Love and Hate

I was starting to notice her more. I noticed the cold look in her eyes when she looked my way. I noticed the hate and malice she used to address me. Hell, I even noticed the way she scoffed at the sound of my name. And I thought to myself, she totally has the hots for me. Halibel loved me.

Hueco Mundo was the awesome world we the Espada lived on. It was one big desert complete with sand and bone twig trees. And to top that off, a big moon surrounded by black sky. Ah, my world. Tch, enough of that though, I'm not no nature guy. I was busy listening to Tesla go on about something. I don't know, I stopped listening to him a while ago. I think he was reminding me about Neliel. Two words to describe Neliel. Pain. In. My. Ass. Wait…was that two? Yeah, I'm sure it was. Anyway, I think Tesla was trying to shoot me down from women and be a fag like him, Luppi, Szayel, Grimmjow, Ulquiorra, the list could go on forever, so I will stop. Eh, I hated the thought of being gay even for a second. It gave me chills. No, I already had a gal picked out. All I needed to do was ring her up and walk out of the store. I smiled a grin that covered the whole bottom of my face. Oh yea. Tesla waved his arms to get my attention again. I am so bored listening to this little wimp. So I stop his jabbering with my axe. I didn't kill him (if I kill him, who will do all of my work?) I put my axe to his neck.

"Shut the hell up, Tesla. Geez, you talk too much."

"But master, I don't like this one bit! She of all persons!"

"I said shut the hell up!" I said putting my axe into his neck more. He finally shut up. Ah, peace. That didn't last long.

"Nnoitra."

Her icy, voice sent a good chill down my spine. It tingled me down to…places. I looked at her. Blonde hair, tanned skin, green eyes, boobs and hips showing. Oh yea, she was a woman who wasn't afraid to show her body. I think I was staring to stare because she ran over to me and slapped me hard across the face. I fell off balance too. I was sitting on a log in the lighted dome, and she hit me off of it. A woman who could hit! Wasn't I a lucky beast? I knew she was just putting on a show of course. She loved me just as much as I loved her, and that a lot right now. I smiled at her. Her eyes widen for a split second.

"Did you need something? Or were you looking for someone?" I narrow my eyes and grin wider. She looks away.

"I simply came to remind you of all the work you still haven't done. That is all."

"I love working girls." I said out loud, unaware. She stared daggers right at me; I felt like I was dying.

"What was that?" She said coldly as can be. I cough several times trying to get a hold of myself.

"Nothing, I said nothing at all."

She drops her glare and turns away. I can't help but notice the swing in her hips. Shake that thing, yes. I look down as she looks back. Damn it! It was like she had some kind of Nnoitra sense. I guess I should consider myself lucky. At least she cares enough to stomp on my balls. Neliel never did that, but then again, she had more honor than that. Oh please. What a fucking prick. Tesla took my arms and helped me up, and yea. I felt him grind on me. I shoved him away.

"Get away from me!" I yelled. I saw the hurt in his eyes. What? You gonna' cry you little bitch!

"But sir, master, I thought you were hurt."

"What have I told you millions of times!? Huh?"

"You told me to stop fondling you in your sleep…"

"What??"

"Nothing." He said quickly with shifty eyes.

"Uh…No! I've told you that I am the strongest Espada!"

"I thought Starrk…"

I grab him by his collar and pull him to me. I love my long arms.

"What were you about to say, brat?"

Tesla said nothing. His face started a blush. His whole face turned red and he passed out. Damn gay bitch. I drop him. He'll wake up later. I had other stuff to do. Mainly, nap. First, I wanted some food. I made my way to the kitchen.

I open the door. No one's in the kitchen. Good, I don't have to hear any talk. I stroll in having to duck under the door frame. I didn't understand why they made all of the doors tall enough for me except this one. It was retarded. I mean, stupid. I know some people get all mad if people us the word retarded. Lighten up, god. I open the fridge. There is no food. Wasn't it Ulquiorra's job to keep the fridge stocked?? Now we had a problem. I was angry. I kicked the fridge denting it horribly. I found Ulquiorra walking through the hall next to Grimmjow. They were tossing insults back and forth at each other. It seemed that Ulquiorra was winning. Grimmjow kept getting stumped.

"ULQUIORRA!!" I yelled. He turned in that annoying way of his with that stupid emotionless face of his. I sneer.

"*Sigh*, is there a problem, Nnoitra?"

"Yeah, there's a fucking problem! Aren't you the one who's supposed to keep the fucking fridge stocked with some fucking food?"

