hello! nn well i'm not sure how this story is gonna do so i'm not sure quite yet i'll keep it going...maybe if some ppl really like it and r really nice and leave reviews i will tho! ok well just read if u hate it...i'm sorry
I sighed. It had been one of those days. Today was the anniversery of my mom's death. I brush it off and tell everyone it doesn't bother me...I guess it does though.It just reminds me of some memories I'd just rather forget.
'It's not my fault! It's not my fault!'
I'm so tired. It's raining today...it's almost like the sky is crying for me...cause i don't seem to be able to cry anymore. Wow, i really didn't get enough sleep last night did I?
I kinda wish I had asked Tohru to come with me now...heh, her and her dumb smile. Not sure why I'd want her with me. ...But then again, her smile is so contagious, she's always so happy i don't know wether i should yell at her...or just...smile myself. She'd find something to be happy about now, I'm sure of it.
Today is one of the few days I'm actually allowed into the Soma estate, only becasue mom's buried here. I don't stay long though, just long enoug to visit mom...try to tell her how sorry I am. I used to hate her because of how she treated me...and for dying...but now? I don't know it's like, I feel sorry for her, it must have been hard. But I can't help but wish she had been able to really accept me and love me, like Tohru's done for all the Soma's.
I'm waiting for Hatori right now...he promised he'd drive me home cause it's raining and all, he knows how i get. His office is so boring...the only thing that really seems to stand out is his one picture...the one of the girl he loved...Kana or something? I didn't really hear the whole story so yeah, I don't really know. Oddly enough he had a knife on his desk. Kind of makes me wonder about him. I've been toying with it for awhile now. It really is so tempting...I mean it almost looks friendly likes it's offering you freedom or something.
I lower the knife down to my wrist and stop. I really am beginning to wonder if it's really worth it...if life is really worth all the pain and crap that it throws in your face. I draw the blade across slowly, still contemplating wether or not I want to end my life or just relieve stress. I guess I didn't realize how stressed I am, or depressed. Not that it's the first time I've ever thought about ending it all...just...it's been awhile.
Suddenly someone behind me yells making me jump and draw the knife much deeper and further than I meant. I realize Hatori is now right next to me yelling at me while trying to control the bleeding in my wrist. I hissed in pain as Hatori's yelling slowly dimmed out. I felt myself break out into a cold sweat, and my vision was starting to go dark, I try to keep control but I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna last too long. Slowly everything goes black and everthing is silent, and suddenly...i feel really cold.
no, he's not dead...of course not i couln't have my precious Kyo killed off right away could I? Though actually i'm not sure if i'm gonna continue this story or not so maybe this could be the end i dunno...any way if u did like it please review and i'll try to write more so poor kyo isn't left to die lol...sorry, (sweatdrop) i sound so cruel...i really do love kyo