Hanson
takes a sip of his wine, "Are you feeling
better?"
I
wipe off the chill from the glass with my finger,
"Yea
I'm hanging in there." I smile at him.
He
smiles back and puts his glass down on the bar. I
look
a head at me, at all of the wine bottles behind
the
bar. So many of them, aging and getting better
by
the minute. I feel hot all of a sudden, you know,
that
hot nervous feeling? I notice that Hanson had
put
his hand on my back and is rubbing it, side to
side.
"I'm
glad. So, how's your writing going?" The
rubbing
stops slightly. Now his thumb is caressing
one
spot, my tickle spot on my side.
I
giggle, I try not to laugh.
"What's
so funny?" He asks playfully.
I
swallow the wine hard, "Umm, you are umm, rubbing
my
tickle spot." I say raising my eyebrows.
I
spot Marjike cleaning a wine glass with a white
towel
and smiling at us. I see her going to the back
room
where the radio is. Then I hear slow, soft,
romantic
music. She lights a few candles in red
Italian
type holders, on the bar. The bar now has a
red
calm glow.
"Oh,
I'm sorry." He takes his hand away. I grab his
left
hand and hold it in my lap.
"No,
it's ok. I umm enjoyed it." I giggle and look
down
and his hand.
"Oh,
ok then." He says and smiles. I feel his free
hand
brush against my hair. I feel his fingertips on
my
cheek, then brush by my ear. He tucks my hair
behind
my ears. The hairs on the back of my neck
stand
on end and I'm feeling chills and getting warm
all
over.
My
mouth is slightly open, I'm speechless and
relaxed.
Burr...
I shake.
"Are
you cold?" he asks.
"Umm,
more like hot." I say.
"The
wine isn't cooling you off?"
"It
does, but when you touch me, I get chills and
hot
all over." I blush and look away.
"Oh
do you?" I let go of his hand and turn to face
him.
I put both of my hands on both of his knees and
lean
forward to whisper to him.
"I
don't know where this is going, but I'm willing
to
try anything." I let go of his knees and turn
back
to my glass of wine. It has a few gulps left so
I
just down it.
"Do
you want some more wine? Are you hungry? I'll
get
you whatever you like." he smiles.
"I'm
fine Hanson, thanks."
"C'mon,
call me Tom, ok? And I'll call you umm
sweetie
pie?"
I
laugh.
"Ok...Tom,"
I look at him with a raised eyebrow,
"I'd
rather you call me Brittany."
"How
about Britt?"
He's
playing games with me.
"Ok,
call me Britt then." He finishes the last of
his
wine and gets down from his stool. He takes my
hand
and I get down from mine. He leads me to the
door,
both of his hands behind his back and taking
my
hands. As soon as we get outside the cool air
cools
me off. I feel relieved. He takes my hand
fingers
laced and holds it tight. We go for a walk.
"You
know you never answered my question." He laughs
and
swings our arms playfully.
"Oh,
sorry, umm about my writing? Yes, well it's
doing
well. Raoul left today."
"No,
don't be sorry. Oh did he?"
"Yes,
his attorney picked him up today at my
office."
"Ah
so it's all you now?"
"I'm
afraid so." We seem to be walking towards the
park
near his apartment. We sit over at a bench.
I
rub my arms, its getting nippy.
"Are
you cold?"
"Nah,
I'll be fine." The moon is bright and big
tonight.
I look up at it and I feel even colder.
Hanson
stands up and sits behind me. He wraps his
arms
around me, warming me up.
"That
better?" I lean back so that I'm lying against
him.
"Yep."
He rests his chin on my head.
"You
know Captain Fuller will never allow this, if
it
goes any further that is." I inform him. He hugs
me
tighter.
"Don't
worry about him. We'll just keep it a secret,
if
it goes any further."
I
sigh. He lifts his head up and puts it on my
shoulder.
"What's
the matter, Britt?"
"When
you love someone, or think that you do, what
do
you do for that person? How do you show them
affection?"
"Well,
I would do what I feel is right at the time.
Buy
her flowers, help her out. I've never really
been
in love. I mean I've felt as if I could be with
the
person. But I didn't feel that I would want to
spend
the rest of my life with that person."
"Do
you ever want to marry, settle down?"
He
laughs, "I don't think there is settling down for
a
cop, unless I retire." I laugh with him.
"You
have a point there."
"But
yes, I'd like to.
"Are
you sure you are willing to take the risk of
being
a cop? I mean are you willing to put your life
on
the line?"
"Well,
I'm a risk taker and I'll do anything to help
someone
who really needs it even if I die trying.
That
goes for on duty and off." I say.
"Wow.
You know, I don't want you getting hurt on the
job.
But I'm not going to stop you from doing what
you
want. That's why I asked Fuller for us to be
partners.
I thought I should keep an eye on you,
make
sure you don't get in trouble, or hurt." He
said.
I
lean forward and he loosens his grip.
I
yawn.
"You
get tired?"
"Eh,
a little."
"Here,
I'll walk you home." Hanson gets up and takes
my
hand. We walk to my place. I dig through my pockets trying to find my
key. Once I found them I
hold
them tightly in my hand as we stand on my
porch.
"Do
you want to come in?"
"Do
you want me to?" he asked.
"Only
if you want. I mean it is getting late. Unless
you
want to slow down and call it a night."
"I
think I will, I mean you seem tired and I don't
want
to keep you up." he said generously.
"Ok,
if that's what you want." I fiddle with my
keys,
trying to find the house key.
"Well,
I guess this is good-night?" I ask. I find
the
house key and rub it with my forefinger and my
thumb.
I was about to open the door when he says,
"Just
one more thing though."
"What's
that?" I asked.
"There's,"
he looks at me confused, "Something. In
your
hair." He puts his hand on my head as if he's
getting
something out of my hair. Then I feel him
gently
push my head towards mine. There is no
stopping
this moment from happening. My heart
pounds,
my stomach and my heart are fighting for a
spot
in my throat. I'm getting that hot feeling
again.
Our faces are close. I can feel the warmth of
his
breath as he breathes on my face from the small
opening
of his mouth. His mouth begins to open a bit
more
when... Finally... Our lips meet. At that moment I
drop
my keys. His hands form around my face. His
thumbs
rubbing my cheeks. His tongue swabbing
against
mine. Swapping saliva and that's all it
takes
to feel myself melt into his hands. I feel his
tongue
swipe along the side of my mouth and across
my
teeth. He sucks in some of my breath. He's taking
my
breath away. And suddenly he takes a breath and
puts
his forehead against mine.
He
stopped and is breathing heavily against my face,
as
am I on his. He smiles his cute half smile/smirk,
enough
so I can see his teeth. Then he bends down
and
picks up my keys. He gives me one last, long
kiss
that seemed like it was forever, but ended
sooner
than I had wanted. My heart still beating
faster
he hands me my keys. Takes my chin in his first three fingers and
kisses my forehead.
"Good
night, Brittany." I'm speechless but manage to
get
out the words.
"Um
good night Tom. I had a great time." I give him
a
big hug and when we let go I unlocked my door.
Half
way through I watch him go down my porch steps.
He
takes one last glance at me and blows me a kiss. I do the same to
him.
Then he is out of sight, I shut my door, lock the locks and go directly to my bedroom. I get ready for bed and don't hesitate with splashing my face with water too cool off. I want to keep this feeling before it goes away. I turn on my ceiling fan, turn off my light and crawl into bed.
I sleep peacefully.
