okay guys, before you read it, 3 things:
1. English is not my native language, and although i'm pretty fluent, i must have made some mistakes... sorry for that!
2. I gave it an M rating cause i felt it was not really 'T' rated, however, it is not heavy 'M' rated as well.. So if you're looking for super heavy M content this might disappoint you haha.
3. This is for entertainment purposes only... I obviously don't own the characters.
Enjoy!
Sheldon :
Amy... . Amy... . Amy... . I am so happy to touch Amy again. It has been so long. It's like a part of me has been missing. I don't know how i went on so long without her... Well, i do know now. Because I was living like half a man.
Amy:
Sheldon's kissing me... SHELDON'S KISSING ME ! The shock should be strong, but all i can feel is his lips and his love... The way i am in his arms and how i'm so close to him i just wanna melt... I do wanna melt...I am melting...I can not believe it... What the hell! How is it even possible?! Last time we kissed, we couldn't get a distracted make out session on the couch... And now... This?! It's FULL BODY CONTACT right now and he's not pulling away, but only pushing me closer?! I can't... I can only touch him back like that, stroke his back and his arms, and kiss him back and let him feel how i've missed him and how much i love him...
And what is going on, IT'S BEEN A FEW MINUTES... He's not pulling away.. HOW is it possible ? Are you really Sheldon? We are nearly breathless and yet he's not pulling away and he's not letting go of me, he only hugs me tigher when we hear Dave saying something...
And he's kissing me different now, too. He lets his tongue get in my mouth... His tongue! What about the germs, Sheldon? Weren't you worried about the germs?
I can not process that... I'll just keep kissing him and feel him so close to me, and won't be thinking about anything!
I hear Dave leaving , and god he won't stop talking. So i just kick the door closed with my leg.
I feel Sheldon chuckling.
"what?" i'm not breaking the kiss...
"i like how you kicked him out" he's not breaking the kiss either and just kissing me different, how he used to before... How long ago it was ! Like in a different life!
I stop and am just looking at him now. My face is still mere inches from his face... He looks at me with so much love ,and happiness, it makes me ecstatic. I smile too.
"Did you hear what he said though? He called you brilliant... He's your fan you know. He wouldn't stop talking about you. Don't you love it when people worship you?"
He looks at me with the same certainty he looked at me with when he was standing in the doorway...
"I don't care. Amy... I can only think about you now".
I love how he says things matter-of-factly. Maybe because he's not good at analyzing emotions, so he's not trying to. Whenever he feels something, he just says it (unless he tries to deny it of course). He's not trying to analyze implications... He just says what's on his mind. It's so innocent and this is one of the million reasons why i love him...
I smile.
"I can only think about you too now, Sheldon"
I start kissing him again... Yes, we're kissing for real now. "Like mommies and daddies do".
Sheldon :
I have missed her so much. This is all I can feel right now. I don't know what is going on... All my body reactions changed. She's so close, i like it. She's touching me, i like it. She's hugging me, i like it. French kissing though.. It is not that i like it. I don't know where that came from. I just feel I need to be as close to her as possible... And I... want her. So, is it really that bad? No, i don't think it is... I mean, maybe i should worry about the germs, but i just can't concentrate on that right now...
I move my hands a little lower on her back...
I just wanna touch her...
And i just wanna touch her everywhere and i am just done denying to myself what i want ! Not after these horrendous 6 months. I love her! How to proceed though...
I move my hands on the small of her back now and just lock her tighter in my arms... I love the feeling of her so close to me. I just never wanna let her go...
Amy :
...His hands are going to rest low on my back, and he almost... almost... Yeah touch me there Sheldon. The sensations just escalate, and i am just not calm & happy anymore. Still happy, i mean... But not calm. His hands there are just not enough... I press myself stronger into him, and his hands slide on my butt... Now we're talking! He freezes though.
I freeze too. God. It was stupid. He is gonna freak out now...
"I'm sorry..."
"Amy... "
" I know that's not what you want, and we.. i ... just got carried away, Sheldon, i'm sor..."
" Amy..."
" I don't know what i'm thinking, i just... Wait, did you wanna say something?"
"Amy... " - I notice that his hands are still on my butt actually. And he's not pulling away. He's still pretty much with me. This gives me hope...
"Yes?"
I've never seen him struggle to say something so bad.. ever. He's shy, and hesitating, and keeps reverting his eyes. I don't know what to think of that. Oh wait, I do know what to think of that. I kind of sensed the change in him even before we broke up. On our anniversary night and even before that... I think it's started after our first sleepover, actually. Something has changed. It's like he was ready for more... And i did think he was. That is, until our anniversary night. Then his Flash comment just really freaked me out. It made me think that i just imagined all that, and that it's a lost cause ... That he'll never be ready for more. But these six months, i've missed him so badly, that i've decided i don't care anymore. But now... if he is ready for more, how much more? I mean french kissing is ALREADY a big deal for him. Probably he just wants to slow down.. I understand that. I just want him to be open with me, and not reject or deny whatever he feels, like before. I look into his eyes, and try to wordlessly encourage him to be honest.
He licks his lips again.
"I think... I think I've... changed my mind about touching in a way and... Can i touch you like that?"
