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Preface: Emmett's POV
"I'm the guy who has to pretend to be someone I'm not to please everyone else.
I'm the guy who has to sacrifice my happiness, just to make my family and friends happy.
I'm the guy who wishes that he could stop pretending, in order to be what everyone else wants.
I'm just a simple man, without any hope and pride,
Waiting for the day I don't have to hide."
I closed my book and cut off my lamp before I went to bed.
My secrets lie heavily on my soul and I prayed that I could be myself for just once.
Emmett's POV
I woke up with a heavy heart and a clouded conscience. I wasn't looking forward to this new tour. '10 cities in 2 weeks...how the hell was that going to work?'
We were scheduled to leave in half an hour and I wasn't even excited. This whole rockstar thing wasn't really me anymore. It wasn't that I didn't look the part. I'm not conceited or anything, but I'm fucking hot. I mean...if I were a chick, I'd totally fuck me.
Yeah. That hot.
I was thrown from my own vain thoughts when my manager Edward walked in.
"You ready Emmett?" he asked me, "You look sad, or deep in thought or some other shit. Are you high?" he questioned with a straight face.
I frowned. He knew damn well that I didn't do drugs, but that's Edward for you. Always a jokester. That's mainly the reason I keep him around. Not to mention he's my brother.
I cleared my throat. "I'm as ready as I'll ever be." I grunted out. I just couldn't keep the sadness from my voice.
"Come on man you gotta get pumped. This tour is a big fucking deal. We're sold out in every city." He said with wide eyes.
Sometimes I wonder if Edward is envious of me being the rockstar and him being the stereotypical brother/manager. If he is, he's damn good at hiding it.
"At least try to look happy. You're the only rockstar I know that doesn't like being a rockstar." He fired off. He's my brother, but damn he's annoying.
"Fine man, let's go" I all but growled at him. This was going to be a long ass tour.
Rosalie's POV
I was sick and tired of going through the motions. Work, work, work. Things had become so mundane. But that's the price of living in a small town. That's also the price of being a mechanic. Granted there were always plenty of cars that broke down here and I would never go broke, but damn. Everyone always tells me to go on vacations, but how am I supposed to make money if I'm not at work? I guess the dumbasses don't think of that.
I was just opening up shop when my BFF and best worker Bella walked in. "Hey Rose," she practically radiated happiness. She was actually happy. How the fuck could she be happy when I'm so bored I have to pee to entertain myself?
"I don't get how you can always be so damn happy in a rainy hell-hole like this. I'm gonna die from boredom. At least it would give me something to do." Maybe sarcasm would get me through the day.
"It's because I have something you don't. A maaaaan." She stretched the word to make it sound like I didn't know what one was. We all knew that Bella was madly in love with her boyfriend Jake. They fell in love when we were in high school, and were still together 5 years later. How fucking sweet.
"You know Bella you really don't have to show off. We all get it. You have a hot boyfriend that pounds you into oblivion every night. You know, if he were that good, you wouldn't be a mechanic in shitty little Forks." All of my workers know not to show up too happy unless they want to get cut down. But Bella just likes to fuck with me.
"Whatever you say Rose. But you can always be my nanny when me and Jake get married." She had her 'Ha bitch I won that exchange' smirk on. I'll let her think she won. Just this once.
"Shut the hell up Bella and get to work." Being in one of her mordacious moods, maybe today wouldn't be to boring.
Emmett's POV
We'd been on the road for about 4 hours. Our first show was tonight in Seattle. We still had about 2 hours before we got there though. This gave me plenty of time to think.
About me. About how I was tired of this whole façade and not being able to be myself. I thought that was what life was about. Being yourself. Not what everyone wanted you to be? I wanted to be able to wake up and be what I really was. But it wasn't that simple.
I new something was wrong when one of the stage managers came in and whispered something to Edward. His face immediately paled before he whispered something back. He then quietly stood before exiting the room. Seriously? We hadn't even reached Seattle and something was already fucked up.
He returned a couple of minutes later looking scared. Did he honestly think I would hit him because something went wrong? What a dick.
"Em." Uh-oh. That nickname only came from Edward when something was totally fucked up.
"What is it?" I didn't realize that I had shouted until Edward winced. "Sorry man. What's the matter?"
"Don't be pissed," 'I'm gonna have to kick his ass.' "But the check engine light is on and we need to pull over to have it looked at." 'Yep I'm gonna kick his ass.'
