Title: Wither Away, to Bloom Again
Authoress: phoenixfire thundertiger
Summary: What if a streak of light forces through to a world of darkness? What happens when autumn gives way to spring? What if that single beam can warm through an unbreakable frost……?
Disclaimer: We all know it's never gonna happen.
Originally written in my economics book with barely visible tiny handwriting in pencil, it has absolutely nothing to do with economics. Just Kai and Ray. Enjoy!
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I walk the near deserted park, alone, every now and then stepping on the fallen dead leaves, crunching under my feet.
My life, it's like these dead leaves on the ground. It contains no 's bare, with no excitement.
People rush by me, eager to get home where they can sit by their fireplaces, away from the bitter wind warning them of the arrival of winter.
I remain invisible and unnoticed by all.
I pretend to ignore everything around me, but in reality I take it all in, from the mere outline to the very last detail.
No one cares about me and I care about no one.
The only person who gives a damn about my existence is Voltaire, the despicable man I'm ashamed to call my grandfather.
And still he doesn't care about Kai, the person I am, but for the Hiwatari who is his weapon, who is his key to world domination.
He is the only person in this world who will take me in, and that's still because he will be the one benefited. Once he is done with me, I won't matter to him either, just like I matter to no one.
But I won't be used by anyone anymore, only to be thrown away like a piece of trash.
I don't need anyone's love or care. I don't need anyone or anything. All I need is me.
No one will notice me as I wither away in my own dark world and no one will know, no one will want to know.
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I walk along the trail in the park side by side with Ray Kon. I look up at the trees. They are filled with lush green leaves. Amidst the evergreen are blooming flowers, contrasting against the jade.
Ever since I met Ray, my life has been nothing short of fulfilling.
My thrill, though hidden from the world, is there. It's present. And it's only for Ray to see.
People walk lazily down the trail like us, enjoying the scenery of nature reawakening from the slumber it was put into by winter.
And I'm part of that.
I'm part of the crowd, along with my Ray.
I'm not invisible anymore, but I'm not noticed either.
I'm just a part of everything, a part of life.
I don't pretend to ignore everything. It comes naturally now. But people who care about me, people like Ray, know that I'm taking in everything, and I'm enjoying everything I see.
Voltaire, in his death bed, has no room to care for me.
But that doesn't matter.
It never did.
Now I have Ray.
The love, affection and care of everyone in the world will never measure up to what Ray has done for me, what he is still doing for me.
I can be hated and despised by everyone in the world but it won't matter as long as Ray knows how much I love him.
And no one will notice me as I wither away in my own dark world.
Because I won't.
My world, no longer filled with darkness, is illuminated by a single Ray of light.
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Although this has been posted much later, this was actually the first oneshot I ever wrote. So please review and tell me what you thought of it.
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