I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
Hello my name is Luke Castellan, and I am attempting to destroy the world. Now I know what you may be thinking, I'm a monster. And the truth is, I am.
I wonder if there is still that part of me left hidden deep down that wasn't destroyed by the hate I have been harboring inside. What the gods let happen to my mother, my friends, and me.
I gave myself up to destruction, the worst enemy to the life of my past. I gave up my life, my body, my soul to let the Titan King Kronos rise. I thought the revenge would be satisfying, but instead it just made the hole inside grow bigger.
The guilt and remorse is the only thing that keeps the Titan Lord from taking me over completely, a part of me remains, the part that realizes what of done and how I can't ever take it back.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
Thalia. The gods let her die. They turned her into nothing but a pine tree. Yet she is back, she has to see what I now have been twisted into. I cared for her, but all of that has gone to waste now. I have turned and shunned my past, and she chose a different path. It was all for the best. Her joining the hunt. I couldn't have been the person she knew from the past, the boy she knew is gone.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
The year at camp when Percy Jackson arrived I was trapped in a web of lies. I was too blinded by the darkness shrouding my heart to realize that I was not the spider bit the fly trapped inside destined for death.
I did not realize this until the time for repair was far behind me on the path of destruction I was steadily traveling upon.
The weight of the Titan Lord had begun to take its toll. The aging had begun on the inside and out. Morphing into the monster I now am, the boy that once was barely there.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I had come to Annabeth as a last resort. I was frightened by the load I was about to bear, but she turned away. I couldn't blame her. I was her family. I had promised. I had broken that promise.
She didn't want me. No one did, not after all I had done. Kronos would find me anyways. It's for the best. Her having Percy. That is why she turned away, afterall.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
I had to destroy Kronos, there was only one way out of the mess I had created, I had to take myself. As the blade pierced my Achilles' Heel thoughts flew around me. I had to warn them not to let this happen again. I didn't want history to repeat itself. If only I could travel back in time and redo the mistakes I had made.
Then things wouldn't have to end this way, but maybe it was for the best.