The Unsent Letter of Isabelle Lightwood

Takes place during the welcome to shadow academy series, regarding the letter that Simon sent Isabelle that he got back unopened. Knowing Izzy's character, I figured that eventually she would regret it and need to seek solace somewhere lol.

Dear Simon,

I don't know why I put "dear" down, because I don't even call anyone dear in the first place, and I still kinda –definitely- want to punch you in the face.

I also kinda want to punch myself in the face because I sent your letter back to you and I am SO CURIOUS as to what you even had to say to me anymore. So instead of sitting around worrying about that, I'm going to tell you what I have to say.

I also am writing this because after I left Alicante the last time I may or may not have destroyed the training room and put a giant hole in the wall. Anyways, Alec thought that "writing about my problems" would be more helpful than training. And probably more cost effective. But here goes.

I want to start this off by saying that while I completely understand where you're coming from with keeping your distance and saying that we cant be together, because, no, you don't know me and as far as you know we've only met a few months ago, I want you to understand that as far as I'm concerned, we've known each other for quite awhile now and we were together and I was in love with you. And you were in love with me. And that's how I remember us most of the time; how I remember you, with your nerdy mundane talk and stupid shirts and always knowing what to say even I don't want anyone to say anything. I just miss you, okay? And I didn't think I'd ever miss anyone who wasn't my brothers or my mom. I know why you gave up your memories and it was still the bravest thing I've ever seen or will see but-

YOU LEFT ME AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. And I'm sick of talking about it with Clary because she cries almost every time you get brought up and it just hurts everyone.

Knowing how much you gave up so that your friends could survive is just such a Simon thing to do that even when you don't catch me talking about one of our inside jokes it still doesn't deter from how much I care about you because you are just good. But new Simon is also kinda a dick. Wow, this letter isn't going the way I intended it too. Right. 'New Simon' is being an ass, and I don't appreciate it. So I'm going to leave you alone, just as you asked. I hope you're doing well at the academy; don't psycho yourself out over nothing, and don't let that idiot Cartwright make you feel like you don't belong either. You're a hero Simon, and you deserve to Ascend more than anyone I know. Anyways, this letter was a bad idea and I have demons to kill and shoes to buy and you have to work on building up your (oddly charming?) noodle arms and learning how to not stab yourself with throwing knives. So I'll see you when I see you, I guess.

-Izzy

P.S. I'm totally destroying this note before Jace finds it and makes fun of me.

P.S.S. I found one of your shirts in my laundry the other day. It has a "Star Wars" written on the top and a little green man dressed like Magnus, I don't remember you telling me that part of the story so I would like an explanation of it eventually.