Bellamy Blake heard the ruckus on the other side of the Ark. Abby put him in control of guard rotation and they were in the middle of shift change. He made the schedule so if they were being watched, no one would know when the change occurred. But someone did. She would call him a genius.

No, she wouldn't, she would make a backhanded comment about it and he would reply with some snide remark of her not appreciating him and call her Princess.

That's what he missed the most about her leaving, how they fed off each other. They argued but they made a great team once they put past their differences. The less he tried to think about her the more he thought about her and he was going crazy.

Bellamy couldn't talk to anyone about it because they all started pairing up and he was alone with Harper and God is she annoying and hung up on Jasper who Bellamy thought was secretly with Monty but then saw him and Maya whose passing changed him. Monty and Miller are together apparently.

Bellamy couldn't talk to Abby because it's her daughter or Kane because he'd tell Abby and he couldn't talk about it to anyone from the drop ship because they think of him as a leader and this is weakness.

He doesn't know what he exactly feels so he doesn't know what to call it.

He heard men running and picking up guns on their way to their posts.

"Bellamy!" He heard behind him, he knew Raven's voice too well. "Are you coming?"

"No, I have something that I—"

"Head of security should be there, Bell."

"Octavia is there. She's my second."

"Someone is at the gate, what if—"

"It's not. She betrayed us." He couldn't say the whole sentence, he couldn't say Clarke betrayed us.

"She… When are you going to tell us what happened in Mount Weather? You and Monty have been silent. You want to be Kane and Abby someday? You need to trust your people so they can trust you with their lives and families."

"There are things I have to do, Raven. Trust Octavia to get the job done."

"You are so stubborn sometimes. You wouldn't even chase after Cla—"

"Don't say her name. She made her choice!" He exclaimed then sighed. "I'm not worried about what's at the front gate. I'm worried about how we're going to feed people and how I don't repeat the schedule so the watchers don't find a pattern."

"Watchers? You're getting paranoid, Bell."

"Raven, just go," he snapped and she threw up her hands and retreated out to the hall and Bellamy sighed, gripping the table.

He was almost finished with the schedule for the next week when Octavia stormed into the room, "Big brother, you need to come quick."

"What?"

"I don't exactly know, they told me to get you for interrogation."

"Grounder?"

"They wouldn't let Lincoln or I see what it was. They want you."

"Infirmary?"

"Commander's office," she said, knowing that he couldn't hear that name.

"Thanks, O," he said. He kissed her forehead and walked out.

He knocked on the Commander's door and opened it. In the middle of the room a woman in tattered and mud clad clothes, her blonde hair glued grey with the same mud on her clothes.

"Bellamy, thank you for joining us," Kane said unemotionally, Bellamy didn't care enough to figure out why the man hates him. He was standing to the left of Abby's chair where she sat on edge.

"Chancellor," Bellamy nodded, respectively, ignoring the handcuffed body in the middle of the room.

"Escort the prisoner to the holding cell, please. She won't give up any information."

"Yes, ma'am."

"And don't let her coerce you into giving her extra rations, I don't care how malnourished she looks."

"Fine. Anything else?"

"You will be in the interrogation tomorrow after breakfast," Abby said.

He nodded again and grabbed the prisoner's arm, "Get up."

She did as she was told and walked in front of him with her head down. Down the second corridor she spoke, "Don't bruise the princess."

He froze, he'd recognize that voice anywhere, it was the voice he bickered with for hours about what was best for the hundred and plot and strategize how to save the forty eight from Mount Weather. The voice that said May we meet again, making him hate goodbyes.

"Bell…"

"Don't call me that!" He spat, he didn't realize how angry he was at her and he hasn't even seen her face.

"You're treating me like the enemy, I've only been gone a few weeks."

"Weeks? It's been a year, Clarke," he spat her name, he's so mad he could punch someone, and Murphy is the only one that truly deserves it.

"No, I've been counting the days, it's been thirty… Thirty-six? Se—seven?" she asked and turned to look at him for reassurance. He took half a step back at the sight of her face. She was still gorgeous Clarke but blood covered her entire face, deep cuts that could only have been done out of torture were everywhere. They're going to scar.

There was one in particular that he couldn't stop starting at, it went from her temple, down her cheek and stopped at her chin. It was still bleeding, dripping down her neck to her chest and pooled into her green shirt, turning it a weird shade of brown.

"What was the last thing you remember?" Bellamy asked, half skeptical of her lack of memory.

"Walking north. I reached a—a lake about two weeks in and I was going to build a raft to get to the other side. I just gathered enough wood and that's it. I woke up here."

"They could have done anything to you."

"You think Grounders did this? You think they're smart enough?"

"Lexa is," he said and Clarke shifted at the grounder leader's name. "She screwed us over before, I wouldn't put it past her."

"She wouldn't do that to me."

"She's already betrayed you, do you truly think that she had real feelings for you? Everything she did, everything she said was a lie. Remind you of anyone?" He didn't mean to add that part in but the girl in front of him isn't the girl that left, this girl doesn't know how to bicker.

They get to the holding cells and he put her in one, slamming the door behind him. He turned to walk away when she said his name and he turned back.

"How's Jasper?" she asked, seeming truly concerned.

"Worse than Octavia under Indra."

"I did that."

"We did that. I stand by what I said, we did it together, it's not just on you," he said and walked away, touching his cheek where he felt the burn of her lips when she kissed him on the cheek, saying goodbye.

