I own nothing…except for Kiana and Nicole (me)
Tear Stained Eyes
I am sitting on the floor of my bedroom with the hazy smell of incense in the air and Fiona Apple playing in the background. I am crying without knowing it as I hold the top of my bleeding arm, which I have just dragged a knife across. Yeah, that's right…I'm a cutter.
And this wasn't just one night. This was for 3 years of my life. But, let's go back a few years. My name is Kiana, I'm in seventh grade, and THIS is my story.
Let's go back to when I was a 14-year-old 8th grader. Now, you know that old saying "Nobody's perfect, but some people are pretty damn close?" Well, that described me. I was what you called perfect. I had gorgeous long blonde hair with deep aquamarine eyes. I had big breasts, long legs and a perfect stomach. My face looked as if it was carved by angels. I was THE most popular girl in school! I was the head cheerleader in the cheerleading squad. (GRRR! HOW I DESPISE CHEERLEADERS!) I had the cutest and most popular boy in school as my boyfriend. I was the perfect mix of smart yet cool and popular yet compassionate. I was also the perfect mix of pretty yet athletic. I was a straight A student and loved by all. (DON'T YOU HATE THESE KIND OF PEOPLE?)Yup! It seemed like everything was going my way. All up until the point when my mother died.
I was young and innocent…I had no Idea what the real world was like. So, my mother's death came to me like a slap in the face. After my mother died, my father became an alcoholic and an abuser. Then one day, when I was cutting tomatoes, I accidentally cut myself…and it felt good! All of that stress went away into the pain. That was when the cutting began.
My grades began to slip and my personality failed. My friends hated me and I lost my spot on the squad from being way too dizzy all of the time. My boyfriend didn't know what was wrong and we broke up. My father was frustrated and I was sent to a school in Japan. This is where it all begins.
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