A Shame
It's a shame really
Not believing in the things everyone else would die for
I see the people around me
Defined by things I don't feel
Love
Happiness
Being raised without it
I didn't learn to use it
It's a shame really
Anyone near me has to pay for it
Not that I can find it in myself
To care
I told myself for so long
That I didn't care
That I didn't feel
Until the day I stopped having to
It's a shame really
That when she walks in
I have to start that lie again
I don't feel
I don't catch my breath when she smiles
My heart doesn't thunder when her eyes meet mine
It's a shame really
That I can't admit what this is
That I finally understand why people are fighting for it
Why they went mad for it
And died to save it
But I can never tell her
And that's really a shame.