"You're going to see him aren't you?"
"Yes."
Kurt had actually been aiming to leave unnoticed by his father, a vain hope considering that Kurt was very rarely left alone these days and now he is standing in the living room while his father blocks the door.
"You know I can't stop you," his father says sounding resigned and it is so different to what he said after Kurt he returned from his first visit almost a month ago that had Kurt not been still hurting from the aftermath of that first visit, he would have felt grateful.
"No you can't," Kurt agrees, nodding curtly. "Because despite what you may think, I am still my own person."
"Now Kurt," his father begins, holding his hands up as if in surrender. "I never said that-"
"I remember what you said," Kurt cuts in bitingly.
And it's true, he does. While his memories of screaming obscenities at his father and throwing his mother's crystal vase at the wall are hazy, he can still remember Burt's words, clear as day.
"You're a slave to what's going on in your head- god it's all my fault. We can look into cures, see if we can fix this."
Even his own father believes that Kurt isn't controlling his actions, believes that the only reason that Kurt is driving the hour long trip to Westerville twice a week is because his kidnapping has left him broken.
"I know you're still you," Burt says pleadingly. "I just think you're not thinking this through."
"I have though!" Kurt's voice rises slightly and he takes a step towards his father and the door. "I've spent hours debating what's right and what's wrong. I've gone through this with that damn psychologist even!"
"You only see her once a week," Burt tries to reason and Kurt frowns at him, crossing his arms. "But you see him twice a week, it's not healthy…"
"We've had this conversation before," Kurt reminds him frostily. "There's nothing you can say to change MY mind."
"I wish there was."
The words hang in the air, Burt's despair is plain on his face and for a second Kurt feels a stab of remorse. His father still feels responsible, still sees himself at fault and Kurt knows, knows that he sees Kurt's diagnosis as another thing that is his fault. But Kurt can't compromise on this, can't compromise Sebastian and he supposes he'll just have to find another way to help his father, to stop him from blaming himself.
He just doesn't know what that is and when Burt finally lets Kurt leave with a weak smile and a reminder that he needs to be home by six, Kurt knows he needs to figure out a way. Needs to because while Sebastian has five years before he'll need to revaluate everything, his father will eventually crumble and Kurt fears that it will be months rather than years. The thought makes Kurt shake violently and he has to pull over on the side of the road so that he can break down before he has to visit Sebastian and pretend he's okay so that Sebastian doesn't crumble with guilt, just like Burt does when he thinks Kurt isn't looking.
They're more similar that either of them realises.