"You haven't been aware. Halibel wanted that job. So I let her have it."

"What the fuck!?"

"Don't get so mad over nothing, idiot." Grimmjow sneered at me. I guess he maybe hasn't forgiven me for the whole 'hurry up and die. it's my turn to fight with the soul reaper.' Whoo, I did not expect him to finish off the soul reaper at the sound of that insult. That's what happens when the little kitty gets mad. I purred. Grimmjow looked at me.

"Was that supposed to be a crack you cross-dressing son of a bitch!?"

"Don't be such a little bitch about it."

"You are a no good dirty mother-"

"I'm going to stop this pointless argument right there. Nnoitra, will you stop complaining and just see Halibel about it."

I stammered. I needed an excuse to get out of having to see her. I mean, she just tried to kill me with her reiatsu. If I really pissed her off, she probably would kill me, flatten the body, and set it on fire. I shuddered. Grimmjow laughed at me.

"Nnoitra's scared of some girl. What a pussy."

"Hey! Shut up!" I snapped at him. He smiled and walked away. Ulquiorra shook his head and went the other. He stopped.

"Halibel is in the library. I suggest you go see her if you want any food."

I groaned. I was going to have to face her again. It sent my heart racing. Ooh, the danger. The passion as we looked straight onto one another's eyes. The texture of her on mine. I shook my head. Don't get ahead of yourself Nnoitra. You had to play her into it. Yeeeeessss, play her into it. Another smile made its way onto my face. Ulquiorra shook his head and left going the way he just came.

You know, it's really hard to find a fucking library when you don't even know where the hell it is. We didn't have GPS systems either, so I had to try to find the damn place myself. I had to ask, ugh the shame, three different people. Not only that, I ended up in the lighted dome twice. Where the hell was I going? And then I found it. It was down the same hall as the kitchen. I opened the door. She was still in the room, but she seemed softer somehow. She was picking books off the shelf looking at each one before she set it back. She finally picked out a book and sat in a chair with a cup of tea at her side. For once…for once she looked civilized. Should I go in?

"Nnoitra, come in if you're coming in." She said in a cool, calm way. Was she on chill pills? The fact that she was being…calm freaked me out. She looked this way the icy stare I loved so much. I smiled. That was better. I walked in and kneeled beside her.

"Whatcha' readin'?"

"I don't think you would understand it."

"What? I can understand books!"

She handed me the book. I look at the words and try to understand them. Someone please tell me what these words mean? I mean, chronic? Hierarchy? Epidermis? What was this? She snatched the book out of my long hands.

"See? No understanding. Just an idiotic boy."

Hey. Idiot I could stand, but boy? I had a name, Nnoitra Jiruga. She kept her eyes on the book. I stared at her. Why was I in here? My stomach roared. Halibel almost dropped her book, she looked at me hatefully.

"What? I get hungry…"

"Then go eat." She said trying to find her page.

"There is nothing to eat."

"What? I just stocked the fridge an hour ago."

"There's no food. Maybe you should do a better job, Ms. Tres." Did I just say that out loud!? I had a habit of doing that around her. This was the second time I had done it. She slammed the book closed and looked at me with such a strong hate, I was losing my breath again. Was I going to die here? I could feel my breath getting lighter and lighter. The library door came open again; Halibel turned around and minded her own business. Tesla came over and grabbed me.

"Master! Are you alright?"

"Can't….breathe……..well……"

Tesla slung my arm over his shoulder and dragged me. It must have been hard seeing how I was much taller than him. I think my boots were scratching the floor. I didn't care. I was trying to catch my breath. I should have known this shit was going to happen! I should have known! If I died at the hands of that…that girl, that would be more of a disgrace than being killed by Tesla! Tesla dragged me all the way to my room and helped me on the bed. I kicked him back. My boot pierced his gut. He was bleeding. Oh well.

"Get out of here!" I yell. Tesla looked away sad.

"Uh…yes. Sir." He left the room. I put my arms under my head and stared at the ceiling. I didn't see the ceiling. I saw Halibel. What was it about her that got me so fired up? Here she had just tried to kill me not once but twice in one day, and all I could think about was how hot she was. Was there something wrong with me? Shouldn't I have known better than to love women? Women who were stronger than me? Women with the number three? Women…women who made me feel good. I frowned. I knew I loved Halibel, I did. I wanted to know why. What was the reason? There was no…logic, yeah that's the word! There was no logic behind the whole thing. I sighed. Just fucking great.