Face to Face
Rating K
Disclaimer: I own Nothing Austin and Ally belong to Disney. Jessie also belongs to Disney.
AN: I loved the crossover episode but I thought it could have used a dash more Ally. Please review! I am not afraid of criticism as long as it is constructive. Please let me know what you think
Summary everything happened as it did in the crossover. This picks up after Jessie and kids go back to New York.
Watching Austin live out his dream was beyond amazing to see. I am so proud of him to see him finally reach time square. There simply are no words on how I feel to see my best friend accomplished what he did. Even if I did have to share that moment with Jessie, someone who we really don't know, but hey she got us to the show so whatever if I wanted to punch her every time she was talking to Austin. It wasn't as if I was in love with my best friend. That would be ridiculous.
Ridiculous.
Jessie was a sweet girl, a horrible songwriter, but a sweet girl none the less. And watching her duet with my best friend was nice, the song was good and catchy, who knew a seven-year old could write such a song? Better than that nanny from New York for sure.
Damn it Ally you're doing it again. Jealousy is a bitch isn't it?
Okay I admit it I may have a bit of a crush on my hot best friend. But that is it. Ugh I used the word hot didn't I?
Fine I have a crush but can you blame me? You have seen what Austin Moon looks like right? And also he is the most amazing friend to boot, yeah he is cocky but he is also one of the most loyal guys around. I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have him in my life. But that's beside the point. I wasn't just jealous of the duet and Jessie, as in more of the fact that she wasn't afraid to go up there and be herself with Austin. Something I am not able to do because of my stage fright. Don't Look Down was an exception because it was "Taylor" up there not Ally. So it made it simpler to perform, simpler to fail as Taylor then it would have as Ally. Now why don't I just create a stage persona and be in costume all the time so I can perform with Austin, that is a reasonable question, but for me to bare my soul on stage night after night, it would have to be me, and not some made up lie does that make sense?
Austin is incredibly lucky in that he is able to perform and be loud and crazy and not care what people think of him. It is a feature of his that I so desperately wanted. Why couldn't I perform and be me on stage without being afraid of who I am? Why do I have to be stuck on the sidelines while everyone else gets the spot light?
Damn.
I just realized that sounded like a really awful thing to say. I am happy for Austin and his success, I love writing songs for him to perform. The magic that comes from our sessions is times I want to live over and over again. I love being Austin's songwriter and helping him reach his dreams. Because at the heart of it I love making Austin happy, and seeing his reaction after every performance
Priceless.
Is it too much to ask for to have the guy that I love and my dreams too? Why can't I be fearless like Austin? And in a way Like Jessie? Except I am a way better songwriter then she is.
Kid. Well Not really.
As I sit here in the practice room, I look around and I can still see every memory that was created in here, and a smile is brought to my face. I am the luckiest girl alive to have the friends I have. Trish has been a sister to me since kindergarten and even Dez and his wackiest is something I treasure. And do I have to go anymore into what Austin means to me?
That's what I thought.
You know maybe it is time for me to figure how to achieve my dreams. Maybe it is time to stop letting what fears and doubts do to me and just be who I know I can be. And by that also be the woman who Austin could see being with.
Ugh. Just forget about it Ally that isn't happening. Maybe the Austin thing won't happen. But just maybe the other dream could come true. But do I have what it takes to make it happen? Am I brave enough to try?
I really need to stop watching Disney. All these positive reinforcements are really getting on my nerves. But in all seriousness can I at least try. That being the key word try. Well Ally what is the alternative? Be stuck in your shell and let life pass you buy? What has this year with Team Austin been about if you can't learn from your friends. You gripe on the others on how important learning is but at the same time you're not going to try to learn from them? When has Ally Dawson been afraid of learning? Never and she isn't going to start now. All I have to do is try to think of it like that in terms of educating myself on being more open and not afraid of failing. Because at the end of the day does anyone's opinion on you matter? Not if it keeps you from living your dreams and living your life. I think I know of a way for me to overcome my fear and to be me. Now the only question I have to ask myself is
Do I have the guts to do it?
Ally closes the book that has been her secret keeper for as long as she could remember. She places the book on top of the piano and takes one last look at the practice room. Her eyes start to water as she closes the door. With one last glance she mutters the one word she thought she wouldn't be able to say.
Goodbye