1: Rose Alone

I stare at the plate of chips in front of me. Cold. Unappetizing.

"Come on, darling, you've got to eat something." Mum says to me, I shake my head

"I don't wanna eat anything." I reply stubbornly, I don't want to eat. The chips sit there, taunting me, torturing me. I don't want to eat chips. I don't want to eat. I'm not hungry. I haven't been hungry for three months. I don't want to do anything. The hours I spend going to work, sleeping. They are meaningless. I am almost like drone.

"Mum, how can I sit here and eat chips? When I've seen what's out there? Could you?"

"Darling, you've got to move on, he's gone, I know…" I frown and interrupt her

"I love him. How can I just let him go? You never let go of Dad."

"That's different!" Mum says, the beginnings of indignation in her voice

"How? How's it different. Tell me." I question her. "Dad was dead, never coming back. But you never gave up hope. So why should I give up the Doctor?"

"But he did come back. But this is different, you can't find, you can't see him again. He said so himself. You can't. He said that when you asked him."

"Do you want to know why I can't eat chips?" I ask Mum, her eyebrows furrow, wondering why I changed the subject

"Because when I first went in the Tardis with him, he took me to the end of the Earth. The year five billion. And he asked me if I would come with him. When we got back we went to a Chippy, an ordinary Chippy and I bought us chips. And we talked, we just talked. And that's when I first knew."

"Knew what?" Mum asks

"That I loved him." I wait for her to interrupt but she doesn't. "Every hour since then has been brilliant, fantastic, fun and I was with the man I loved. But I'm not any more. Because I lost him." I say, the emotion increasing in my voice. "How can I leave the only thing that was ever worth fighting for? If I could just get through the barrier…because this world needs him and…and I need him."

"But we can't. We can't. How? I don't even know what those pepperpot Dalek things are."

"It doesn't matter. We've just gotta get back."

"Rose, listen to me. No." I shake my head and the tears come. The endless tears. I get up and leave the table.

"Mum, I've got to find him." I tell her and then I leave the room.

2: The Doctor Alone

The Tardis is so empty without someone. It seems like even my thoughts are echoing. Even though that's technically impossible since there are no resonant sound waves that are coming from my thoughts. But the point still stands. It's empty. For the first time in what seems like forever. But counting it's only been three years since I met R-. And Donna was wrong. I don't need anyone. Even if I am feeling alone and