"Look who's coming this way." Joy said suddenly, pulling my attention from my unfinished homework that was due in five minutes. I looked up just in time to see the smiling, tan faced, blonde girl from Horus house walking up to our table.
"Oh, god." I muttered, not excited to see her. At the beginning of the year, Eddie and I had broken up. He had said something about 'wanting more time to learn about the Osirion thing' and said that he just didn't have time for a girlfriend right now. I had been pissed, to say the least, when I found out that he didn't have time for me, but a couple weeks later he had time to date Haley- the girl from Horus house.
"Hey, guys." Haley said, happily as she stood in front of our table. Her french manicured nails drummed loudly on the desk as she beamed at us. "Not to be a bother, but could I borrow the notes from yesterday?"
"Why can't you just copy them from Eddie?" I snapped.
Haley rolled her eyes and waved her hands in the air saying, "Oh, you know Eddie. He decided that he would skip this class yesterday for some 'Eddie time'."
"You can borrow mine." Joy volunteered, already flipping through her binder. Haley smiled and thanked her, waiting for Joy to produce the notes. As Joy looked for the paper, a familiar blonde-haired boy walked into the room and started walking towards our table. I felt myself stiffen as he came closer and Haley smiled.
"Look who decided to show up today!" She teased as he wrapped his arms around her waist, kissing her cheek. She leaned back into him, a soft smile playing on her face. I felt the color drain from my face as a feeling of nausea passed over me. This wasn't the normal jealous feeling that I got when I saw them together, this was something more.
I felt physically ill seeing the way he held her. I could feel the pain in my stomach and I felt like doing something that I hadn't done in months- I felt like crying. Maybe it was that sudden realization that he truly wasn't mine anymore. He wasn't going to change his mind and come back to me.
We were actually done.
"Today's our three month anniversary." Haley said, matter-of-factly. Eddie beamed and nodded, planting another kiss on her cheek.
"And I've got something special planned for tonight." He replied. Eddie had never planned any special dates for the two of us...
"You're so romantic." Haley giggled, kissing his lips gently. I felt myself go numb as I stood up from the table.
"I forgot, I left my book in my locker..." I muttered, blindly making my way out of the classroom and towards the bathroom. I flung the door open to the ladies room and locked the door behind me. I pressed my back to the tile wall and slid down to the ground, letting the tears flow.
I felt it then. That feeling that lingers and never fully goes away. That horrible feeling that you get when you're truly out of options and you know that it's all over. That feeling you get when your hurting so bad and you think that the pain will never stop. When you feel like you'll spend the rest of your life hurting.
I felt broken.