"What the fuck do you mean the check engine light is on? I thought I told you to have the damn bus checked before we left", I screamed. How could he have been so stupid? "Is there even anywhere to stop? We're in the middle of fucking nowhere." It didn't go unnoticed that Edward was still standing on the other side of the room. I'll give my brother that. He's far from dumb.
"Already taken care of. We're pulling over at Rose's Auto Repair." Rose. Meaning girl. How the hell was a girl supposed to fix something?
"Can't we go to a male mechanic? I don't really want a chick working on my bus." I wanted to fucking kill Edward. I mean he's done some dumb shit before, but THIS. It totally took the fucking cake.
"Emmett. We're in fucking Forks, Washington. There's only one body shop. So get over your stupid ass ways so we can move on with our lives." He's a bold little bastard. How dare he step to me after he fucked up the beginning of the tour? My patience was really being tested here.
"If this chick fucks my bus up, I'm gonna fuck you up runt," I growled. I rarely even noticed the MAJOR size difference between the two of us. But when trying to get my point across, it really came in handy. "Now get the hell out of my face before I maul yours." No more words were needed.
Edward quickly left the room to let the driver know that I had given my consent, and I tried to go back to my original thoughts. Not only did I wish I didn't have to hide in broad daylight anymore, but I wished I worked with some sensible people. I knew this damn tour wasn't going to go smoothly.
Rosalie's POV
Damn I hated Forks. All there ever is to do is watch the moss grow. This says a lot about this small town. Sometimes I wish someone would take me away from here. I always wanted to be a trophy wife. Or a rockstar's wife. I think I like the second one better.I would make a totally hot rockstar wife.
I mean I'm totally fucking hot.
Any man, rockstar or not, would be happy to have me.
"So what do you think Rose?"
What the hell was she talking about? How long had she even been talking?
Great.
Now I'm going to have to come up with a lie about a subject I don't even know.
"You look pretty in the red ones." Damn I didn't guess right because she gave me the 'bitch I'm gonna kill you for not listening' glare. "Fine you caught me. What the fuck were you saying? Although I really don't care." Honesty is the best policy right?
"Damn Rose. I said what do you think Jake is going to ask me tonight? He said it's really important and that I might need some time to think."
'Really Bella? Are you that damn dumb? Isn't it obvious?'
"And you call me dumb. He's gonna ask you to marry him you idiot. What the fuck do you need him to do? Write it in the sky?" I know she can be a little slow sometimes, but damn. It's like she really doesn't get it. This is the guy you've been with since we were in high school and you really have to question?
"You know Rose, I don't think you know how you hurt me sometimes", she pretended to sob. "You really don't care do you?" Of course I care. But she wasn't going to know. That's just not me.
"Shut up Bella. I care. To some extent." I punctuated the sentence with a smile to show her it was only a joke.
Whatever she was about to say was cut short when we heard a vehicle pull up outside.
'Finally some business.'
The guy that walked in would have been cute if he didn't look like uncooked toast. He was tall, and had a rather muscular build. 'I'd fuck him.'
"Is one of you Rose?" he asked in a rather angelic voice.
"That would be me. How can I help you?" I said in a sweet voice. My customers always got a different side of me.
"The check engine light on my brother's tour bus is on and we really need to have it looked at. Do you think you can look at it?"
'Wait. Tour bus? Who the hell is his brother that he needs a tour bus?'
"Of course. Come on in and have a seat. You can get your brother to come in and have a seat too." This was mostly because I wanted to know who the fuck his brother was. A damn tour bus? You don't get too many of those in Forks.
"I'll go get him." Why did his voice sound strained?
He quickly left the room. I wonder what that was all about?
"Did you catch the apprehension in his voice towards the end?" I forgot Bella was even still standing there.
"Yeah I did. Maybe his brother's ugly. I guess we'll find out soon enough." Soon couldn't here quick enough.
Emmett's POV
I was totally still pissed at Edward for not having the tour bus checked. I mean it's common sense that if your going on a cross country tour, then you're going to need to have your damn tour bus checked. I was totally going to kill him. And where the hell does he get off pulling us over in Forks, Washington?
I was thrown from my own enraged thoughts when Edward came back on the bus.
"Yo man come on. You can't sit on this bus forever. Besides, Rose is FUCKING HOT. Come on in man. You gotta see her." I was totally not going to fall for this shit. I mean she's an auto mechanic. How hot can she really be?
"I don't think so man. I'm staying my happy ass right here on this bus." I mostly just wanted to get the hell out of this little shit-hole town. And if I stayed on the bus, that meant as soon as she was done, we could get back on the road.
