Friendship
Chapter 1: The loss of one's
A body laid on the dirt ground, blood slowly leaving the body as other bodies laid around it. A small faint movement was seen, he was still alive, he was still able to live on. His right eye opened slowly as pain still shot through him, every part of him hurt, he didn't want to move.
He gazed to the people around him, the enemy had escaped, leaving him and his friends. He was the only one alive now, no one my his side anymore. No one to comfort him when he needed someone. He slowly rolled over to his stomach and gently got onto his hands and knees, crawling to the blue haired Ainu male.
"Horokeu…" A tear drop landed on his cheek. He lifted up his hand to wipe it away, but he wouldn't be able to stand without both his hands supporting him. "Don't die on me, I still need you. I still need all of you. Please don't go, please." More tears came from his bright golden eyes.
He looked to the side and saw his brown haired friend, "Yoh…" He breathed in heavily. "How could you have left me? You were stronger than me, I'm nothing…" He gently laid his head on the Ainu's chest. "Come back to me, come back…everyone."
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"They were the only ones that accepted me for who I was, and I just left them there…" The Chinese male said laying on his bed as his sister sat next to him. "What kind of friend am I? I was never that good, I never had to change because they accepted me for who I was, and yet I changed…I changed because they taught me something…"
"Ren, don't be so harsh on yourself. You've experienced losses before, what's the difference between this one?" She questioned. His eyes gave her a death glare as he just sat there in silence. "They were friends, and you can always make friends."
"You don't get it, they were special to me. Yoh died protecting all of us…I shouldn't stood up, but I couldn't. Horo…he smiled at me, he told me that everything would be okay, that he'll protect me even if it coasted him his life." Tears formed in his eyes. "I should've been the one out there."
"No you shouldn't. It's a blessing that you're alive Ren, you know that. You're very popular in China anyways, so you can make friends easily. There's no point in getting all disappointed in it alright?" Jun continued. "They will always have a place in your heart no matter what, I know that and you know that. So there's no point in getting all worked up about it."
"You don't understand, I love Horo…I need him to be here with me. He gave me strength at night when I needed it, he comforted me at times that he knew was right. He was right through all of my fake lies and saw the real me, I'm hated in China, I'm popular for the cold heartless person that I am. But Horo just simply gave away his life…for my safety."
"I'll report this to father. I'm sorry for the loss of your friends, but that doesn't mean that you should just stop living alright? Learn to grow up and take responsibilities in your own actions. Maybe you would actually be able to protect those who are close to you, those who you hold dear." She exited the room, heading for the main room where En was.
"Taking responsibility…" He repeated to himself. "I don't want anyone close and dear to me anymore. I don't want friends…En was right…friends are only good to use and abuse you," He said trying to lie to himself. "There's no point in friends, they'll leave you one day or another."
Months had passed and Ren learned his old ways again. His feelings began to fade, nothing was worth it anymore, everything was just power to him. That was all that he needed in this life, and that was all that he was going to let into his life. His mind would drift off to the past but he wouldn't let it, he did as much things as he could to stop himself.
Every now and then he would find himself looking at the picture that he wasn't able to throw away. The only thing was, Horo wasn't in the picture because he was the one taking the picture. His lover, the only one that he wanted and needed was leaving him, his image began to fade, his smiling face, his carefree grin.
"I don't need anyone anymore, I have myself and that's all that I need. That's all that I'll ever have in life. Even he left me, he faced the picture down under his pillow, ever since that one day, he's had more nightmares than normal. The tears leaked from his eyes, he let them flow freely since he was by himself now, no one was there with him. Just like how he said that he was, just like how he is in his heart.
"Ren…" A familiar voice said, he felt a smirk on the other male's face. "I could revive them again for you, but you have to promise to join my team…and fight against them." The smirk only widened.
"Hao…" His voice was low. "I would never join your team, you were the one who killed them, you killed all of them…why the hell would I join your team!"
"Because I can do whatever you want, I can ease the pain that is in your heart. You can finally see Horokeu again."