A/N: Hey eveyone. This is my latest fanfic... I mentioned that i was going to write a high school fic, well this is it. It's gonna be really angsty and well a sucidal Hinata, many people will be bashed, mostly sakura. I'm sure you've noticed that i don't really like Hiashi well he is going to suffer in this story... wow this is my longest AN ever... well enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, Not mine! Not mine i tell ya!

chapter one.

'BRRR! BRRRR!'

The sound of my alarm clock brought me out of my reverie, I sighed as I slowly stood up from my bed. I made my way to my bathroom and turned on the shower, I tried not to look at myself but I failed, my hair was a blue mess, yes I said blue, that's the color of my hair just like my mother's, my voilet pupilless eyes looked dull and lifeless I had bags under my eyes. 'Another sleepless night' I thought with a sigh, my eyes traveled down to my body, I had bruises on my stomach already turning purplish, I didn't care much for the bruises it was not new to me. I was a little on the skinny side because I was anorexic, I know some girls will kill for a shape like mine but to me it was nothing.

I went down the stairs as queitly as I could trying not to wake anybody. I was wearing black track pants, a white tank top and a baggy black hoodie, I was wearing black eyeliner to cover the bags under my eyes. I felt secure almost protected in my baggy clothing.

To my dismay everybody was up, nobody spared me a glance as I entered the kitchen, my dad Hiashi Hyuuga was the owner of Hyuuga corps, a company that dealt in the production of smart gadgets, he was reading the morning paper with his cup of black coffee in front of him, next to him was my cousin Neji Hyuuga, we attented the same high school, his brown hair was long and flowing he looked up at me with his cold voilet almost whitish pupilless eyes, next to him was my little sister Hanabi Hyuuga, she went to elementary school, she also had long brown hair and whitish pupilless eyes, these eyes seemed to run in the family, another thing that seemed to run in the family was brown hair, something I lacked.

'' So you decided to grace us with your presence Hinata'' my dad said harshly. I kept quiet an action that seemed to aggravate him ''always sleeping in like a child'' he continued his rant going on and on about how Neji and Hanabi were perfect models of a Hyuuga and 'I' a sorry excuse.

I packed up my bento box silently even though I knew I would not eat it, with that done I made my way out of the house neither glad nor sad to be out, I hated my home as much as I hated school. I was skating to school as usual and as usual Neji passed me in his convertible with a smirk.

Noise filled the hallway as students chatted with eachother, I didn't have any friends I was the school 'loner' 'freak' and whatever else they wished to call me, I silently made my way to class, I had history with Kakashi-sensei who was a chronic late comer.

The class was already half filled, I made my to the back of the class trying to be as invisible as I could, I brought out my sketch pad and silently began to draw, nobody talked to me and I talked to nobody. Gradually the class filled up as the bell rang

'' Hey Sakura-chan!'' a voice called loudly, that voice, I hated it, I'd know that voice anywhere. I looked up to see a blue eyed blonde haired teen with whisker like marks on his cheeks, he was Uzumaki Naruto, he was talking to a scantily dressed pink haired green eyed girl. Even though it was warm I felt a chill as I subconciously rubbed my wrist, our eyes met for a moment before I went back to my sketch pad.

It seems Kakashi-sensei was not going to make it today, he was already an hour late.

'' what are you drawing freak?'' a high pitched voice asked, I looked up to see Sakura standing in front of my table with her hands on her waist, the class erupted into laughter and I felt the prickly sensation of water behind my eyes, I was saved by the bell as I silently made my way to my next class. Time seemed to fly and it was time for lunch.

'ah lunch'

My most hated time in school. I walked into the cafeteria and sat down beside the window, I brought out my sketch pad and once again began to draw. The only time I was at peace was when I was drawing or when I would... I stopped that thought before I could complete it. I looked at my wrist ' It has been a while' I thought

'Everything was going fine today' I thought with a sigh of relief, I was proven wrong

'' Today we are going to have an exercise'' Kurenia-sensei our psychology teacher announced ''It's called how much do I know my friend'' she said happily, I could feel a dreadful and foreboding feeling settle in the pit of my stomach '' who would like to start?'' she asked

''Me! Me!'' a loud voice said

'' Alright Naruto, go ahead'' she said.

'' I would like to talk about my friend Hinata'' he said. The class fell eerily quiet. '' I've known Hinata for a long time now, you see Hinata is mentally unstable, she is depressed, she is emiosh'' he said with a dramatic sigh

'' Hinata is also a satanic worshipper'' he said while pointing an accusing finger at me, I felt the rage bubbling just under the surface begging to be set free

'' That is quiet enough Uzumaki-san'' Kurenia- sensei said angrily

'' I'm not lying'' he continued '' I am a friend of her cousin Neji, I've been to her house and her father told me how she killed her mo...'' he didn't get to finish that sentence as I stood up rather angrily with tears in my eyes, I looked at Neji who turned away from me, his face in a cold mask, my anger came rushing back

'' Shut up!'' I told him with venom in my voice

'' or what?'' Sakura said snidely '' Gonna report us to daddy?'' she continiued '' News flash freak, daddy doesn't care'' she said while smiling evily

I turned away and packed my books, I ran away from the class crying, I could still hear their cruel laughter and Kurenia-sensei's attempt to make them quiet. 'How could Naruto say that?' It wasn't the fact that I was bullied that made me so angry, it was the fact that 'my own cousin' watched silently while I was being treated that way, just what did I do to deserve this? I cried all the way home.

I took the long way home not wanting to be there but having no where else to go to. Neji and his friends were already at home as I got in. His friends were mostly in our class,

Uchiha Sasuke, Haruno Sakura, Yamanaka Ino, Inuzuka Kiba and Uzumaki Naruto. They all laughed cruelly as I walked away to my room, Once upon a time Naruto would have stood up for me, Once upon a time Naruto would have dragged me away, now he is just one of them I thought

It was already past mid night by the time I was done with my homework, my room was bare only having a bed, a dresser, a reading table, I knew Neji and Hanabi's room were much fancier than mine courtesy of Hiashi. I opened my bedside drawer that contained only two things. one was a picture, it was of a blue haired beautiful petite woman, she smiled down at a younger version of herself. My mother... the only person that loved me. I put the picture down and picked up the other item, it was a pocket knife. I haven't felt the urge to this in a while, today was... to be accused of killing my mother... my lower lip trembled as tears flowed from my eyes. I dug the pocket knife deep into the skin of my wrist just above the vein, I was tempted to cut the vein but I was not ready to die like this, atleast not yet. I felt the familiar pain, the physical pain that made me forget about the mental one.

such was the life of Hyuuga Hinata... The 'freak' The 'loner' The 'unwanted child' The 'hated sister'... to Hinata this life was nothing... she wanted to go away...to a safe place...

A/N: wow! that was really sad... please reveiw and tell me what you think of this... More and More Angst to come... I just remembered an awesome fanfiction by Tiro, I guess the author is not active anymore, It's called Hard to forgive, I got my inspiration for Demon Village from that story... Go and check it out.