So hello there everyone! I'm katechambers and this is the first fic I've posted on here:) I have a couple chapters written so I would love your feedback on whether or not you would like to see them! This is an Addex fic all the way. It's kind of a twist on the season 4 finale of GA. Instead of turning to Izzie, Alex turns to Addison(because she never left to be on PP...although it's a great show IMO)...but not everything goes how he planned.
I hope you enjoy this fic! It's been in my head for a while now. Just took a little longer to finally put down on paper:)
Disclaimer: eh...they're not mine...but if only...
I Turn To You
Alex had always known that deep down, Rebecca was crazy. He just thought that after dealing with his mom that he could take on anything. Izzie felt differently though and had booked Rebecca a room on the psych floor. Alex couldn't be more furious. He knew he could have done it. He could have taken care of her. He loved her. That should have been enough.
But it wasn't.
He had to talk to someone. Derek and Meredith were off somewhere trying out bright and shiny so he definitely didn't want to see either of them. Christina was...well Christina. George wouldn't be any help and Izzie was the last person he wanted to talk to right now. That left pretty much Callie, Mark, and Addison.
He figured that Mark was a manwhore and Callie was his current fling so they'd be too wrapped up in themselves to care about anyone else. That left Addison.
Alex walked upstairs to the NICU, hoping she was still there. Of course, when he got there, she had gone back to the hotel already. He debated whether or not to go over there, but thought against it. So instead, he decided the next best thing would be to go over to Joe's and throw back a couple.
The bell above his head rang out as Alex entered the bar. He walked straight over the bar and took an empty seat.
"Hey Alex. You don't look so good. You all right?"
"Hey Joe. Yeah I'm fine. Just fucking great. Rebecca tried to commit suicide today. So she's gone now. They took her up to Psych. And once again, I'm alone."
An odd smile crept onto Joe's face and Alex looked about ready to punch him when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
"That's not true and you know it. You're not alone."
"Addison, I thought you had gone home."
"I was headed home but decided to come over here for a bit. I must admit that I figured you might be here as well."
"You were expecting me?" Alex asked with a slight eagerness in his voice.
"Down boy. I just figured you would want to talk to someone so I thought I would make myself available." He looked at her and grinned as she realized what she had just said.
"I meant available to talk with. About Rebecca and what happened today. Why don't we go back to the hotel and we can talk about it."
Alex thought for a minute and decided that it was probably a better idea than going home and drinking himself into a coma. They said bye to Joe as they left the bar and walked back across the street to get their cars. He followed her to the hotel and soon the pair was sitting on her couch, drinking Vodka tonics.
"I'm not good at this talking stuff. Never have been."
"That's okay. We can just sit if you want. Until you're ready."
"No I just need a few minutes. I'm going to go make another drink. Do you want a refill?"
"Sure that sounds good."
Alex walked to her kitchen to make another Vodka tonic for them. He hung his head as his body tensed. He wanted to talk about this and he trusted Addison above anyone else, but sharing his feelings was not something he did. He took a deep breath, poured the drinks, and walked back into the living room.
"You feeling a little better?"
"Yeah. I think I'm ready."
Alex looked from his glass to Addison. She was watching him intently, waiting for him to speak. However, he didn't speak. Not a single word. He just sat there staring at her. She looked beautiful. He reached out and took her hand. Addison was hesitant at first but relaxed once he started rubbing the soft spot between her thumb and forefinger.
"Alex, I don't..."
"Addison, please don't say anything. Not right now. Can't we be together. Just for tonight? Please. Please Addison. I need you. I need...you."
Tears were streaming down his face as he silently confessed to her what was going through his mind. Although she wanted him so badly, she didn't want for it to happen like this. As much as she loved his touch on her hand, she slowly removed it from his grasp.
"Alex, you have to understand that sleeping with me isn't going to help you get over Rebecca any faster. I just think you should talk it out first. Please talk to me."
Alex just looked at her. He was still crying but now it was more out of anger than hurt. He grabbed her face with both of his hands, but not in a forceful way, and she clasped her hands around his. Then, he leaned in to kiss her. It wasn't a rough kiss but it was certainly sloppy. That alcohol was affecting him more than he thought. Addison immediately responded to his kiss. It felt so good to have his lips firmly pressed against hers. But as quickly as she responded, she pulled away.
"This isn't right. We can't do this Alex. It isn't fair to either of us. I don't want to sleep with you like this and I know you'll regret it in the morning. Please understand where I'm coming from. You're a great friend of mine and I don't want to lose you." Addison pleaded as she held his hands and looked into his clouded, puffy eyes.
"No! I want to be with you. Can't you see that? Why aren't you listening to me? I need this. I need you. Please Addison. Just tonight."
"Alex, I will let you stay here with me tonight just as long as nothing happens because I know that once we start, there won't be any stopping and if it were to ever happen between us, I would want to know that it was done out of clear judgement, not drunkenness."
Alex didn't want to give in so easily, but he knew Addison was a strong-willed woman and as much as it pained for him to admit it, she was right. Although he really did want her, just not in this way. He looked at her and nodded his head as she took his hand and led him to the bedroom.
"There's an extra toothbrush in the bathroom. You can use that one."
"Yeah. Thanks."
Addison gave him a weak smile as he disappeared into the bathroom. She pulled out a tank top and a pair of shorts from a drawer and changed in her enormous closet. She heard the door from the bathroom open and Alex's form fall onto the bed.
Oh what am I getting myself into?
Addison emerged from the closet and walked into the bathroom as Alex stared at her slender body. He couldn't take his eyes off her perfectly sculpted legs, her flat stomach, or her long red hair. She looked stunning even before going to bed.
She brushed her teeth, washed her face, and combed her hair before walking out of the bathroom and into the bedroom. Alex was under the covers in what she guessed would be a tank and his boxers considering the amount of clothing on the floor.
She crawled into bed next to him and was a little weary on where to put her body, but soon found a comfortable spot snuggled tightly next to him with her arm draped over his abdomen. This was going to be a long night but she promised him she would be there so that's what she was going to do.
"Goodnight Alex. If you need to talk anytime tonight just wake me up, okay?"
"Yeah okay. Goodnight Addison. Thank you."
"You're welcome." She said as she smiled and fell asleep. It felt wonderful to have his arms wrapped around her even if she wasn't the one in need of comforting.
Addison never moved from her spot all night and Alex never woke her up. In fact, he never went to sleep. He just held Addison and watched the clock, thinking about his life and where he was going to go from here. As the red numbers turned to 4:00am, he quietly moved out of bed and put his clothes on, while watching her sleep. She looked so peaceful there and he didn't want to disturb her. Rummaging through the desk, he found a piece of hotel paper and wrote a simple word on it before walking over to the bed, placing it on the pillow next to her, and kissing her on the temple before quietly slipping out the door.
An hour later when Addison woke up, she found the note on the pillow. She opened it up and one word stared back at her. Just one word.
Thanks.
She knew that was it. There would be no more surgeries performed by the two of them because she wasn't expecting him to show up for work. In fact, she wasn't expecting to see him ever again.
Oh how things can change in only a matter of months.
Well...there it is. I hope you liked it!! I would love to see some reviews to know what everyone thinks! Thanks again for reading:D And hopefully chapter 2 will be up by the middle of the week!
-KC