What is this thing we call a heart? Many people might answer: It pumps blood throughout our entire body and keeps us alive for a finite amount of time. Others might say: Where our emotions come from and the ability to love and to hate. None of us live forever and everything that has started will end. This is irrefutable. The possession of a heart gives us life physically and emotionally. Knowing this people still pray to the one they call God while others search for the answer in science. But, the truth and our ideals don't have to be separated by black and white. Our heart brings them together and a unity called wonder is formed.
The gavel pounded and the sound rang louder than anything throughout the courtroom. People sat and heard the verdict. Some could not believe their ears while others prayed their grateful hearts out in joy. The judge was clear in his words.
"Kagakusha Len, you are found guilty of trying to replicate a human, one of God's greatest creations, and charged with the3 crime of heresy. The highest ranking priest of the Shuukyou Cathedral will determine your punishment." The entire courtroom went alive with shouts of joy and screaming for the heretical scientist to repent before God. Len could not see the faces of all who shunned him. He didn't need to. All he wanted was to speak up for himself and not be held in contempt like he was.
"Is it really so bad to question ourselves?", thought the scientist with his head down. The priest then came to where the judge was sitting. This man was a true man of his own religion. He would not hear anything different from what he thought was right.
"I, the highest priest from Shuukyou Cathedral, Shisai Kaito, condemn thee to banishment from the kingdom of Rounsou". For a man on the brink of bringing about a solution to the many mysteries of the world, this was a judgment far worse than death. What if he did come up with something significant? He has had and will have no one to reveal it to. Guards cuffed him from behind and lead him out of the court. It was the longest walk for Len, it would be the last time he ever saw anybody. He was only 14 and he was blessed with the mind of Albert Einstein and Stephen Hawking put together. Now it all meant nothing. His laboratory was far outside the kingdom and surrounded by many hills so that it seemed like a crater. The guards took him out through the gates and shoved him to the ground and uncuffed him.
"A fitting fate for one destined to burn alone, hehehe". They went back inside and closed the gate giving Len his last look of where he could never go again. He had an ache in his heart as he remembered all f his friends. He remembered what his father had said to him before he went to fight a war that he would die in.
"Son, they make take my limbs, my identity, and my happiness which is you but they will never take my ideals. I will always love you, no amount of bloodshed or punishment will change my mind". Len kept this in his head as he clutched his chest. They could not take way from who he was. The only feeling he had now was the "what-if" question of what if his research was completed. What if he finished making his human and created an actual loving heart, one that could beat and give life to their mind which would give love and feeling back to it. The grass swayed to and fro in the night's cool shade of wind. His laboratory, even though with paint chipped of in some parts, looked like he had just built it. It's best to look at everything you have in a positive way. He went inside and looked at his unfinished creation. It looked like an angel. The creation was floating in a giant tube of some unknown liquid and had wires connecting it's chest to a computer screen. On the screen one could see all of its body and information. It was zoomed in on "kokoro" and read 0%. Len went up to the tube and cried while banging on it. Frustration. When something is just a whim away but one's will is not strong enough. He decided that he would have her started in the morning regardless of the heart. He went to his sleeping chamber and looked at his calendar. This month had a cute puppy in a tea cup alongside some cookies so he knew it was December.
"Christmas Eve huh". He knew this year just like many others he would spend it alone. He went to sleep to the sound of his own heartbeat. He had this recurring dream of an event that he would dare never forget.
It was an early morning and he was making breakfast for him and his mom. When he went past the dirty and near-broken hall to the only bedroom in his house he saw his mom just lying there. He was extremely groggy and didn't notice that her chest was not contracting like it normally should. He only shoved her gently and expected her to wake up. Nothing. When the doctors came they confirmed her death due to a heart attack. He desperately taught himself everything he could know about biology and the study of life. The Cathedral would not permit it. Shisai Kaito was the same person he was when he banished Len.
"And so it is God's will for your mother to perish, I assure you she is now in the kingdom of heaven". Len cried and cried, he was only 6. All of his efforts wasted when he could most likely bring his mother back.
"What makes him God?! Why should I suffer because of 'God's will'?! To the very same hell you teach me about with his mysterious ways!" he was almost banished then because of that. He was too young though. Now he got what was coming to him.
What makes it a sin to create a heart? Why do humans fear questioning themselves? Are they afraid that deep down they'll discover an imperfect being? Why if for centuries love has existed we can still not understand it? There's more to life than a bunch of cells and there's more to a divine presence than "right and wrong". Why are we so afraid of ourselves?