Welcome to my story Boulevard of Broken Dreams. I am so excited to be writing my first Blue Bloods fan fiction. I love the books and several of the fan fictions that are out there that I've finally decided to write my own. Obviously, I'm not Melissa de la Cruz, but I hope you will enjoy this story which takes places after the fourth book and will have some spoilers for the fifth one. This story will feature around the Allegra/Charles relationship as well as the Jack/Schuyler relationship. While Allegra tries to rescue Charles from the gate secrets come out about her relationship, secrets that could very well affect Schuyler. There's a more detailed summary in my profile if you're interested. Please review. I know it's a lot to ask, but authors really like reviews and it let's us know whether or not we should continue writing.
Enjoy,
Lily
Chapter 1: Momma Knows Best
Allegra Van Alen sighed heavily as she left her daughter. Not Schuyler, but Bliss.
She still couldn't believe she had another child that somehow her birth was blocked out her existence. She certainly remembered her other child's birth. That was a big ordeal. Not only was Schuyler born ridiculously early, but she had also endured Charles's wrath throughout her entire pregnancy. To say the least, it hadn't been pleasant.
Not that she blamed him especially now since she found out about Bliss. To betray him twice, she was really an awful person.
Yes, an awful person. Allegra would be the first to admit it. Why else had she forced herself to endure the past fourteen years in a coma, besides the fact that she was a coward that couldn't face Charles and admit that she was wrong.
She had ruined several lives. And she knew it. Not only her own and Charles, but her daughter: Schuyler.
She remembered her brief meeting with youngest child. The daughter that looked so much like her, save for her eyes and hair. And while Schuyler listened to Allegra as she described the gates and begged her forgiveness for what was said in her dreams, Allegra knew that deep down her daughter was disgusted with her. As she should be she was no mother. She didn't even remember having Bliss until the other day. And even now, all she had was mere shadows of memories.
She remembered that hot summer night in that dark room. She didn't remember how long she was there, but she knew it was a long time. She remembered the pain, the excruciating pain and screaming. Oh, had she screamed. She had never felt something that painful in all her lifetimes. And the screaming her daughter screaming. And then she remembered the baby being taken away, told it was dead by Michael who was Cassius then.
Despite the fact that in every incarnation they were in they looked different, there was something about Michael that remained the same and each and every cycle. The look of disappointment on his face. Oh, it was true there were other things she recognized like the look of determination in passion in his eyes or his smile whenever he saw her for the first time, but his look of disappointment that was always the one she thought about first when she thought about Michael.
Allegra felt horrible about the way she treated him, now that she knew the truth about what had really happened in Florence, which was one of the reasons she was determined to find him amongst others. She had to do something to repair their relationship, although she didn't know what exactly she was going to do.
Except to find him.
That was what she had to do first. She had to find someway to get into the dimension he was in and pull him out. It would be risky since the Silver Bloods themselves had been trying to open the portals themselves, so that they could release Lucifer.
Thinking of Lucifer made her want to throw up. She did not know what made her attracted to him in the past enough to conceive Bliss, but she knew Bliss was not a child of rape. She was made of what was thought of love. Although, Allegra had no idea how that came to be.
She knew though how Schuyler came to be. She remembered the illicit little affair that she had with her familiar Stephen that lead to marriage. Charles, to say the least, was not happy with her but then Allegra didn't care since she thought he was a traitor of all things.
Just thinking about her time with Stephen made Allegra grown as she thought about her encounters with her former bond mate throughout those years. To say it was heated, would be an understatement especially after that one blasted night. And even more so after she had Schuyler.
Like when she had Bliss, Charles came to visit her slightly after the birth. With Schuyler, Allegra hadn't felt much. The only thing she had felt, was extreme panic since Schuyler was delivered too soon.
"Don't give me that look," She remembered telling him as he came into her room with a bouquet of white roses. It was always white roses even after they were broken up and married to different people.
"What look, Gabrielle?" He said as he came towards her and began stroking her hair.
She grimaced at this. It felt too good. He always made her feel wonderful, despite her better judgment. "The look you're giving me now," She said. "Like I have caused you a huge grievance."
He laughed, "But haven't you?"
