"What hurts the most, was being so close. And having so much to say, and watching you walk away. And never knowing, what could've been. And not seeing that loving you, is what I was trying to do."
- AF -
She didn't cry, not infront of those beasts. Monsters. She ignored the dull ache of the heart in her chest a dozen times. She wouldn't give GLaDOS, or anyone else- the satisfaction of seeing her tears. Seeing her pain, she wouldn't even let them see her speak. No, not when she was being judged so harshly already.
And then he showed up. And with his awkward, rambling sentences in tow. And Chell for once, thought she could trust someone. It felt so good, so good to have someone, something- to listen to her.
But then even that simple, tiny comfort was taken from her, and she knew pain all over again. Pain. And anger, and betrayal. What was wrong with him? Or, no. What was wrong with her, for trusting him? She let her gaurd down once, and this was what happened. This. And she had no one. No one who understood her, no. And no one ever would, if human civilization was even still around.
And so when she dazedly walked from the elevator that had carried her to the Above world again, she stared. She stared at the sharp contrast between the brilliant, brilliant blue sky and the golden field of wheat. And only then, when the familiarity of Aperture Science was taken from her, when the only thing that was left was her burnt companion cube?
Her knees gave from under her, and she sobbed. She cried because of her friend, she cried because of the betrayal, and the loneliness, and the loss. She cried because of how the brilliant, bright blue of the sky reminded her of him. She cried because nothing would ever be the same, she would never fit in, and she cried because she had no one anymore. No one.
She'd almost died, so many times she couldn't count them all. She'd tried so hard to escape, for what? Nothing. That was what she'd tried to escape for. It wasn't worth it.
And so she curled up on herself, next to that dredded, metal door of death that led into Hell, and cried, and cried until she felt sick, and even then the tears hunted her down, and didn't release their hold on her.
All under that brilliant, almost spotless blue sky.