My name I Hayato Gokudera I'm 14 and I am currently sitting on my death bed. Ever since I was young I've had a weak heart and I was always Kept inside a Sealed white room. I could never find the door but the doctors somehow always get in. I hate the shots they give me they make me go to sleep. When I was 9 I asked the doctor , he told me to call him Shamal but won't, why i was here, he said that I had a bad heart and I was ordered to be watched and guarded in this room by my father. When I was 7 my Mother used to come and Visit me all the time, she was very beautiful, she had long silver hair and fair skin with shiny green eyes.

I looked a lot like her at least that's what the doctors said. But after my ninth birthday she didn't come or the next or the next eventually she disappeared from my life and ever since now I still don't know where she is. I've never been outside, but from what I heard from the doctors and nurses, It's very horrid. Filled with crooks and criminals who would do anything to get what they want. I felt as though that wasn't the whole truth.
On my 12 birthday I asked the doctor where and who my father was,the doctor was shocked by the question, He put his hand on his chin and thought about what to say, "well, your father is a very busy man, I myself haven't met him I was hired by one of his men, but I heard that he's always with your sister Bianchi." he said. This time I was shocked. 'I had a sister?' I was confused. I didn't remember my mother giving birth to another child, but then again I don't know where she is.

I felt my chest tighten. could it be that...she left me alone to start another family with my sister and my father? I felt my head spinning at the thought. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach and pulled the garbage can close to the bed and barfed in it. I Felt tears burn in my eye's. "Gokudera! are you alright!?" the doctor shouted in confusion and fear.I clutched the front of my shirt and sobbed. The Doctor wrapped his arms around me and held me close to him. I sobbed into his chest, clutching his doctors jacket. I really couldn't remember what happened after that. I might have fallen asleep.

I was useless, to my family, my sister,my mother...But what did it matter anyway, I was never going to leave the white room anyway, I'm going to die knowing I lived a life with no purpose. I was nothing. My sister would probably take over the family. My mother and father would be the ones who smile with her. and I'll just be in the background, the sick child they never wanted. My chest hurts so much, My heart is taking all my pain and keeping for it's self. Why won't it let me feel pain for once?

it's been two years since I gave up and just let my heart take my pain. I felt guilt and it directed towards my heart, the doctor calls that stress though.
I opened my eyes and was greeted with white, I had mixed feelings right now I don't know what to even call it. I looked around the room and noticed it was a bit darker than before and messy, all the doctor stuff was on the floor and I saw some blood on the floor. I immediately freaked out. What was happening? I heard crashes from a wall of the room. I slowly got up and limply walked to the wall. I reached to touch it and jumped when a sudden opening appeared. Sudden realization hit me. 'T-This is!..This is the door!' I thought I felt my heart beat suddenly slow down and my breathing didn't hurt as much. I anxiously took a step forward and I felt the cold dirt from outside touch my bare feet.

I felt amazing! it wasn't soft but it wasn't hard, it was just right. the air here was different it smelled different and was a bit colder, for once it didn't smell like medicine or gross hospital food. My Joy was crushed as I heard someone call my name from behind me. I turned around and was shocked to see the doctor. He had a blood coming out of his shoulder, I was shocked and scared, I felt an unfamiliar feeling in my body. I reached forward towards him and was a bout to ask what happened when his eye's widen and he shouted : "IDIOT! COME OVER HERE!" I was angered at the fact that he shouted at me, but soon forgave when I realized why he shouted at me. I felt a sudden cold wind blow on me, I could feel there was someone behind me, but I was to scared to turn around and look at him. I felt a large hand harshly grab me my my neck. I gasped for air as i was lifted off the ground and into the air.
"S-Shamal..." I choked out and i stretched my arms to him to come and save me. But the man was to fast before I knew it I was thrown over his shoulder and he jumped high into the air. I looked down at the doctor as he ran towards the man to come and save me. But we were already to far.

I was caught.