She looked at him, staring into those beautiful green eyes she had looked into for the last 3 years. But this time they weren't full of light, they were dark. No longer did she look into them and see him looking back at her. She couldn't see his soul and the love he had for her, and that alone broke her heart.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'll be the one, if you want me to.
They were different she knew it. There was no way this could be true. She knew him, he wouldn't do this. They had been through everything. For 3 years they fought the ups and downs of life for each other, for their love to make it. And now here they stood, 5 little words separating them, tearing them apart at the seams.
Anywhere I would have followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Her heart was bursting, it was ripping apart and she couldn't stop it, let alone stop the pain. She loved him, they were soul mates. They were going to go to college together and then start a life together. They would spend their lives loving each other and growing together. He was her life. What would she do now? Where would this leave her? Alone. She felt small, smaller than she ever had before. How did she not realize?
And I am feeling so small. It was over my head.
I know nothing at all.
She didn't know how she would go on without him and the love they once shared. Love blinds us all and now she knew how very true that was. In that moment she realized how very little she knew about love. Loving him was never the problem, but now she wondered if he ever loved her back. Would she ever love again? How would she be able to?
And I will stumble and fall. I'm still learning to love.
Just starting to crawl.
He just stood there not saying anything. She pleaded, and begged. She deserved an answer. Why did he do this? Did she do something? Wasn't she good enough for him? She blamed herself for his mistake, thinking that if she had done something different it would have never happened. She didn't understand. She did everything for him. She gave him her love and self whole heartedly, wasn't that enough?
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
They could have had everything, a family, a house, a love that would never end. She would have given him anything and do anything he asked of her. Maybe he knew that and used it against her. She didn't know. She used to picture him as her hero. He was the boy who broke down her walls and showed her the beautiful woman inside. He made her do the scariest thing of all. He made her feel strong and proud. But now all she felt was weak and stupid.
Anywhere I would have followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
She knew it wouldn't work. There was no way she would ever look at him the same now. There was no way she could love him the way she always did. He took that away from her. He broke her and the realization was too much to handle. She was attached to him, bounded to him in the most intimate and precious way, he had destroyed that. She had given him the most sacred thing she would ever posses, and she would never get that back. She knew what she had to do but she didn't know if she was strong enough to. She loved him desperately, and part of her didn't know if she could let him go. She didn't know if she could make it. But she knew she had to try.
And I will swallow my pride.
You're the one that I love, and I'm saying goodbye.
Tears poured down her face, but he didn't even look up. "You do know what this means don't you?" He didn't answer. "I can't do this anymore." Still nothing. She was screaming on the inside for an answer but she knew she had to be strong.
Say something I'm giving up on you.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
"Goodbye Eli." She turned to walk away but his hand on her wrist stopped her. "Please don't do this. I love you. You can't leave me." She shook him off. "I didn't do anything, you did. I loved you with everything and you destroyed that. You left me. The sad thing about it is that I really did love you. And I would have done anything for you. I would have given you everything, but you ruined that."
And anywhere I would have followed you. Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
Say something I'm giving up on you.
"You're not who I thought you were. That was the Eli I loved." She walked away leaving it all behind her. She didn't know what would happen now. But she did know that she would make it. She didn't know if she would ever love again or even find someone that would love her. But she knew that she would love herself. She loved Eli with her whole body mind and soul. And as much as it hurt her she knew she was doing the right thing.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Say something…