One-Sided Moliver- Loliver pairing. Miley's POV
Very short one-shot.
When I look back on what should have been. I realize that my own actions are the cause of my misery. My misdeeds of the past are the reason I lost the love of my life. I remember it so vividly; I remember telling him I didn't feel for him in that way, when he told me he was in love with me. I lied. I lied to protect him. I lied to protect myself. I lied to protect everyone around me. But that was a lie, He didn't need protecting, I didn't need protecting. I was scared, scared of what would have come out of it.
I was afraid of losing the one boy I could talk to for hours without feeling weird he might make a move, I was scared that if we started dating he would no longer be that guy. The guy I run to when I have problems with my best girl friend.
However when I told him, I didn't feel for him in any form, he took it as meaning I hated him even as a friend. My best friend also told me she hated me. I had lost my two best friends because I had was too scared to admit my feelings for the boy.
My heart had leapt up into my throat the first time I saw them kissing each other, which should have been me. That should have been me in his arms. But it wasn't, it was her. All this because I was scared.
They avoided me like the plague; they couldn't seem to forgive me for what I had said. Hell I couldn't seem to forgive myself. My mind races with thoughts of what ifs, and what could've been. I often wonder if he still loves me, I often wonder if he even loves her? Was she a replacement for me?
I know deep down she isn't. I think deep down in his heart she was the true love of his life. Perhaps I was the one he was using to try to replace her in his heart. He loves her, I can tell. As much as I wish that was me in his arms. I have to accept the fact that the love of my life is now in love with my best friend, all because I lied.