Note: The following fic is based on the ao3 fic Always x and x Forever by Symone_Nicole. Should you feel confused by any references made in the fic, please give Always x and x Forever a read for clarification purposes.:)
As he felt himself return to consciousness, Killua couldn't help but furrow his eyebrows at the wonderful smell tickling his nostrils. And was he…holding onto someone? Killua groaned softly, eyes fluttering open. He had a woman in his arms, a woman that he'd come to care deeply about. Killua took his hand from her waist, allowing it to rest on the slumbering woman's cheek. He frankly didn't want to be around when she woke up. His emotional catharsis last night had been a complete accident, an accident he wished never happened. The pain had been so suffocating. But Canary… Canary made it more bearable. He was grateful for her comforting presence.
He didn't know why last night of all nights had been the moment he'd finally confronted his feelings for her head on. Maybe he'd finally gotten tired of not taking them seriously, of pretending that it was just some silly infatuation that would pass in due time. He had wanted so badly to lose himself in her kisses, in her irresistible body. He wanted to put his pain on the backburner for a little while, to feel numb to it. Canary wouldn't let him, though.
"Killua, you're hurting," is what she had said. "Now just isn't the right time."
He didn't feel like such a lovestruck fool when she'd said those words. He was relieved that she returned his feelings. A part of him wished that she wasn't such a good person, that she would've let their almost kiss happen and let things escalate from there. He had wanted to pin her down by her wrists as he kissed her like his life depended on it, hands familiarizing themselves with every curve of her body. At this very moment, he still craved her, still wanted to change the nature of their relationship.
Stroking her cheek one last time, Killua left the bed, already missing Canary's warmth as he moved toward the door. He breathed a sigh as he opened the door and stepped through it.