"Oh Izaya, you've always been the odd one out..

The insane one.. Only son whom didn't carry out his family's correct wishes. The son no one cared for.. And look now, there's no one here again.

None to say 'good bye' to, none to even say 'don't leave'

All those precious humans that never seemed to care, they all avoid you. "

Standing straight on the edge of his favorite tall building, his crimson orbs dusted with blankness.. Covered by the darkness that swallowed his heart. The streams of tears were the only living emotion that settled, dripping off the edge.

The wind ice cold blew through the roots of his raven locks- sending them flying. Not even wearing his trade-mark jacket.. All Izayas veins were showing on his arms and hands.. suggesting he'd been here for a good 30 minutes.

His thought processor blocked by dark thoughts of the monster that had eaten him:

"Jump. I know they would be better off without you.

Jump. And no more suffering will hurt.

Jump. Everyone will forgive you. Your existence will be gone

FOREVER"

Izaya thought he was alone.. But that was completely underestimating the man staring blankly.. The strong body stayed directly still. Carefully listening to the not-so-like himself raven. The mans heart had shrunk ten-fold, flattering and piercing his hatred away.

So what if the flea made him angry to brink of madness? He knew how it felt to have the monster inside shout back, the man hadn't want to ever witness it in anyone else. Even if it was a flea. The sight was dare he say it- painful.

Shizuo, you guessed right the blonde male grabbed Izayas arms. Just in time - Izaya had thrown himself backwards, being held by the arms his legs dangled in mid air.

"Snap outta it!" Grumbled the rough voice, hands shaking the brunet.. Only to receive that.. That truly saddening smile. And what's more shizuo knew it was Izayas same old smile - which only meant he was pretending to happy in front of everyone.. All of the times.. Even in high school, the past flashed before his eyes.

Tears stained his face, blood shot in his iris'.

"Isn't this what you wanted?" He tried to pitch his voice making him sound worse, like he'd finally cracked. Blank crimson orbs turning more dull looked into those shocked soft hazel. Izaya managed with the last of strength, to wriggle one arm out that harsh grip. Making him hang there, his only hope was shizuo.

".. Not like this. Never.."

Shizuo's voice became slightly more angry, his level of concern becoming higher. Yet the sound barely came out as a whisper. His steady body jolted by the extra pressure, but it weren't enough to allow the informant to fall. Pulling him up, he watched the man fall to the ground. There he was huddled in his lowest state of mind.. That man whom tried to destroy his life. And better yet shizuo still felt sorry for him.

What was Izaya thinking?

What could happen next?

Those thoughts circled the blondes head, I mean he knew what he was like in that state- angry and willing to take on death straight on. But since Izaya was.. different, did the male just feel suicidal?

That wasn't a good feeling inside..

Shizuo knew Izaya wouldn't speak up to anyone nor have many friends. And that was what saved him. Knowing he couldn't leave the flea there.. he bent down to the fleas laying height.. Lightly prodding his arm..

"Oi-! Yer' alright now..? .. Eh?" Shizuo didn't hear anything back, just a quiet sobbing.

If only the blonde knew.. Izaya was back to that darkness again.. The monster inside began to eat him away more, trapping himself.. with not a hand to reach to him. Not only he couldn't hear Shizuo shouting.. nor could he see. The only motion left visible was his tears. Even though the other male had given up with shouting, Shizuo was now carrying the curled up flea bridal style.

What made him to do it, was beyond him.. Lucky enough it was dark enough for no one to see. It saved himself a lot of explaining to proceed. He wasn't sure where he was going.. It seemed the way to go to his home. The firm body was on automatic.. Shizuo sighed to himself. It was gonna be a long night.