Bellamy couldn't think about the princess's return now, he couldn't look at her without wanting to kiss her wounds away. He couldn't look into her eyes without not seeing her. She's not the same person that left, he knew it but doesn't think that she does.

He walked back to the Chancellor's office and walked in seeing Octavia in the chair across from Abby.

"Now we can get started," Abby said turning to Bellamy. "What did she say to you?"

"She thinks it's been a month since Mount Weather."

"Who?" Octavia asked.

"Blake—" Kane warned.

"She's not a gossip, General. She's a warrior, you should know that by now," Abby told him then turned to Octavia. "Clarke is back."

"What? That's what you guys were hiding! Princess," she spat.

Bellamy glared at his sister.

"What? You can give her the nickname but no one else can use it?"

"Why is she princess?" Abby asked.

"She had everything, O and I had nothing."

"And now you're the leader of the hundred, you think we don't see the line drawn in the sand?"

"We haven't left! If we did, their families would come too, dwindling your numbers. So would you rather us go and leave you defenseless? Or stay and help fight the inevitable battle."

"So Bellamy Blake, if you're the true leader of these people, what would you do about Clarke?"

"I'm not a leader without Clarke keeping me in line so I don't overdo it. She and I lead together, feeding off each other and without her they turn to me, so I'd do what the people would want. She's the one that amends it to be morally just."

"So you're not a leader."

"Not without Clarke," Bellamy corrected her.

"So then what do we do about her?"

"I want to trust her but she's missing the last year in her head, she doesn't remember a thing. It worries me. I don't know what she's seen or been through so I can't assume she won't kill us while we sleep. This could be a Grounder attack or worse. Or she could be playing us, pretending she doesn't remember because she doesn't want to remember."

"Thank you for your speculations, you're both dismissed."

Bellamy sighed and walked out of the office with Octavia on his heels.

"Bell… Bell!" She grabbed his arm and yanked at him. When did she become stronger than him? "It's Clarke…"

He grimaced, his sister is the past person he wants to talk to about Clarke. Not because of how he could possibly feel but because she's like him, all action and remorse, no thinking. That's what he needs, to think.

"Yeah, it is. But don't expect to get to see her. We don't know what she's been through."

"The Grounders have Mount Weather, they're capable of anything."

"Don't you think it's weird that they haven't tried attacking us? Why do you think I change the shifts around and give it to the guards at the end of their shifts? I don't trust anyone."

"Except me."

"Debatable, you were under Indra's spell for a while."

"Then she betrayed Lincoln and I. I'm itching to kill her."

"Maybe we should do a covert op. Are you and Lincoln available to infiltrate their camp?"

"You're asking me to play nice with Indra?"

"You can bring Jasper."

"You just don't want him around because of Clarke."

"You turned him into a weapon, don't put it on me, okay?"

"It's on you and Clarke." She stopped and looked at him, "Jesus, Bell, why didn't I see it before?"

"What?"

"You're in love with her."

"What? Clarke? You're out of your mind."

"Defensive."

"Look, O, I will admit to missing her this past year but that's it."

"You miss having someone to argue with and exchange ideas? You'll let her into your brain but not your heart? I know you, Bell, being in your head is scarier than being in your heart."

"Is she afraid of me?"

"I think she's right where you are, or she was before Lexa," Octavia said, clearly knowing more than he does but he couldn't push the subject, not right now.

"Lexa forced her to kill Finn."

"No, she gave him a mercy death, what Lexa was going to do with him was much worse."

"Because she loved him," Bellamy said, somberly.

"It's been a year, Bell. What if she's over it?"

"It's been barely a month to her. She doesn't remember."

"If I talk to her…"

"No one is going near the holding cell. I will guard it myself if I have to."

"And what if you can't control yourself? What if you talk to her again, against the chancellor's demand?"

"Then I'll have Lincoln with me, he's impartial towards her."

"Barely, Grounders don't take lightly to people abandoning their own."

"She—we—killed two hundred people so the forty eight of our people—kids—would be freed, it doesn't matter that they forgive us if we don't forgive ourselves."

"She taught you that the day she left, I know that. So does she?"

"How can she forgive herself if she doesn't remember the past year, O?"

"I don't know, Bell, how do you forgive yourself?"

"You're not yourself when you're fighting for your life or something you believe in, you will do anything. That person who I become during that time, that's who I forgive because I know that it's not truly me."

"That's morbid. So who do you become?"

"A ruthless leader and that's not exactly what's needed. A fair, righteous one is what these people need. Princess and I balance each other out creating a fair and righteous leadership."

"That's the first time you've called her princess since she's gotten back."

"She doesn't exactly deserve it anymore, but we both know Abby is going to welcome her back with open arms regardless of what she says tomorrow."

"Or she's going to keep her away from everyone because Jasper will kill her."

"Jasper couldn't hurt a fly. Besides, if he wants to be a real warrior, he needs to obey his leaders and not let his emotions cloud him."

"He will never follow her rule again. It's her fault that Maya's dead."

"You can't blame her, my hand was on the lever too."

"Yeah, but you're my brother."

"And according to you, I'm in love with her, which should give you the incentive to forgive her like I have."

"Jeez, brother, you're in deep," she started backing away. "Get out before she sinks you and plays you a fool." She turned and walked down the short hallway to the rest of Camp Jaha.

"I'm not trusting her, not yet. Not until she's cleared, I'm not an idiot, O," Bellamy called after his sister. They're more alike than he realized and he didn't like that they were both right. And that she hit the nail on the head about his feelings.