"Seriously man. Get off of this bus, before I drag you off."
He was really serious. HA. In what damn universe could this little pipsqueak drag me any damn where? I'll give the little bastard this; he never backs down from anyone.
"Alright man. Just because you've lightened my mood, I'll go in," I said laughingly as I got up. As I left the room, I tousled Edward's hair. The glower he sent my way didn't go unnoticed.
As I entered the shop, I noticed one thing.
One very hot thing.
I mean…..DAMN. She was like an angel. She had long, blond hair and the most beautiful figure I had ever seen. She had the most beautiful golden brown eyes in the world. She was what my wet dreams were all about.
"Oh my fucking god. You're Emmett McCarthy," she said in a seraphic tone.
"Why yes I am," I said with a shaky tone.
Damn Emmett. Real smooth.
Rosalie's POV
O my fucking god. Emmett McCarthy was in MY auto shop.
'How the fuck did he end up in Forks?' I didn't realize I had actually asked this question until he answered.
"My shit for brains brother forgot to have my bus checked before we left. I'm so glad you had time to look at it today." Wow. A rockstar with common sense.
'I just might get lucky today.'
"For a big rockstar like you, I always have time. I'll go look at it now," I made sure to flash him my man-eater smile. This one wasn't going to slip away.
Emmett's POV
'Goddamn. This bitch is fine,' I thought as I watched Rose fix my tour bus. 'I bet she's so tight you have to have a permit to get in.' I knew I shouldn't really be having these thoughts about her, but who wouldn't. She's beauty personified.
I couldn't help but think, 'Would she want me if she knew the real me? The Emmett McCarthy that doesn't give a damn about rock music. '
I was so into my own thoughts that I had forgotten my brother was even still in the room. "So Em. I think you owe me an apology, because this is turning out pretty well. At least little Emmett seems to think so," he chuckled as he pointed to the obvious tent in my pants.
"Shut the fuck up Edward," I growled as he crossed the room to talk to the object of his attention at the moment. The pretty girl struggling to get a heavy box on the top shelf. 'Why not listen in?'
"Allow me to help you," he said as he took the box from her and easily put it on the top shelf. "What's a pretty girl like you doing lifting heavy boxes?" I gotta respect my brother when it came to spitting game. He's the fucking king.
"Someone's gotta do it," she blushed as she replied.
"Just take it easy. Wouldn't want you pull a muscle. You're way to hot for that," he said in low voice.
'What a crock of shit.'
I really wanted to tell this girl that my brother only wanted to fuck her. That's all he ever wanted to do with the girls he meets when we went on these trips. And of course the girls just eat the shit right up.
"I'm Edward McCarthy," he purred as he kissed her hand.
'I think I'm gonna puke.'
"I'm Isabella Swan, but everyone calls me Bella," she flushed as Edward caught a stray strand of hair that had fallen out of her ponytail and put it back into place.
"Beautiful name for a beautiful girl," he replied placing another kiss to her hand.
'I don't think I can take much more of this shit.'
Rosalie's POV
I could feel him watching me as I fixed his bus. There wasn't really a big problem. Just some worn out spark plugs that I had actually finished putting on about ten minutes ago. I just reveled in the fact that Emmett McCarthy was staring at my ass.
'I wonder how big his dick is? If I'm lucky, I might find out,' I thought as I washed my hands and headed back inside. If I land a rockstar, I can rub it all in Royce's face.
Royce.
The dick-head that broke my heart.
But the past is the past.
"All fixed," I said cheerily as I re-entered the building. People just think that me and Royce didn't work out. They don't know all the shit he put me through. And that's just how I like it.
"Awe. Already?" Emmett and Edward said unison.
"Yeah. You just needed some new spark plugs. The old ones were totally worn out."
'Damn I loved to see the look on guys faces when they find out that I actually know my shit.'
"Maybe we could hang around for a little while longer," Edward suggested as he looked away from a very flushed Bella.
'What the fuck is she doing? She's with Jake.' Oh well. I'll get on her ass later.
"As much as I hate being the voice of reason, we really do need to get back on the road man," Emmett said with true sadness in his voice.
'Wow. Bella and I really can make guys stray from the path. In this case, it just happens to be a good thing.'
"Awe come on. You guys can stay for a little while longer," said Bella tracing a pattern on the back of Edward's neck.
'What the fuck has gotten into her? I mean this guy was the complete opposite of Jake. What the hell has made her so damn hot for this guy?'
"Sorry love, but we're going to have to," he stroked the side of her face.
