You and I
A/N: My first Asucaga. Yeah, an AU. And perhaps (?) it's an One-shot. If I must continue it, I will continue. Honestly I have written it very long time ago so I don't think the story plot at all. Even I type without thinking! –crazy- Anyway, although my grammar is bad and this plot is very common, please Read and Enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam SEED Destiny and great thanks for Sunrise, which owned the story and anime
'You can't forget me like this…'
The voice rang over and over in my head. You… couldn't forget me… like this. I'm sure that. But… The fact?
You had forgotten me. You even forgot my name. You forgot everything, including…
…our memories…
I knew, deep down in my heart. It wasn't your fault. It was my fault. All. All of them..
I was just a girl, who never understand about your position. You were a handsome boy, who always had a bunch of girls that pretty, beautiful, feminine, and many more. But, me?
Very very tomboyish, headstrong, not cute or beautiful, even the people supposed me as a boy! But, why you chose me? Why..??
A thousand words of why danced in my head. Even understood about myself, still, I couldn't accept the fact you always pursued by the girls. Probably I was selfish. Perhaps I was greedy.
Maybe God wanted to punish me. For everything I had done to you.
I always angry to you and you always smile to me. I insulted you, and you didn't mind. I beat you, and you didn't move. You always said, it was your fault for allowed the girls pursued you. First, I think you're right. Didn't you, who made me jealous, right?
But I was wrong. A big wrong. Biggest mistake which I had done.
Now, I regretted. For all had happened. And now you're suffering… I was truly regretted now, I couldn't make one thing. To assure you're alright, and…
…came back like past time….
You were no longer the man who I knew. You were difference. And now you forgot me.
Seeing you from distance, I could feel my heart shattered. In to a million pieces. And couldn't stick again. I didn't know, why my heart like this. But I was sure, only with you my heart like this.
For all of my sins, now I was sure. God indeed punished me. But, why must you? Why must been bought with losing you?
I didn't think I can redeem my sins now. Everyone, hated me. Even my own twin brother. He didn't want to see my face again, because I hurt you. You were his only best friend and no one else. He asked me to don't show my face in front of you, ever…
I thought I could do it. Didn't me, who always hurt you, right? But…
…why…??
In my head, in my mind, even my soul, always thinking of you. I couldn't sleep, unable…cause you haunted my dreams, always.
Why couldn't me, not thinking of you, once only? Didn't this was over? Didn't you will never come back to me? Didn't…..
A warm of liquid was wet my cheek. My eyes widened. It couldn't be…
Even when my father dead, I never cried. My brother said, I was a strong people, who never cried, for the useless thing. But…
…why I cried now…?
My vision sooner blurry now. I covered my mouth with my hand, resisted me for didn't make a noise. I knew, I would sob right now. But you wouldn't seeing me like this, because no one who had seen me like this. So, you too.
I didn't want to ruin your happiness right now. Your smile, seemed genuine. Opposite when you were with me. Now, you deserved, more than anything for felt your happiness. I would facing my punishment, alone. Without you there, for helped me, as usual you did for me.
I would do this, only for you, only for your sake.
I took last sight of you. You were laughed. With your friends, and… the girl. A red haired girl. I smiled, bitterly. This was, the best for both of us. Did you… think same like me..?