She groaned. Honestly, she knew she had. Bonds in general weren't supposed to be messed with, but she loved Stephen. At least she thought she did at the time, how things had changed.
"Charles, I've just given birth to my own child. A new experience for me and my daughter is in critical condition. This is no time to fight."
He nodded, "I heard about the child's condition. But it might be for the best."
Allegra was flummoxed. "What? What are talking about?"
He sighed, "There are members in the conclave who want to get rid of your baby, Allegra."
She glared at him. "You know I won't let them do that."
"I know," he said. "And I don't blame you, this time."
She gave him an odd look, as she had no idea what he was talking about at the time. "What did you say, Charles?"
"Nothing, nothing, my dear." He said, "Well, I must be off Trinity is insistent that we take twins to the zoo today. She's really taking this whole parenting thing seriously."
She knew he was trying to change the subject, but she didn't press him. Instead, she went with it. That was always one of their problems, changing the subject. They were so good at it though and Allegra soon found herself asking Charles, "How is it raising those two?"
He gave her an add look, "What do you mean? It's like raising any young Blue Blood spirit."
Allegra laughed. "Oh, come on, Charles. You and I both know you don't care for Abbadon that much. And for Azrael- well, no one really cares for her except for Abbadon. And I even think he grows tired of her at times."
Charles laughed. "Yes, Benjamin does seem to get annoyed with Madeline at times. But you know Abbadon and Azrael, whatever problems they have they'll always be together in the end."
"They said the same about us," Allegra said with deep resolve.
Charles shrugged. "We were different, what do I say? Now, Allegra I have to go. Is there anything else you want to tell me?"
No, there wasn't. That was one of the last two times they saw each other that they were actually civil with each other. The last time she had actually had saw Charles was right after she left Stephen. She still remembered the awful fight they had.
"I told you nothing good would come of your relationship with him," Charles told her.
She remembered glaring at him. Although, for the most part Charles was true in this statement. There was one good thing that came out of that relationship. She supposed she overreacted though when he said this. "How, dare you." She remembered telling him.
He looked at her, "What, I'm just stating the truth."
"My daughter," Allegra said. "My daughter was worth this relationship."
"If you say so," Charles said.
She remembered slapping him then and telling him to get out that she never wanted to see him again. And she didn't. He made sure of it. He never answered her calls, letters, or anything after that day. And Allegra fell into despair which eventually lead to her coma.
It was really silly being in a coma for a decade and a half when she could get up at anytime. It was selfish even, and even Allegra knew that. She had a daughter. A daughter without a father who needed a mother and Allegra didn't do that.
The worst thing of all was that Allegra was aware of Schuyler's presence. She was aware of her pleadings whenever she visited Allegra at the hospital. She knew of her loneliness, she knew of her relationship with Jack Force.
Allegra let loose a bitter laugh. It was only fitting that her youngest would follow in her footsteps. However, Allegra hoped that Schuyler's relationship with Jack ended up better than her relationship with Stephen. Personally, she thought it would. It wasn't like Jack Force was a habitual user of drugs. Besides, he cared for her daughter she could tell when he had came with her those few times to visit her.
Allegra sighed. That was one thing about being comatose for the past decade and a half you could hear what everyone truly thought about you. Well, everyone but Charles. It was as if he knew she could hear and had purposely blocked her from hearing him. Although, she sensed him there a lot.
She wondered why he would visit her if he didn't want her to know he was there. Was it some sort of torture? Well, she was going to ask him herself as soon as she opened that damn gate.
She knew that the Gate of Promises was out. Schuyler and Jack would undoubtedly be looking for that together she needed to go to another gate. Perhaps, the Gate of Secrets. Yes, that would be fitting. And Delilah should be relatively easy to overcome without her twin.
Allegra heavily sighed as she thought about those two: Delilah and Ezildur. They were the exact opposite of her and Charles. Instead of being willingly apart like she and Charles, they were force apart. Maybe with a little manipulating she could get Delilah to budge. Yes, she could do that. Or at least she hoped.
She didn't want to result to using violence with Delilah. She liked her. Even though she and her twin had caused so much havoc.
At this point Allegra's limo stopped at the airport. It was time. To fly to London, to save and face her twin.