"Edward! I'm so happy to see you," Tanya said as she crossed down the porch onto their circle driveway to greet me.

I swiftly got out of my car and quickly looked at the scenery. I always enjoyed my family's visits to Denali. Their home stood on the back side of the mountain and was hidden by the thick trees. It was secluded, far from any human life. The view was incredible. You could see the far mountains and trees while the snow blanketed them.

Before I could respond Tanya already was embracing me with a hug.

"Carlisle called. He said to be expecting you. I'm so glad you decided it was time for a visit," she said.

Her embrace was edging on uncomfortably long. I unwrapped myself from her arms and took her hands into mine.

"Yes, I know, "I said, "Our families should visit much more often."

It had been about three decades since Tanya decided to share her feelings with me. During my family's longer visits with the Denali clan, Tanya and I had become close friends. She had tried to hide her thoughts from me but I knew that she was starting to have feelings for me…feelings that I knew I did not share.

I had let her down as politely as I could. I could tell she was hurt but otherwise acted like everything was okay. Since then, she still tries to hide her thoughts but something always leaked through, thinking of things to do to impress me or to grab my attention. She had even taken up playing the piano. Always asking me to teach her or listen to a new song that she learned.

Once word got out around to my family about Tanya's feelings for me and my reaction, it became one of most uncomfortable weeks. No one would say anything to me, (except for Emmet who enjoyed making embarrassing comments about the possibility of me playing for the other team) but I could hear their thoughts. I was most surprised by Esme's thoughts. I couldn't fathom why she was so worried. Her thoughts had consumed her, worrying over my ability to fall in love. She considered that maybe Carlisle had changed me too young. Carlisle's thoughts were of sadness as well. He had hoped by now I would have found a mate. That was one of the main reasons why he brought Rosalie into the family.

Unfortunately with Rosalie with her vain thoughts, thought that this just proved to her that I was weird and it satisfied her. The thought of my preference to Tanya over her would have made her question her beauty. If I could physically want Tanya, then why could I not want her as well? Not that she thought of me that way, she just wanted to be desired.

"Irina and Kate will be so excited to see you," Tanya said guiding me to the house, "You can use one of them guest rooms if you need time alone."

"Thank you, Tanya. But if you don't mind I'm going to hunt for a bit. It has been a long time since the last time."

I could see the disappointment in her eyes. But there was nothing more that I wanted, rather needed was to hunt. I had spent the whole driving trip thinking of this Bella Swan, watching Alice's visions replay in my head. I needed to clear my head and hunting providing. I could shut out the world and act on instinct.

"Oh..okay. Don't be long, we have much to catch up on. Irina and Kate will be so happy to see you."

"Yes, I won't be too long," I called as I dashed into the woods.

I leaped through into the house through French doors into the guest room on the second floor and headed towards the bathroom. I had felt much better after going hunting and was able to look at things with better perspective. I started to feel guilty for leaving so sudden.

By the time I had made it to the hospital, Carlisle already outside the doors waiting for me. I assumed Alice had called. I was so angry, so ashamed that I could not say anything to him as we exchanged keys.

"Come back soon," was all that he said. I could see the sadness in his eyes. I immediately turned to walk to his car and took off.

Now that I was by myself thoughts flooded my head. I started to watch Alici's visions replay in my head. Though they had gone for darkness of Bella Swan dead in my arms to brightness, I began to focus on the brightness. More specifically the very first vision that surprised us both. It was a flash of different scenes, but all very much of the same. It was Bella in my arms smiling up at me, Bella embracing me back, Bella kissing me on the lips and Bella falling asleep in my arms. It was Bella in love with me and I in love with her. The very last scene was her red eyes looking up at me saying I love you.

I turned the faucet on and began to wash my hands.

How could I possibly fall in love with someone who smelled to me the way she did? What were these visions and what was it that was drawing me to this child? Could I fall in love? Could she love me back the way I wanted? I had no answers and with that the more frustrated and angry I got.

But what if? I looked at myself in the mirror. I spotted a drop of blood still left on the corner of my mouth. I was a monster. I shook my head at myself. Of course she would fall for me. That was how my kind was made. We were attractive to humans so it was easy to lure them in. Everything about me would lure her into my arms. But I've seen human love, and I've seen into their minds. I didn't think humans were capable of true love with the intensity that I've seen with between my family members. Their thoughts were consumed with desire, lust and ego. These emotions would be only ones that this Bella Swan could feel for me.

But how would I know for sure? I couldn't see into her mind. I had no idea what she was thinking. Why? What was so special about this girl? There more I thought about her, the more upset I got. It was because of her, I ran away from my family, from my home. She unknowingly drove me out the place I wanted to be most, with the people I wanted to be with. The more I thought of her the more I hated her. Why did she have to come to Forks? Why couldn't she just have stayed at where ever she was coming from? This child was making my life miserable, making me question things I thought I already knew the answers to.

I wanted to go back home. I shouldn't feel barred from my own home. This girl could not keep me from the people I wanted to be with. She would not crush everything that my family worked for and she would not make me the monster I had fought everyday not to become.

I did not want to say goodbye to Tanya as I knew that she would try to convince me to stay. I quickly leaped out of the french doors again, ran down to the car. I knew that this was very rude, but hoped that Alice would see me taking off quickly to come home and try to call Tanya to make an excuse before I hurt her feelings. As I drove away from the house, I saw Tanya run out the doors.

Esme must really upset at him for taking off without saying goodbye, she thought. He wouldn't of left so quickly without saying goodbye.

I smiled. Thank you Alice. She probably told her that Esme demanded I come home right away.