'Love? What the hell? I know I haven't been looking at that damn bus that long.'
"How much do I owe you?" Emmett asked as I just stared at the disgusting scene before me.
"For you…..it's on the house," I winked at him. "If you call me later." I smiled as I handed him a piece of paper with my phone number on it.
"No problem angel," his dimples were on full display as he and his brother left the shop.
'Damn look at that ass. The fun I could have squeezing that thing.' I wanted to continue my explicit thoughts, but now is the perfect time to get on Bella's ass.
"We seriously need to talk about the shit you just pulled." She knew this wasn't my usual joking mood. She knew I was about to chew on that ass.
Emmett's POV
"And did you see her ass man," Edward drowned on about that Bella girl. I get it. You like her. Shut the hell up. "So when are you going to call Rose?" I immediately came back into the conversation at the mention of the name.
"I don't know man," I lied. Truth is, I wanted to call her right now. But I couldn't seem too desperate. That's a major turn off whether you're a boy or a girl.
"I think tonight after the show is the perfect time. She could be at our hotel in a couple of hours. Not to mention, she might bring that hot friend of hers with her." I should have known that's what Edward was really after. He only wants something good for me when there is something good in it for him.
"You sick fuck. She could have a boyfriend you know. If a good girl like that doesn't have a boyfriend, then something has got to be wrong."
'I wonder why Rose doesn't have a boyfriend?'
It's like he read my fucking mind. "Then why doesn't Rose have a man. Or does she have one and just isn't telling you," he replied with a sick smirk.
'I fucking hate him.'
I was just about to reply when we came to stop. "We're here," he squealed in a rather high pitch voice. "Come on. We gotta get ready for the sound check." Edward was always more excited than me when we went on these tours.
I tried to look happy as we exited the bus.
Rosalie's POV
"What the fuck Bella? Did you forget that you have boyfriend?" I was shouting at this point. Jake and I weren't the best of friends, but I wasn't going to let Bella cheat on him.
"I'm sorry Rose. I don't know what came over me. I guess it's just since Jake might ask me to marry him, I'm just a little bit scared," she replied in a small voice. She actually had tears in her eyes. Damn. I didn't mean to make her cry. I didn't even know I could do that. 'But that's real nice to know for future reference.'
"I understand where you're coming from Bella," I lowered my tone, "But you have to understand that Jake loves you. And I may not say this all the time, but I do to. I don't want to see you make any mistakes." I gave her a hug.
"Awe Rose. I love you too," by this point she was crying. I must have held her like that for hours. I didn't let Bella see it, but I actually shed a few tears myself.
Emmett's POV
I couldn't wait for this stupid show to be over. The rehearsal went pretty smoothly and we had about 3 hours until the actual show. This was the hardest part. Being in front of everyone, flaws and all. I wanted nothing more than to get on that stage tonight and tell the entire city of Seattle "FUCK IT."
I was sick and tired of pretending to be something I'm not. Putting what I wanted on the back burner so that I could make everyone else happy.
Two hours until I get out of these tight ass leather pants. 'They're starting to fucking itch,' I thought as I started to scratch myself through the leather.
"Wow man. What the fuck are you trying to do? Have an orgasm?" I jumped at the sound of my brother's voice.
'How long had he been standing there watching? Fucking pervert.'
"I can't believe I actually dress like this for these stupid shows. The shit I do for my job," I grumbled as I adjusted the stupid ass collar I was wearing. "I can't believe I haven't quit yet."
"What do you mean 'quit'? You're a fucking rockstar. This isn't a job. This is your life," he exclaimed. I was really getting sick and fucking tired of this.
"You know what Edward? I'm sick of all of this. I'm sick of the lies, the stupid ass shows, the sore throat everyday, but most of all, I'M SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF YOU," I roared as I tour out of the stupid ass outfit I was wearing.
"What are you doing? You can't leave. The show is supposed to start in an hour you big asshole. There are people already here," he yelled at me as I put my clothes back on.
'Newsflash. Not the way you get someone to stay after an argument.'
"Then you get your chicken-legged ass out there and you play rockstar. You always did want to," I bellowed as I left the room.
"I hope you know you're making the biggest mistake of your life. You're gonna regret this," that was the last thing I heard as I rounded the corner.
"Finally I'm free," I sighed as I stepped outside. It felt different knowing that I didn't have to go back. That from this point on, I could do whatever I wanted. "Well, it's now or never," I said to myself as I pulled out Rose's phone number.
A/N: This is probably going to be a 3-part story which I'm going to update every week.
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