Hey guys! This fic is a co-write with my friend Izzy (Theta'sWorstNightmare). Updates will probably be slow 'cause both me and Izzy are busy. This first chapter was written by Izzy with just editing and a few changes from me. Please R&R and hope you like it :)

Broken
Chapter 1

The second sun was already lowering behind the great mountain of Solace and Solitude when Koschei finally bid farewell to Theta and started to make his way home. He knew well that he shouldn't go through the woods at night, but he was having too much of a good time with his friend to break it in a reasonable time. Beside there wasn't much of a wild life on Gallifrey, he reasoned with himself. Nothing like the animals he had read about in the books about other planets, which the Deca would sneak from the Academy's library. It wasn't first time he had done it either, but today something was sending him on edge. His teeth were itching, as if something was coming his way and was affecting him physically and mentally but he could not determine what. Lucky Theta, the Lungbarrow's house was in the skirts of the mountain meaning he didn't have to make this long walk through the dark woods to Koschei's mansion.

"Don't be such a sissy, you bloody idiot. Nothing can happen to you just because it's dark." Koschei chastised himself for his nervousness as much as to show himself how silly he was being, as to just hear his voice so the place would not be so quiet. He heard the cry of a bird behind himself and the sound made him jump and spin around.

"Idiot!" He spat to himself and kept going towards home. He promised himself that he was not going to start jumping at every sound that the forest would make. However there was a rustling around the bushes and a snapping of a twig which made his steps falter slightly. This time it sounded like something far larger then birds, but he dismissed it as Tafelshrews. His mind was already drifting back to his meeting with Theta, and how he could see all his dreams crumble. He had just learned that his father had found him the perfect wife, or at least Lord Oakdown thought she was the perfect wife. She was from a powerful family with a high position but not so long noble history and big clan like the Oakdown. The Oakdowns were losing power with him being his father's only son and his unstable mental health endangering his chances to become Lord President. This this was the perfect political match for their families. Koschei smiled, oh if they only knew Ushas…But he didn't love her, all he wanted was to not have to hide his relationship with Theta. Admittedly they had never gone beyond kissing but he was determined to save himself for his love.

He was so engrossed in his thought that he missed the short moment when the dying rays of the already settling sun caught on a white robe of a moving figure. The silver leaves on the trees were shining beautifully, but the shadows the trees were sending most of the place in deep dark shadows. Koschei could feel goose bumps on the patches of skin that was left revealed by his robes and the chilling eerie sensation almost made him run on the rest of the way.

With great difficulty he restrained from running off like a scared child, such indignity he would not allow himself. Reaching a small opening between the tall imposing trees he let a sigh of relief, he could almost see the Oakdown estate from there which give him more confidence. The opening didn't provide much more light now that the second sun was down behind the mountains and all that was left was the orange glow lighting the snow on the mountain tops. Still it was better than the deep shadows of the trees that seems to press down on him at night, he could get a breath here and remind himself that the forest is not endless just a couple of miles. Just when he let his thoughts roam into the direction of thinking that he was safe a glimpse of the light catching in something bright and white made his hearts jump into his mouth. Now that he concentrated he could feel the presence of another Time Lord nearby, but it wasn't Theta.

"Is anyone there?" Koschei asked trying to stop his voice from shaking and make it sound confident and threatening. However it came out a bit higher that he would have liked. "I have to warn you whoever you are that I have one of Ushas' mice and I'm not afraid to use it."

A long silence stretched in the forest while Koschei waited for an answer. He held his breath not daring to even move wondering who would go following him there. He could almost imagine that it was some of his father's servants who were sent to spy on him. His hearts started to speed up while he was trying to peer at the shadows to see the person cowering there. Did his father know about him and Theta? What would Lord Oakdown do to them if he knew? All these questions and his quickening hearth beat and breath made his head feel light and the drum beat in his head started to pound against his skull. Rubbing at his temples to ease the pain he started to control his breaths. It couldn't have been any of his father's servants because the presence was a Time Lord, maybe some of Theta's cousins were going to the house. Feeling stupid for overreacting he turned around to walk the last mile towards home and drink some of his mother's hot herbs to calm his nerves. She took on the habit to boil him some calming herbs since he looked into the Vortex and started to get headaches. Everyone thought he was mad, even his dad and sometimes Theta only Lady Oakdown said that he just needed something to calm him down and he would be ok.

