Blaine Adams was everything Kurt Hummel had been looking for in a man— charismatic, funny, and nice to him, something Kurt hadn't experienced very often. Sure he had New Directions, his quirky, wonderful, messed up, under-dog family, but it was so easy to get lost there, because of all the attitude and drama. Thinking back to the Karofsky incident, it had taken his former Glee club weeks to notice what was going on, and then finally stick up for him.

His past with Karofsky was still a sore spot, a dark blemish on his life. There was, however, some joy when he thought about those days—Blaine. When they first met Kurt felt as though he was in a fairytale, with Blaine his charming prince there to rescue him from his demons, and sweep him off his feet...until Kurt forcibly reminded himself that he wasn't supposed to think that way anymore. After all his failed attempts at "love" (although now, Kurt realized, he had never truly experienced such a thing) he had to keep his heart closed off. It was too painful to consider facing yet another rejection, and Kurt was sure he was about to break for good.

So Kurt endeavored on a purely platonic relationship with Blaine, but it didn't take very long before Blaine's good nature began slipping through the cracks of Kurt's resistance. He started falling—hard. Kurt hated himself in those moments that his thoughts lingered on Blaine. He was supposed to be strong and independent. He didn't need another person letting him down. But still the thoughts and questions tormented him… Do friends drive an hour and a half to help each other out? Do friends treat friends to lunch? Do they invade your personal space? Do they take your hand only moments after meeting you? But Kurt knew there was no way—no way—Blaine could possible like him that way. They were just friends, and Kurt had to accept that.

When Kurt's dad and Carole offered him the chance to attend Dalton, he was faced with a very hard decision. New Directions was his family. He had been with them since the very beginning. They had supported him through so much, but then again they hadn't been there when Karofsky's bullying had first escalated. Kurt also feared that showing up at Dalton would ruin his friendship with Blaine. He didn't want Blaine to think he wasn't brave, and he didn't want to intrude on the life Blaine had built himself at Dalton. But in the end, getting away from Karofsky, and being safe, was all he could see. Of course Blaine had still been a big part in his transferring, not that Kurt would ever admit that to anyone, not even himself.

Looking back Kurt realized he should have gone with his instincts— he should have protected his heart. Upon his arrival at Dalton all had seemed wonderful and amazing, but it soon seemed as though Blaine was avoiding him. They saw each other during Warbler practice, but after his humiliation on the first day, the practices became something Kurt dreaded. Occasionally Blaine ate with Kurt during dinner, but he was popular and had to make the rounds in the dining hall. They never texted anymore, it was impractical due to the close quarters, but Kurt felt as though something very essential had been taken from him. Kurt scolded himself once again for thinking he deserved having somebody. Clearly Kurt Hummel and love weren't meant to coexist and resignedly Kurt accepted his fate. He was still heart-broken on the inside, but no one cared, so he didn't see the point in making a big deal out of it to anyone but himself.

I am alone, and that's all I'll ever be.

So this is my first attempt at a Klaine angst story, although whenever I write plays or stories for school they're always angsty and depressing, so I have lots of experience in that sense.

This is really only a preview of the actual story, which is going to be pretty long, and it will start from the Kurt and Blaine's first meeting, and it will mainly be their hidden emotions and reactions to specific plot points. I haven't decided yet if it will fill in the gaps of the story, or take it's own little journey, but that's part of the fun!

I hope you guys enjoy the little sample featured above!

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