Waste
A/N: Whhheee heehee! Staind rules! This is a fic that was inspired by the Staind song 'Waste'. I got the idea for this during science in 7th period. Warning: swear words (Censored) and suicidal thoughts. Dib's POV. This story is all in Dib's mind. Dib doesn't talk in this. He thinks.
My God, my God. This world seems to be falling into pieces around me. I can't take it anymore! Dad's tried to make me be like him... I don't care. Gaz is gone.... It doesn't matter. Nothing is going right. Zim's been acting strangely. I don't care about trying to prove that he's an alien anymore. Nothing matters.... No one cares.
* Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face...*
For the love of God! I wish I could just die know. Everyone would be happier if I did. I'm a freak and a freak I shall remain. Oh death, bring me to your sweet embrace. For what I'm thinking I know I shall most likely be damned. That would be the highlight of my life....
* I had no answers 'cause I didn't even know you
+ But these words they can't replace
The life you
The life you waste+
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you? *
Death... that is the key! To rid myself of this unceasing torture I must die. I know how to do this. I'm actually glad I've kept this old pocketknife.... I had a feeling it would come in handy.
* I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
+ But these words they can't replace
The life you
The life you waste+
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much? *
I could never imagine pain being this enjoyable... As I take this knife to my wrists. Oh great, footsteps. Who's trying to stop me? I can't see... Everything's blacking out. I am finally free?
"Dib!"
What? Zim?! Why is he here?!
* Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no question for you to answer on your own?
Well f*** them
And f*** her
And f*** him
And f*** you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through. *
Zim, stop it! I'm nearly gone! Don't try to save me! You've wanted me dead all along! Why are you helping me?! Don't bandage my wrists! Can't you see I want to die?!
* I've had doubts
I have failed
I've f***ed up
I've had plans
Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands
+ But these words they don't replace
The life you
The life you waste+*
Maybe...Maybe life is worth living...
A/N: I feel really depressed now.. :
A/N: Whhheee heehee! Staind rules! This is a fic that was inspired by the Staind song 'Waste'. I got the idea for this during science in 7th period. Warning: swear words (Censored) and suicidal thoughts. Dib's POV. This story is all in Dib's mind. Dib doesn't talk in this. He thinks.
My God, my God. This world seems to be falling into pieces around me. I can't take it anymore! Dad's tried to make me be like him... I don't care. Gaz is gone.... It doesn't matter. Nothing is going right. Zim's been acting strangely. I don't care about trying to prove that he's an alien anymore. Nothing matters.... No one cares.
* Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face...*
For the love of God! I wish I could just die know. Everyone would be happier if I did. I'm a freak and a freak I shall remain. Oh death, bring me to your sweet embrace. For what I'm thinking I know I shall most likely be damned. That would be the highlight of my life....
* I had no answers 'cause I didn't even know you
+ But these words they can't replace
The life you
The life you waste+
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you? *
Death... that is the key! To rid myself of this unceasing torture I must die. I know how to do this. I'm actually glad I've kept this old pocketknife.... I had a feeling it would come in handy.
* I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
+ But these words they can't replace
The life you
The life you waste+
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much? *
I could never imagine pain being this enjoyable... As I take this knife to my wrists. Oh great, footsteps. Who's trying to stop me? I can't see... Everything's blacking out. I am finally free?
"Dib!"
What? Zim?! Why is he here?!
* Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no question for you to answer on your own?
Well f*** them
And f*** her
And f*** him
And f*** you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through. *
Zim, stop it! I'm nearly gone! Don't try to save me! You've wanted me dead all along! Why are you helping me?! Don't bandage my wrists! Can't you see I want to die?!
* I've had doubts
I have failed
I've f***ed up
I've had plans
Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands
+ But these words they don't replace
The life you
The life you waste+*
Maybe...Maybe life is worth living...
A/N: I feel really depressed now.. :