He made a few steps towards the other end of the opening, only to run into the solid body of a person who was dressed in a peasant way and smelled a bit unwashed. Staggering backwards he looked at the man in front of him. It was a Shoobugan in a scruffy grey trousers and tunic, it wasn't a Time Lord, so he can't be alone, Koschei thought. What was Shoobugan doing there? It wasn't one of his father's servants either. Shoobugans didn't come to this part of Gallifrey often unless it was for work, but this one didn't seem to come for work. Lord Lungbarrow didn't approve on having Shoobugans for servants so it was unlikely that was the man's destination. Koschei looked at his face and noted the predatory smile and the twinkle in his eyes when he looked Koschei up and down. Instantly a sick feeling grew in Koschei as the young Time Lord could swear that there was an undisguised lust in the man's expression. Suddenly the world started to spin faster and the increasing sound in his head sent white and black spots in front of his eyes.

The man reached a dirty, scrubby hand towards Koschei and the cracks in the skin made the young Time Lord cringe and bite down on his lower lip. He wanted to run, but the fear seemed to have him paralyzed, only able to watch. The four beat rhythm in his head increased to a frantic tattoo muffling all the rest of the noises around him. For once Koschei was grateful for the drums in his head, he could pretend that he had detached himself from his physical body and watch for afar. As the Shoobugan slide his hands around Koschei's body another person came out of the shadows. Koschei sensed the presence of the other Time Lord even before he had recognized the bully from the Academy.

"My Lord Barin," Koschei tried to greet the other Time Lord in a proper fashion without betraying his fear. He knew what Barin was capable of, he had been on the receiving end of his bulling in more than one occasions.

"My Lord Koschei," Barin greeted back. "I hear you are about to marry soon. How inappropriate for us to take you before your spouse, but I'm sure our Lady Ushas would understand. However I do not have a desire in physical activities."

Barin reached a hand to touch Koschei's head positioning his fingers on his temples. Suddenly realizing what that meant Koschei tried to pull away, instant panic overtaking him, but the Shoobugan's hands were securely locked on him keeping him firmly on place. He gritted his teeth determined not to whimper or cry, but still wriggling trying to get free. He should have known better than to cross the wood in the dark, he thought all this was his own fault. Still the drums were taunting him trying to tell him that he had to hurt them, and then kill them. And he would have done it, but he was powerless in the grip of the low Gallifreyan who was at least two times his size.

"Joined in mind and in body. Isn't that what you would promise your spouse, my Lord Koschei?" Barin teased him. "Let's see how much of your messed up mind still is worth joining."

"You have no right Barin!" Koschei shouted in vain hoping that the bully would stop. "You can't enter someone's mind without consequences."

Deaf to his reasoning Barin pushed on the mental barriers in Koschei's mind trying to find the weaker place to from which to bring them down. His efforts were met with Koschei's determination; he had pulled up thick brick and concrete walls. When one was starting to crack he would slam another wall up to shield his mind. But all that was taking its toll on him and he wasn't sure how long he would keep his mind locked from Barin.

Koschei was starting to panic; the walls in his mind were slowly crumbling down under the assault from the bully. He wanted to scream and struggle away, he wanted to kick and cry, but he seemed to be locked inside his head being only an outsider spectator to what was happening to his body. What made him panic even further was the hands of the peasant roaming around his body. These cracked, overworked hands were tearing on his clothes and touching his skin making it burn with shame and anger. Something in his head snapped and an explosion of red hot rage spread through his brain. This was supposed to be his most enjoyable time with Theta. A Time Lord's intimacy was way beyond the other species intimacy. If for the others was on a more physical realm and sex, Time Lords had it combined between physical and psychical, and he was saving this first time for Theta. They were robbing him of that, a Time Lord usually bonds once, there was only one person that could fully be shared with.

Memories, pictures and thoughts were flying chaotic through his mind. He was trying to organize then, hide and lock them, but to no avail. His barriers were long fallen and the chaos in his head spread from his sub-consciousness through all around his head. The drums were beating an erratic rhythm trying to break the locked away monster inside him. He screamed in rage when the Shoobugan entered him and started to move almost in rhythm with the drums inside his head. All Koschei could do was scream and crawl on the dirt. The fight was leaving him, when Barin finally brought down his last mental defence and looked into his memory of the Schism. Even the drums were starting to get muffled now that his mind was teased to pieces and the pieces seemed to be messed up and in complete chaos.

Barin straightened up and dusted his hands as if to shake the dirt from touching Koschei's messy mind. He nodded at the Shoobugan and they left the young Time Lord lying on the ground with completely shattered mind and body.