Set a few hours after their argument in 1x05. The song is 'At this moment' by Michael Buble. R & R appreciated. I don't own anything.

What did you think,
I would do at this moment,
When you're standing before me,
With tears in your eyes
Tryin' to tell me that you
Found you another
And you just don't love me no more

She walks down the stairs, hearing nothing but the sound of her own heels on the cold stone floor beneath her shoes. She wasn't quite sure what she was about to do, heading for the place she uses to work in almost every day. She never gave it much of a thought but the whole room suddenly seemed brighter and bigger. So big that she sometimes felt lost; so calm that it sent a shiver down her spine.

She turned off the lights because it hurt her eyes and listened but there was nothing except terrible silence in the middle of the night. She shouldn't be there since there was no job to take care of. She wasn't quite sure whether to be happy about it or not. No body meant any new deaths or people being brutally killed, but having nothing to do didn't do her any good either.

She could be at home in bed, feeling warm and comfortable but ever since it happened, it didn't feel the same any longer. Nothing really did.

How many times had she looked at her best friend, thinking that there is no one else she adored more in her life? She lost track of how many times Jane made her smile during a troubled case; she missed ever minute they spent chatting whenever Jane needed a break from her paperwork. She longed for the sleepovers and the drinks after work.

She wrapped her arms around her body, feeling somewhat cold. The feeling of being surrounded by death had certainly never been more present but she couldn't get her body to leave the room. Where should she go?

Upstairs to find the detective's desk empty; loaded with all the cases that she never managed to finish. She might encounter Korsak or Frost and she couldn't bare the looks they kept giving her. It didn't help at all and she didn't feel like talking.

Home?
She felt so lonely, knowing that Jane wouldn't knock on her door in the middle of the night because she felt like coming over or her mum spontaneously decided to pay her daughter a visit. Sometimes she caught herself looking at the door, waiting for her to knock.

When did she start taking everything for granted? She laid her face in her hands and sighed; she felt utterly exhausted but couldn't find any sleep at night.

What did she think and when did it happen? She shook her head at her own stupidity, knowing that she went too far and now there might not be a change to take it all back; that she might not have the chance to sort it out. These thoughts kept bothering her and she was angry with herself but with the hours dragging by, it got harder to push them away.

She shouldn't have let Jane down, she understood that. She was wrong with what she did. The more she thought about it, the more she realized that there's something else. To what she feels when it comes to her best friend. She noticed she'd kept a distance recently and never knew why she behaved the way she did. Neither did Jane and Maura knew it drove her crazy.

The angrier she wanted to be with Jane; the more she realized that she loved her. Maura Isles was always the one knowing everything but Jane was the one person who left her speechless.

They always say she is a bad liar and maybe she should've tried harder this time. She should've lied.

It's been about forty-eight hours now. Whenever you wish time would pass as slow as possible, it seems to be vice versa. She wanted nothing but turn back time. Back to the night she faced her best friend in the parking lot after their fight. Things would be different; she would try harder.

While she left the dark morgue, her mind brought her back to the previous night. Every inch of her body was filled with pain; she had never seen her best friend so vulnerable. Jane Rizzoli the though detective, the strongest woman she knew. Mara also knew that Jane wasn't as strong as she sometimes pretended to be, but seeing her eyes flooded with tears broke Maura's heart and her body went numb; unable to stop her when she walked away.

This was the last time she saw her.