Disclaimer: Thirteen Reasons Why is not and never will be mine. All characters and events are the author's. (So don't sue me please!)
Author's Note: This is actually a short little assignment that I wrote for English class. I'm a freshman in high school and we're reading Thirteen Reasons Why. An amazing book--we've got one tape left! (As of 10/31/2009) So, we were assigned to choose one of the characters (not Hannah or Clay) and write something from their point of view. Well, I don't remember the exact assignment, but it was something like that. We could choose to make the person either evil or good. I chose Jessica and decided that she would be (relatively) good--at least, understandable-- for the purposes of the assignment. This is Jessica right after she listens to her tape. Jessica's POV. She's "talking" to Hannah.
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Sorry Will Never Be Enough
God, Hannah. I didn't… I mean, how was I supposed to know? I heard all the rumors… I can hear you in my head now.
"They were rumors," you say. "You should know not to believe everything you hear."
And I know, Hannah. Now I know. God, now I know. And I'm sorry, Hannah.
"That doesn't cover it," you say. "You put a knife in my back and 'sorry' doesn't change that."
I know that sorry doesn't change anything. But at least you'll give me a chance to explain? In my mind's eye, I can see you. You're mad, I know. But I've listened to your story. Now please give me a second chance. I need to explain.
God, Hannah… I was so messed up after Alex and I broke up. I felt so lost. And then I heard the rumors. Hannah, what could I do? I hadn't seen our break up coming… It all made sense. Or at least, I thought it did. If you and Alex… well, that would explain it all. It would explain Alex's sudden actions, why he didn't seem at all upset… I mean, I thought it was more than coincidence that the rumors reached me the same day that Alex and I broke up. Everything fit together, like the pieces of a puzzle. But the picture…
Hannah, I was so confused and upset--confused, upset, and angry. And then at Monet's… It seriously sounded like you were admitting to it. And then I just lost it, Hannah. I lost it, and before I knew it my hand was flying towards your face and I'm still not sure if I wanted to pull it back or speed it up…
And now I know that I was wrong… I know that now. Oh, Hannah, now that I know the truth, I'm so painfully aware of it. I'm sorry, so sorry…
And I hear your voice in my mind, still. And I know that sorry will never be enough…
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