Okay, so I started a fanfic ages ago but then things in my life got bad, so I suppose this is me trying to have a second shot at a first fanfic, it's a bit slow to start off with, I know but please give it a little time to get going... Phoenix xx

She walked down the corridor, chin up and a fake smirk plastered to her face. Sauntering along, she owned the place, there was no doubt about it.

Oomph, what was that doofus doing walking into her? Does he not know who she is? She is Santana Lopez, and he should get the fuck out of her way or else she would get the football jocks to totally obliterate him... and to put it nicely he most definitely wouldn't be showing his face at Mckinley ever again.

That was the thing about being Head Cheerleader with virtually perfect grades, she had complete control and respect from everyone, the majority of girls in the school feared her and wouldn't dare start a fight with her, all the nerds respected her for the fact she wasn't just the typical dumb cheerleader, and the male species at McKinley, well, they were totally infatuated with her, I mean who wouldn't be?

But I saw past this facade, sure she was beautiful, intelligent, charming, funny, gorgeous, perfect, flawless, elegant, sexy hmmmmmm, but there were so many more layers to her that I was aware of, and she just wouldn't let anyone in, she struggled on, everyone thinking she was the most heartless girl in the school, but boy were they wrong.

So anyway, he walked into her, and maybe the football team wouldn't obliterate him, turns out he was one of them, and rather than glaring and hissing at him, when she got turned a full ninety degrees by the force, she stopped and smiled at him, batting her eyelashes at him, and my stomach turned at the thought of her with the ferret headed boy, sure I had Artie, but that by no means meant that she was allowed to be with anyone else, and it by no means meant that I didn't think about how hot we would be together... that's allowed right, it was only in my head, not like I would act on it.

But I saw her wink at him as she walked away, walked away to meet me, and my heart lifted, even though she'd clearly just been flirting with Puckerman she was still coming to meet me, of course I knew it was just a friendly thing to do, but at least she hadn't walked away with him, I mean he was in her chemistry class, and she still chose to come and get me and walk me to my math class, so I had hope, our pinkies linked and I let out a breath that I hadn't realised I was keeping inside, she gave me a dazzling smile, nothing like the sly smirks she handed out to the rest of the population, this was saved especially for me and I adored that.

After being sat in math for twenty minutes, I felt my cell vibrate in my bra, so I carefully slipped it out, I knew it wasn't that big a deal, had already decided we were all going to flunk so we pretty much got left to our own devices but we did have the occasional proper lesson and today happened to be one of those days, so I didn't want to push my luck considering proper learning was a rarity, I mainly relied on San's tutoring to pass math.

Heya B, so bored in chemistry, Noah keeps flirting with me, wish you were here to save my ass and make me smile.. San xxx

God she made me smile, I must have looked like the biggest freaking idiot in the whole class, sitting there apparently grinning about maths, I took a quick glance around the room, seemed to be very enthusiastically trying to explain quadratics to a class full of gormless idiots, in a way I sorta felt sorry for her, she'd got given the most stupid class to teach, oh well, at least summer was only a few weeks away, sure finals would be here soon, but that meant I had the whole of summer to spend with San, and summer meant swimming and swimming meant bikinis.

I suppose I better reply...

S'alright San, we'll be in cheer soon, and then glee straight after, so you'll be able to smile as much as you like then... B xxx

At this I put my cell back away, I really ought to try and pass this class or else I was gonna be in a heck of a lot of trouble, I mean I'm at the end of sophomore year, and if I don't pass all the basic classes then there'll be no junior cheer for me. That's a heck of a lot of time when I won't see Santana, and not just see San, but see her all hot and sweaty and flushed, flying through the air with perfect fluidity.

Brrrriiiiiiiiiiiing

Crap, I missed the whole of that lesson thinking about San, what the hell am I gonna do... At least she's coming to my house after glee, she always does on Thursday's and well most other days too really, so I'll just ask her to teach it me. I swiftly gather my things and throw them into my backpack, joining the bustle of people trying to escape the lesson, like a gazelle trying to escape from a predatory tiger, I walk through the doorway and a hand grabs my arm, pulling me to the left, maybe more aggressively than necessary, I'm being pulled into a kiss, it's Artie, just as my lips reach his, I see Santana across the hallway, she looks crushed, and turns away quickly, hurrying off to get lunch.

God, why's he still kissing me? Can he not tell I'm really not into this, it's all sloppy and rough, I bet kissing San wouldn't be like this.
San, he made me upset San.
I pull away quickly, and he looks at me with a confused look but then smiles, and we head to lunch.

I don't know why I'm with him, I long for Santana, but Santana's straight, and, well, I don't know what I am, but regardless, I can't have her, she's my best friend, it just wouldn't work.
I suppose Artie's a nice guy at least, and he wants to be with me, he treats me well, things could be worse, I just wish things were different.

We walk into the canteen, "you coming sitting with me babe?" Is he for real? I'm a cheerleader, I'm not gonna sit with his computer nerd friends, there's a seat next to San waiting for me.
"Errm, not today, we've got a really important cheer routine coming up that we need to discuss, and I might be asked to choreograph"
"My girl, the choreographer, eh? Alright see you later then"
I leaned down to give him a quick peck, then skip over to San, wiping his kiss off with my arm as soon as he turns his back, I'm sure I see her smirk at this, but I was probably just imagining it, why would San care whether I keep Artie's kiss or not?

The rest of the day drags, cheer isn't an important routine at all, in fact Coach Sylvester has us running laps for nearly the full time, telling us we're never gonna amount to anything unless we're capable of running for a full hour without breaking a sweat, and glee, well I normally love glee, but it's no fun when the assignment's love songs, so I have to sit and listen to Rachel Berry belt out her usual musical themed songs and then Artie try and serenade me with a dreadfully cheesy number, Rick Astley's 'Never Gonna give You Up', I can see everyone looking at us, like we're puppies, "awwww"s filling the room, and I can't help but feel sick to my stomach, cringing internally.

The only reason I'm excited for this assignment is to hear Santana's voice on a solo, but her performance isn't until next Thursday and mine the Thursday after, so there's really not much point in me being here.

I sat next to Santana in glee as I always do regardless of being with Artie, this earned me a few funny looks, especially from the likes of Finn and Artie, as soon as the bell went, I grabbed hold of Santana's pinkie,slung my backpack onto my shoulder and made as quick an escape as possible, trying to get to my locker and then to San's car before Artie could talk to me.
I know it's bad to not want to speak to my boyfriend, but I really didn't, he'd embarrassed me with that song, and it sorta made me realise how different we are, the sooner we get home the better really.

San happily complied to this, but the more time we had together, the better, more time to just relax and be ourselves.

So that's the first chapter, the second's already mapped out in my head, it's just getting it written, review of you like, not gonna force it, and feel free to PM me, even it's for something that you think is ridiculous or for advice x