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Song: Breath Me - Sia

Pyeton's POV

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

It just makes everything so much easier, it's like... a big stress reliever. Just letting go of everything and enjoy the small things of life. I mean, who actually takes the time to just sit down and listen the silence? Except I can't remember what real silence "sounds" like anymore.

After Ellie...

Well... after Ellie, I needed to yell and scream at... something.

So, I blasted my stereo and ruined my voice, my speakers and my eardrums. My voice came back after 'bout a day and I brought up two of my old speakers from the basement. But my ears kept ringing and making annoying noises.

I wish I'd done this before. Before the ringing and squeaking started.

It's nice, really.

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breath me

Brooke is great. Really great. She might not come of as the friendliest of people at times but we all have our bad days, okay! So, don't get all prejudice until you know her because she really a great person! And supportive. And ambitious. And forgiving towards those who dosen't deserve it.

I don't.

I'm a horrible friend. And a even more horrible best friend.

'Cause I mess up allot. I do.

Hell I probably hold the title of the most messed up life. "Peyton Sawyer, world record holder of the most messed up life (Judges actually visited Miss P. Sawyer and it sure is messed up!)"

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

It's not like I meant to do it... It just happened...

I slipped...

It slipped...

And... It's not like I've thought about it allot, because I haven't!

I never do it to kill myself. I'm not suicidal or something.

And a locked bathroom is quite charming, you know. It you're not claustrophobic of course. Easily cleaned and the lock really knows how to keep people out. Even though sometimes the lock dosen't want to open and then I have to wait until the morning when Brooke and Lucas comes to pick me up for school.

And then I'm usually too... gone to go to school at all.

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breath me

I don't understand why they always think they need to lecture me. I'm a big girl. I know what I'm doing, okay! So just back off!

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breath me

No, please, don't go...