A Broken Hallelujah
Chapter One
Be good. Stay in school. Do your homework. Eat your veggies and fruits. I've heard it all before but I never wanted to truly listen.What's the point when they lose control of your life and all you do is sit at a desk and eat cake? Yes, that's my life. My legs are always up by my chest and I never wear shoes. It's despicable. I don't need shoes or socks. My clothes are always baggy, better for thinking. I get stressed in something tighter. I mean, if we needed tight clothes, I'm sure we would all fail at looking good in them. I tugged at my collar as the computer screen let me watch the outside world full of action where I could sit back and watch the scenes. My dark eyes searched behind me as there were foot steps behind me. Pathetic.
"Yes?" I address, looking at my cake with my favorite topping, strawberry. I carefully let it slide into my mouth, my taste buds bursting with joy and pleasure. I knew who was here.
"Ryuzaki?" the voice asked me. It was still a disguised name, so no one could steal it and use it for their own good. With the case I was on now, I couldn't afford Kira finding out my true name.
"Yes Light?" I was still calling him by his first short name. I suspected him as Kira by 5%, going onto 6% by the way he's solving this case. He uses his words wisely and picks them out. His eyes always give me the same look, "Why do you want me to answer this when you already know yourself?" I smirk at the look. I turn to him in my chair; my thumb was automatically by my lips. I gently bit the tip as a thinking process.
"The impostor has stopped their videos and messages. He hasn't sent one this week," he reported. I turned back to the computer screen, narrowing my eyes.
"Strange…" I already knew of this but I'm sure Light was bored. The handcuffs were coming soon. They were being hand-made by an old friend. I laughed to myself. My black hair hid my eyes as Light came closer. His hand touched my shoulder as my thumb dug deeper into my lower lip. "Do you have any idea who it could be?" I whispered, seeing him shake his head from the corner of my eye.
He gave a sigh and removed his hand. He started to walk away, giving up on talking to me. That happens a lot with me and people. I'm not entirely good at making normal conversation, being here for so long and barely going outside. I was in shape and all, but something was missing. As if I was lonely and tired of it being that way, so I decided to make an effort and call out to him. My lips stopped me, I frowned. I opened them slowly, looking up from a gaze on me. Light's brown eyes were twinkling at me. He gave me an amusing smile, I immediately shut my mouth.
"No, do that again." He bent down, grabbing a chair, and sat down beside me. I looked at him with wide eyes. I tried not to look creepy, but my dark eyes with my very noticeable circles made it impossible. He leaned closer as my lips parted for his amusement. Strange. I thought, not making any emotions visible to him. He watched me carefully and leaned a hand towards me. His fingers went under my jaw, I gulped. He opened my jaw by squeezing my mouth with his fingers on each side of my jawline. I felt strange, my heart thumping inside my chest. My stomach turned. "Ryuzaki…" His voice got soft as he leaned even closer. His lips barely touching mine, my eyes only got wider. His started to close as our lips started to lean even closer. I pulled away when I heard more footsteps and his hand snatched away from my jawline. I rubbed my sore mouth. "Sorry." He laughed to himself. I shook my head and looked at the visitors. They basically gave me the same news as Light had.
I nodded through the conversation and got bored. I looked at my hands on my knees, picking at a wrinkle in my jeans. My eyes scrolled over to Light who was deep in thought. "Light?" I asked. No response. Huh…"Light?" Again, nothing. I edged closer and kicked his seat across the room with my bare foot. It rolled across the room with his shocked, trembling body in it. I laughed with amusement. He looked at me and glared. It became a playful look. The other police officers were watching us before I knew it. He rolled back with his feet running on the floor, bumping into me. I rolled across the floor. I grinned. He edged closer again, so I kicked him away with my foot. He got pushed away farther this time and the others started to question us.
"Uh…Ryuzaki?" one of them asked. I shooed them all away and so they did, closing the door. Light did one more roll into me, I smiled brightly. He gave me a gentle one. He rolled close to me as possible; it was the end of the playfulness. I swept my fingers across my forehead, strains of hair being pushed to the side. He watched and sat next to me. He grabbed my fork and took a bite of my cake onto the fork. He turned to me, leaning close, and put the fork between my lips. I took the bite gratefully and ate the cake with pleasure.
"Thank you," I said and got back to the Kira case. My thumb being bitten again but I could feel his glance on me. "What? You keep staring at me and never tell me what you're thinking." I don't look away from the screen of walking people in the city.
There was a long pause. "Why should I tell you?"
"Because…I need to know these things to see if they're important for the case."
"And if not?"
"You wasted my time." He laughed at my comment. "What?"
"You."
I blinked at him, staring at him. "What about me?"
"You can say the funniest of things and never know it." I tilted my head as I looked at him.
"Continue."
"What's more to tell than that?" He looked at one of the screens and didn't say anything more. I just want to know what all the thinking about in your head, Light. If you are Kira, I need to know now. Not later, now. Are you planning on knowing who I really am? Do you know that I want you to be Kira? Hmmm….impossible. Probably too stupid to recognize that need.
"Light?"
He turned to me again with calm eyes and a smile. "Yeah?" He sat even closer to me than I realize, probably did that when I was thinking of how stupid he was.
"May I ask you something?"
"Sure, go ahead. Anything."
Let's see how you can answer something like this. "If you were Kira, how would you give off hints to let someone like me know? Would you give out secrets or just playful flirting?"
He looked at me and narrowed his eyes. He's thinking, I know that. Wonder what his thoughts were telling him? I waited patiently with my hands on both my knees, waiting and watching. He rubbed his chin. "Hmm I guess I would tell you secrets only I, as Kira, would know. I don't know about harmless flirting like journals of how I want to see you and all, mostly trying to get you to spill things out that someone who wasn't Kira do." He shrugged. "But, at this rate, anyone could be Kira."
"I like your answer but not the second part. You amaze me Light; we should hang out more," I said emotionless. I turned back to the t.v., narrowing my eyes at it. He was getting faster and faster at this and doesn't realize it, how was he doing these answers so perfectly and right? I shrugged the question away and bit my thumb again, going into a thought process once more.