What was I supposed to do, dean,
When you vanished into thin air,
And I had no idea where you went?
What was i supposed to do, Dean,
When I called for Cas and never
Heard the flap of wings?
What was i supposed to do, dean,
When you looked at me in the eyes,
(Jaw set and nostrils flaring,
Your fingers clutching my jacket)
And made me promise to live my dream,
Of a normal life?
What was i supposed to do, dean,
When it was all over,
And I was alone?
What was i supposed to do, Dean,
When I found another pair of eyes
To look at me with a small trace
Of how you did?
What was i supposed to do, Dean,
But live and forget,
(Keep the promise we had silently refused
Not to keep)
Praying to an angel that wasn't there?
What was i supposed to do, Dean,
Except have complete faith,
That my big brother would keep
The promise he made to my dad 8 years ago
And show up at my doorstep.
What am I supposed to do, Dean?