First Month
Natasha ran to her quarters at the compound after the unpleasant talk she just had with Tony. She knew she had to leave, Ross was after her now. But she wanted to take a few things with her before she vanished. Tony was mad at her but he wouldn't rat her out to Ross, so she had the time. She grabbed a duffel bag and threw a change of clothes, an empty passport and gifts of her friends into it. The arrow necklace Clint had given her, Wanda's ring and the drawing Steve had made of her. She quickly emptied all her bank accounts and transferred the money to offshore accounts that Ross would never find. She took one last look at her apartment and decided that she couldn't leave without the photo of her and the other Avengers. She opened the duffel bag, tossed the framed picture in it and then jogged to the garage to get to her Corvette. She would have to ditch the car in New York. She watched the Facility from her rear mirror while she drove away. This part of her life was over now.
Once she was in her shitty apartment in New York she made sure that Sharon Carter knew the location of the Raft. Steve would most likely contact Sharon to get their friends out of prison. Natasha knew that Sharon had been the one to give Steve and Sam their gear back. She had seen how Sharon had taken them out of the armory but had decided to keep it to herself. Sam and Steve had needed their gear for the confrontation in Leipzig. The little smile on Sharon's face when she had returned to the CIA facility had told Natasha enough. Something had happened between her and Steve. And Carter had seemed very happy about it. Natasha ignored the pang in her chest and walked into her bathroom to dye her hair. This thing between her and Steve had always been casual so she had no right to be jealous or hurt. It had been her idea in the first place. And now this thing was over. Because of the mess they were all in. And because of Sharon Carter. She got the hair dye out of the cabinet and cut her hair to shoulder length and gave herself bangs before she dyed her new hair cut. Her hair was now a honey blonde and she already knew that she would have to go platinblonde in a few months but she didn't want to damage her hair too much today.
She left New York an hour later and hoped that Steve was okay and would soon free their friends. Maybe he would run away with Sharon. He deserved a happy ending.
Second Month
Clint had contacted her to let her know that he was okay and would sign a deal with Ross so he could come home to Laura and the kids by the time she had decided to stay in Prague for now. She already knew that Steve had gotten them out. No official news about it since Ross was probably humiliated that his superprison wasn't so super after all but unknown to him she hacked her way into the CIA servers and knew that there had been a prison break in the Raft. She also knew that Sharon Carter was still working for the CIA and in Berlin. Was Steve there too?
She tried to find out what had happened in Siberia but all she figured out was that T'challa had brought in Zemo. No word about Steve or Barnes. She only knew from Clint that Tony had wanted to know where Steve had been headed after Leipzig and Steve hadn't told them what happened in Siberia. She didn't know more but she had a bad feeling in her gut. Maybe it was her intuition or just the stomach flu she seemed to have caught. She was tired all the time and nauseous. She was self -medicating herself and hoped the flu would be over soon. She couldn't afford to be sick too long. She knew that Ross could find her any moment, no matter how good she was. She couldn't foresee every one of his moves.
She didn't know where or how Steve was. Clint had only told her that Barnes hadn't been with him when he had busted the others out and that he had taken off with Wanda and Sam after Clint and Scott had decided to accept house arrest to return home. She tried to take a bite from her spaghetti carbonara but she had to drop the fork and run into her small bathroom to empty her stomach. She loved spaghetti carbonara and she had made it because her stomach had been quiet in the last two days and she wanted to enjoy that with good food. Why did it make her nauseous? She had eaten her breakfast this morning without any problems!
Third month
She moved from Prague to Copenhagen where she hoped to stay for a longer amount of time. She always liked Denmark and thought it was a nice place for retirement. She had thought about doing freelance but it was wiser to stay low for now. It looked like Sam, Wanda and Steve thought so too. The CIA had no idea where they were and neither did she. She wanted to track them down, wanted to know that they were safe and okay, but the bigger the group the easier they were to find. And she didn't even know if they still trusted her. They had been on different sides during the conflict. Yes, she had let Steve and his best friend go but that didn't mean that Steve still trusted her. He hadn't asked her to get them their gear, he had asked Sharon. She wondered if Steve knew that she had been the one to give Sharon the location of the Raft. But it didn't matter. That part of her life was over. She had no friends anymore. No home. She was on her own again. She was surprised how much that bothered her. She was used to have people around, to have her friends around. Her family. To have Steve around her.
She unlocked her apartment door and got inside. She tossed the empty Coca Cola bottle into the trash can and walked to her bathroom. She wasn't an idiot. She knew what her nausea, fatigue and her swollen breasts could mean. It should be impossible but it would be an explanation for her symptoms. Her period had always been very irregular thanks to what the Red Room had done to her, and with the stress of the last months she wasn't surprised that she hadn't had her period in over three months but she knew that it could be another sign. She got the five pregnancy tests out of her shopping bag, peed in a plastic cup and wet each testing stripe. Now she had to wait until her timer went off. She tried not to think about anything during those minutes. She was most likely wrong, it was impossible for her to get pregnant. Maybe she had cancer...Even though the serum in her veins should make that impossible as well.
Her phone started ringing and she turned the timer off. She took a deep breath and looked at the five pregnancy tests on the bathroom counter. She felt hot and cold at the same time.
They were all positive.
She was pregnant with Steve Rogers' child. Shit. What now?