(book 2 of "the Diaz twins")

It's been days since I returned home from the dreadful hospital it made me feel more trapped than I already am.

I decided with my new personality that my look didn't mach it...so I changed it.

I entered the bathroom and locked the door no one could stop me or my change in look I stepped to the mirror and opened the cabinet and grabbed the hair cutting scissors from inside.

I cut my long hair that was once to the lower of my back to just below my shoulders then dyed my hair a bright purple I looked into the mirror I had noticed my skin was much paler than it use to be...I looked half dead.

I felt like something was missing so I went to my room passing by Star who gave a shocked expression at seeing what I did to my hair,but she wasn't able to say a word before I was in my room and in my closet finding my old hoodie.

I found it after a few minutes of searching and rummaging and put it on.

A dark blue hoodie that most would think was a black hoodie if they where far away it was my favorite hoodie besides my sky blue and red hoodie...at least...I think it was a favorite...I don't know anymore.

I then walked back into the bathroom to look into the mirror.

Now I looked more like how I felt I should

But at the same time I couldn't help but raise a brow...It didn't look like me in the mirror a part of my brain told me this wasn't me but the other half told me it was.

'which side should I listen to though' I asked my self as I walked to my room and plopped onto my bed as soon as I closed the door.

one side reminded me of my old self the happy and emotional girl that always wore a smile...the side everyone loved,while the other side reminded me of my new self the one that didn't want to feel anymore the one that was emotionless and always wore a frown...the side everyone hated.

the old me whispered inside my head trying to tell me how to fell the way I use to while the new me screamed how the old me would just get me hurt...and how not showing emotions can save my life

I didn't want to listen to them anymore so I blocked them I learned to do while in the hospital and being left to my thoughts so frequently.

Toffee and the rest of my family left me alone a lot now so I always had my thoughts I had to learn how to shut them up though their voices got annoying a lot of the time they nagged at me like a mother would to a child who hadn't listened to her and got them self hurt.

after awhile of staring at the ceiling I heard a knock on my door I didn't turn my head,before I knew it the door opened opened,but I still didn't turn my head I could just feel who it was.

"Luna" Toffee's deep voice broke the silence in my room after a few seconds I turned my head to him and just stared not giving any sound of answer to which he sighed at.

"Luna,we where wondering if you would like to watch a movie with us...it's friendship Thursday...and...(sigh) it would be nice to see you out of your room" I turned my head back to the ceiling with no reply.

"you...dyed and cut your hair I see...as well as put on a hoodie" he spoke after a minute of silence I shrugged not speaking to him he sighed after another minute pasted with not a word from me.

"it-it looks good Luna...i'll just-i'll just leave you alone then" he spoke before going to my door before he could open it I turned my head in his direction at my new self wanted to watch him leave in defeat...but my old self wouldn't allow it.

"toffee" my voice was quite and could barely be heard but he heard me and instantly turned to me quickly asking.

"yes" he had a smile on his face he seemed happy...it made me feel happy too...but the feeling was quickly killed away by my new self as I turned my head back to my ceiling making toffee feel like it was more interesting then he was.

"close my door on your way out" my voice still quiet as I spoke,In the corner of my eye I watched his face fall and a sad frown replace his happy smile.

"oh-oh-ok"he stuttered out as he stepped out of my room closing the door once more...that door was what separated me form everyone else...and that was the way I like it...at least...that's how I think it is suppose to be now.

I had only just realized I was fiddling with my necklace I took it off and looked at it.

'strange the heart is broken...wonder how that happened'

A/N only a week into the new SVTFOE episodes...and I already see how much my first story is messed up...I absolutely love the new episodes though...but sadly toffee's finger is still a finger ;-;...I want him to come back,I miss him. also dat Marco though XD

AND ONE MORE THING...as you can see I went back on my word from my last book,and didn't wait to make this till the new episodes where done...but this chapter is to only let you all know about Luna's change and a little insight on how she is holding up after what happened

If you didn't notice it's not very well she is slowly going insane and it is hurting her very badly in the membrane.

insane in the membrane insane in the brain.