Billions of emotions run through me.
Brother…Aniki…why?
Why did I have to kill you..
Why…
Why did you let me?
Agh.
Brother help me…
I'm in so much pain.
This self-hatred and regret is so painful..
Pain unlike any other I've known.
It's like a deadly venom coursing through my veins.
Slowly killing me…
Slowly killing me…
Brother please forgive me.
I wish it wouldn't end like this.
This is to much to deal with.
Brother…
I crave your touch.
Looking into your pained eyes…
Everything.
Even your hurtful words.
Anything.
I craved it long before you were gone.
Everything's so wrong.
I shouldn't cry nor should I care.
I should feel victorious..
Instead I'm being ripped up, slowly.
Painfully.
Shamefully.
Brother, Why did you let me?
Aniki…
I know you will be disappointed in me.
I'm showing weakness.
Please forgive me for this to, brother.
Maybe I will get to see you where I'm going.
Maybe not.
Please forgive me brother.
I'm such a coward.
I'm taking the easy way out aren't I..?
But sometimes…
When I close my eyes…
and I feel your breath tickling on my shoulder..
As you whisper into my ear
'Sasuke'.
Even though it feels so good while it lasts..
Coming back to reality is all the more painful.
I can't help but give in…
"Sasuke"
Can it be…?
Brother…
are you there?
Or is it merely a twisted illusion.
I'm afraid to turn around.
More disappointment
How foolish of myself to think
That when Itachi is below me,
(Because of me...)
he is right behind me
"Sasuke'"
No, No it cannot be...
His voice is crystal clear.
Not hazy, like it is when I remember him.
Impossible.
How I curse myself and my imagination.
How I curse myself for wanting to look back.
I cannot take it any longer.
Blindly...
I'm stabbing the kunai everywhere along my wrists.
One cut
Two cuts
Three cuts,
Four.
It doesn't matter.
They are all so deep. Within seconds I feel the darkness pulling at me.
Sucking me in it's depths.
I gaze blankly, at my wrists.
Amazed by the blood flow, and to my own surpise…
I'm smiling.
It shouldn't be any longer now…
I count down my remaining seconds…
Twenty.
Nineteen.
Eighteen.
Seventeen.
Sixteen.
Fifteen.
Fourteen.
Thir-
"Foolish Otouto"
I hear someone whisper.
Then a pair of cold lips touch mine.
I cling to them…
Desperately.
Am I..Am I already dead?
Is this heaven?
Surely heaven is not where I'm going.
It can't be to long now,
Six.
Five.
Four.
Mustering up all my remaining strength…
I have to know...
I open my eyelids and gaze upwards.
Can it be…
No. Impossible…
I'm gazing into the eyes of no other…
Itachi.
There his eyes lie on top of mine.
Cold. Cruel. His gaze unwavering.
But….Why…
Why are his eyes glistening?
Filled with unshed tears…?
No.
Never.
Oh…
"Ita-…"
No sooner then I begin to say his name,
my voice muffled from his lips…
The blood creeps up from my throat, choking me.
"Rest now, Foolish Otouto"
"A cowardly way to die"
"However , Fear not, though young Sasuke, I will join you soon"
With that said, my eyes close slowly..
Against my will.
No! Itachi
No...
I feel the Kunai being taken from my unscarred hand.
Then…Darkness.