Hello my Lovelies. Now you're probably thinking... "Another new story? She hasn't even finished the other ones! And she hasn't updated the other ones in forever!"

Yes, I know unfortunately I am very much behind on things around here. But never you fear I have not stopped work on my other two stories. Just hit a bit of a slow spot. I'm still working on them, they're just going by slowly.

As of right now I have temporarily moved out of my house and I kinda live in the middle of nowhere land so there's no interwebs. :( And I rather use my phones 3g then suffer with the likes of dial-up. Haha

But anyways. The only unfortunate part about all this is, even though I can type my stories up on my phone, this site refuses to allow me to be able to upload them onto the document manager... Hell I can't even use the copy-N-paste option, Which is a total bummer by the way...

But, I plan on being able to update on Wednesdays when I come back here to my Grandmas to help her and such. So we'll see how that goes. I'll try not to abandon things here.

In the meantime I also have an account over on wattpad. I am of course able to upload updates on there from my cellphone no problem. So I plan on throwing all my stories over there. ( wattpad com/Breekinz) the url for over there. So I'd check over there for updates if you don't want to wait till Wednesday. I'll try my best to update daily over there since I'm able too.

Anyways, I want to thank you for being so patient with me. :)

Without any further babbling, I'll take my leave now and allow you to get on with the story =P

See you next update of whatever story I update, byeeeee...

x-Bree

Fragile Hearts

Chapter One

Rethinking

I lay in bed as my phone screen stared back at me giving me the feeling that it was mocking me. The date that it showed hurt my already fragile heart. Today marked two years since I walked away from the only man I ever loved. Even after two years it still hurt me as much as it did the day I left.

As I lay there a bit longer I broke down in quiet sobs as I secretly wished things would have happened differently. Suddenly I was pulled from my pain stricken comatose state by the sound of a soft knock on my door.

"Bree, you okay in there?" I heard a voice come from the other side of the door.

The voice belonged to my best friend, Cry. We've been best friends since we were in diapers. It was also through him that I had eventually found my way to him...

See Cry isn't his real name. Its actually his YouTube persona. Cry had opened me up to the world of YouTube and the land of let's plays. I had been his first subscriber since he started his channel. As Cry built his channel, I build up my list of subscribers, as to the fact that I had no interest in doing YouTube videos.

As I went from YouTuber to YouTuber, I eventually stumbled upon a YouTuber that went by the name of ImmortalHD and instantly found myself hooked.

After watching him for a couple weeks, I decided one day to send him a message telling him how much I enjoyed watching him and how his videos seemed to brighten my day no matter what kind of day I had. To my surprise he ended up replying back, and ended up leading to us exchanging messages everyday.

The longer we talked and the more we got to know each other the more we came infatuated with each other. We quickly went from IMs to Skype, where we finally saw and heard each other for the first time. Shortly after that he said he wanted to meet me in person. This was about six months after we started talking.

So about a week after he said about meeting me he finally flew here to Florida and we had finally met for the first time. We never really put a label on it but we were basically going out for six months before making it official. Because during those six months we'd each make a trip every other month out to one another to visit for a week. Then along his last trip out to Florida to see me he asked me to move in with him. So I up and left everything here in Florida and moved out to Colorado.

Our relationship lasted two and a half years, which was by far the best years of my life. But as we started into our third year, things started to go downhill. YouTube was starting to consume all his time. Not only his channel, but also all the work him and the rest of the Creatures were doing. There were often times that we'd end up fighting over the fact that I barely got to have any time with him to myself. It eventually got to unbearable for me, so I said I had enough, I packed up a bag and flew back to Florida and walked out of his life.

And now here I am two years later and I'm still suffering. Often times I wonder if I really did the right thing. I haven't spoken to him since the day I left and now I avoid YouTube at all costs. It's just painful considering how strongly I felt about him. I often contemplate trying to fix everything but don't know how. I know he used to wonder about me. Even would ask Cry about me but either he stopped or Cry stopped telling me.

Suddenly i was pulled from my thoughts by the sound of my door opening and Cry stuck his head in, "Bree, you okay?"

"Honestly... No." I told him turning my attention back onto my phone screen that had long since shut off due to inactivity.

"Is there anything I can do for you?" He asked, being the ever typical Cry who has been there for me since I showed up on his doorstep after getting back.

"If you can go back in time and change everything, then yes there is something you can do." I told him.

Sighing Cry took a seat on the side of my bed and rested his hand on my side. In response I rolled onto my stomach allowing Cry access to rubbing my back. We sat in silence as he rubbed and I allowed my mind to go black and focus only on enjoying the back rub.

"He really misses you." Cry finally said causing my body to to tense up which caused me to turn my head and look at him. "He still asks about you. He's. Worried about you and as I hear beating himself up over it."

"Who told you that?" I asked

"Nova and Sp00n." He said, "They were playing some Worms with Pewds and I earlier. And as per usual Nova asked how you were."

I smiled as I thought about James. He filled the void of moving away and missing Cry. Cause just like Cry, James was like my big brother.

"No surprise there." I said, "James is like my big brother while I was there."

"He sure cares like one. " Cry said smirking, "But yes. You should contact him soon, cause he is pretty concerned about you."

"Alright. I will." I said, "Thanks Cry."

"For?" He asked.

"For taking me in, for keeping me alive, and for dealing with my depressiveness. " I told him.

"That's what best friends are for." He told me, "Anyways, I need to go check on a video I got uploading."

"Alright. " I said as he walked out of the room.

Once he left my mind fell back on James, and also on all the others that I left behind when I up and left. Upon thinking of all that, it was making me wonder that maybe I did make a mistake. That maybe it was time that I finally faced everything that I ran and was hiding from.