a melody's ringing in my ears
some shadows ghost over the skin i can't
catch them my arms bound but
no words spoken you're here with me
time and time again i promise myself
to achieve things you list
in bed yeah i remember
hot puffs of air spinning down the lips
and our fingers encircling lazily each of
other's words
love words only words
even those most beautiful ones with never
and no layered beneath the compliments
promises echoes of yesterday
they're the only thing left
yeah i know
it means nothing every time
i dream just a brush of
flesh warm air skin on skin
nothing to get excited about
i know
her hair tickles my nose soapy
smell round the cheeks so pale
so frail doll's like so unlike mine
i think i meant something once
i thought i had been right
her hair smells of coffee the skin sweaty between
my fingertips lips rosy red from the movement
hands cold at my side but it's okay okay just
fine you laugh freely down my eyes opening them
with a smack
you always kiss my cheek afterwards with my
face lolling away your voice cooing and whispering ancient
spells
breath dying on my lips
the day ends too fast already street lanterns of stars
are being lightened and i can't
remember her once again the image
slipping from between my fingers like a wind
sands' grains down the hourglass of my broken life
we dance day after day to the rhythm
you only hear her eyes set onto me
every night under the eyelids when you scream
into the pillows slamming and fisting my hair
colourful obscenities heavy smell of rain
sour aftertaste of your saliva between my teeth
the party ends every morning dawn breaking
at your head mine scattered every thought forgotten
dumped elsewhere i want to believe she's somewhere
out there even if without me
even if i can't remember who exactly she is
your hair matted and broken
curled in-between the sheets so many pictures of
her brokenly sneering at me when i finally see her
in my own eyes every night the other month
hair growing longer and longer with each
passing movement of my cracked lips
with only one phrase remembered Rapunzel Rapunzel
you're my only dream