5 days ago, If anyone told me that I'd be standing outside of Rachel Berry's house with a boombox above my head I'd laugh in their face or throw a slushie in it. But here I am, standing in the rain, begging for Rachel's forgiveness.. Now, I admit the whole boombox thing really isn't that original but John Cusack did it and he got the girl.
4 hours had gone and I'm still standing outside. My hands are getting tired from holding this metal junk over my head. Fortunately for me, the rain has stopped. Unfortunately for me, the boombox died 3 hours ago. So why am I still holding it above my head, you ask? For effect. Knowing Rachel and her need to be overly dramatic about things, holding out through the pain seemed dramatic enough. A tad stupid but anything for Rachel.
3 simple words I could have said that would have saved me all this trouble. But no, me being the stupid fool that I am, i chose not to express it. Goddamn it. Its just words Quinn.. How long did it take you to say I love you to the one you love? Not more than a few months I hope. I still can't believe Rachel had enough patience to stay with me despite my lack of verbal acceptance of the nature of our relationship. I guess 5 days ago, she decided enough was enough.
2 moments that changed my life. One being, Beth's arrival into this world and Rachel kissing me. I remembered it was straight after Cheerios practice. Rachel was sitting at the bleachers waiting for me. Nobody knew how or why I decided to be friends with Rachel. After Beth, I knew I didn't want to be someone Beth would be disappointed at.. I silently prayed she wouldn't grow up a bully or even worst, be bullied. I knew i had to change. What seemed like pure fun then seemed so scary now that I had a child. I worried for Beth.
1 more chance is all I'm hoping I can get. I'd give everything for one more chance with Rachel. Right now, I'm really regretting watching Say Anything... Maybe I should have stuck to singing like Ashton did.