Not Me
I lay on my bed. Feeling sick, disgusted, and dirty, I was repulsed by my own skin, where his hands met mine. I was scratching over and over again, up and down my arms until my finger nails were covered in skin and blood. Hearing someone enter the house, I sat up, scared as hell and I could feel myself tremble. I looked under my bed and grabbed the baseball bat I had stolen from Seth's room, slowly I moved towards the door opening it quickly with the bat in hand, to my relief no one was outside my bedroom door.
"Who is it?" I whispered loud enough for my ears only. I moved closer to the stairs, took in a quick breath, and sprinted down the stairs holding the baseball bat in front of me ready to attack.
"Shit Leah you scared me" it was Seth and Jacob. I relaxed letting go of the bat, Seth looked at me, holding his hand against his chest he moved towards the sofa. He paused for a moment and looked back at me noticing the look on my face.
"Leah you ok?" Jacob looked back at me too.
"Leah..." Seth moved closer towards me and I took a step back. That's when he noticed the bat laying at my feet.
"Leah what happened?"
"You're bleeding" how was I going to tell them when I couldn't't bring myself to even think about it? Jacob came closer; my eyes were downcast, and worried he pulled my chin up so that I would face him.
"Leah what's going on?" Jacob's said his voice quietly; I pulled away and stood to the side. I looked at the both, holding onto my dress that was now falling apart.
"I-I" What the hell was happening to my legs? They felt like jelly
Darkness.
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"Leah- Leah you ok? Leah?" My eyes flickered open to find Rosalie standing over me.
"She's awake" Rosalie said stiffly over her shoulder.
"How are you feeling?" I'm in the Cullen's mansion? Sitting up slowly, my eyes adjusted to the light.
"I'm fine." Well that was a lie; I wouldn't't be in a hospital bed with a tube stuck in my hand if I were fine.
"You fainted last night" Esme said placing her hand softly on my forehead "Are you hungry? You were unconscious all night and for the most of today" I wasn't in the mood to eat. Who would be after the events of yesterday.
"No I'm not hungry but thanks" She placed the plate of food right beside me with a knowing look.
"Alright, just in case you feel hungry it's here" She gestured to the table, and then sat down on the edge of the bed. All the other Cullen's joined her in the room
"Leah what's wrong?" Jacob asked softly standing next to the bed.
The events of last night came flooding into my mind and I instantly felt sick. Why me? Then Carsile spoke.
"You were unconscious for hours Leah, have there been any changes in your body lately, any illnesses?" Seth sat on the bed beside me with a concerned look painted all over his face.
"Leah what going on with you?" Keeping my eyes downcast I said.
"Please just let me talk to Jacob and Seth alone." They all left except for Rosalie.
"No one deserves that; you and I are just unlucky. It's weird though I never thought I would have something in common with a dog" she said.
"Leah, you need to tell us what's going on" Jacob said persistent almost demanding to know, ignoring Rosalie.
I nodded slowly feeling pathetic. I never saw this coming; things like this didn't happen to me.
"Leah you're scaring the hell out of us, just tell us we can help you" He looked at Seth then back to me. No you can't! That's what I wanted to scream. Instead I just went with the direct approach, hey who cares anyway I'm just the bitter harpy right?
"I was raped, satisfied?"
The room went silent only our breathing could be heard.
Chap one re-done by Cheris15