes up with an idea, as usual, "Brooke, why don't you make a doctor's appointment and Peyton and I will tag along."

"No doubt, B. I'm with H. Scott."

Brooke starts to cry again but she smiles at the same time, "Not to be cliché and corny, but what did I do to deserve friends like you?"

Peyton smiles back, "I think we feel just as lucky."

"Okay, enough of this mushiness! Pass the cookie dough!", Brooke announces.

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End chapter one. I wrote this a while ago, but just decided to post it here. It takes place around senior year. Please review!