My mind is just blank and i just don't know who this person is anymore.
Sheldon :
Oh god this is embarrassing . It truly is. I am just not the person who changes their mind easily. And admitting i was wrong... Almost impossible. But I needed to say that. I was wrong about it. I love her... And if i have some other urges, so what. I'm so tired of denying that...
The look on her face is priceless... I think it is shocked, but as usual i am not sure. It is so frustrating not to be able to read human emotions at moments like that. Although, I was always doing better reading Amy's emotions. I didn't realize it then, but i guess subconsciously i always tried harder with her than with others... I just tried to understand her. But it's been a while, i'm not used to it anymore.. But yes, i guess, shock. It looks like shock. Which is a little annoying, actually. Doesn't she realize how much she means to me, and just how much i've missed her? she shouldn't be so surprised...
I frown, and im about to say something, but she interrupts me.
"Yes"...
Her voice is so sweet... And this is a new expression. I am sure i have never seen it. This confuses me. She's just ... shining. She looks so happy, but different happy. I don't know what to think of that yet, but i'm gonna think about it later...
She starts kissing me again, and i feel her hands move on my back again. I love that feeling... I hated being away from her, and I just love it when she's holding me like that. It makes me so... relaxed and relieved, that she's with me again.
So, here I go...
I slowly move my hands over her posterior... Just very lightly touching & stroking it with my fingertips, but i am so relieved I can finally do it... Do it and feel absolutely normal while doing that... It feels so good. Not judging myself and not telling myself i'm too superior for that. I hear her breathing quicken and it turns me on too... I should get bolder and I should do more. I should do more...
Amy :
I can feel him touching me just with his fingertips... Which already sends my pulse beating like crazy. I think all blood emptied my head and i literally have no thoughts anymore, just desires. Touch me more, Sheldon... I love your fingertips, but it is not enough...
Oh yes! Now he strokes my ass with the palms of his hands, while still kissing me, and i literally can not breathe.. this is too good... too good. I still can not believe he's doing it but i don't care. I should just enjoy... And I ... I should stop freaking tiptoeing around him like every wrong move on my side can scare him off! He came here... He told me he loved me.. And HE initiated the kiss...
Ok, well, i might have, but he reciprocated and he's been standing here kissing me for probably more than 10 minutes... So he MUST enjoy it, right? And he's a big boy; if he doesn't like something, he can say it.
So with that i just move my hands over his, and guide his hands to squeeze my buttocks cause i just need to feel what it feels like...
And he does that...
OH GOD!
It feels literally better than anything i've ever felt before, ill have to throw Gerard away... And it empties my head of ALL thoughts but just one... Just one...
I pull away from the kiss and whisper "Do it more".
Sheldon :
The way she whispers it... is the sexiest thing i've ever heard from her. Well, it's not true... I never really heard anything erotic from her because i never gave her a chance to express that side of her... Or myself. For such a brilliant person like me that behavior was extremely idiotic.. But oh well.
She said 'more'...
"Amy..."
I don't know why i whisper too.
"More..."
Well if she asks again, i shouldn't resist what i wanna do anyway...
I kiss her, and i squeeze her posterior again, and she moans. It sets me on fire... God, to hear her moan from something i've done is the most amazing thing in the world. So i'm crushing my lips on hers stronger, and i just keep touching her... She breaks the kiss and throws her head back. Her eyes are shut... Now , in movies this usually means the woman is enjoying it so much she is overwhelmed... If Amy's body language is the same... God. I don't know why... It drives me crazy to think I might cause her to feel like that. I know a few movements more, and i won't be able to hold it, and she's gonna feel my erection, and that will ~officially dethrone me as a Homo Novus.. I don't care. This is Amy. I trust her. I know she will not judge me, and i know she will understand. She loves me.
Her eyes are still shut and i bow down a little, i breathe in and i gather courage... And i lick her neck.
"Ohh Sheldon..."
YES.
I love to hear her say that.
I start kissing her neck, and i'm still touching her with my hands, her ass and her thighs, her back, and she keeps moaning... It turns me on so much I can't hold back anymore... I am hard now and i know she can feel it, i am expecting her to say something and i SHOULD be embarrassed and expect the worst but i just can't... Not when she's moaning in my arms like that.
Amy :
He is kissing my neck... I don't know what is going on anymore! Licking it... This is crazy. His hands are all over me now... I can only throw my head back and enjoy it, i can't even move... Yes, Sheldon... Touch me more, Sheldon... My body's electrified and my head's just blank. I've waited so long for this... Actually , I can not even say it. I've always wanted it. But i also tried not to get my hopes up. In case it never happens. So now that it's happening... It drives me crazy. He kisses my chin and then he whispers "Amy.." so quiet it's almost inaudible... It makes me tremble from both love and passion. And then he takes my earlobe into his mouth.
Sheldon :
"Mmm Sheldon... "
Oh yes! say my name again like that and i might just forget that Nobel is what i want the most in this life... Actually I already forgot...
I start sucking on it... She is moaning louder. I can not take it... I just can't take it anymore. I stumble to the couch and i'm taking Amy with me. I hope not to hit any furniture... There it is. I'm crushing on it, and taking Amy with me... I'm laying down, and she's laying on top of me now. I keep kissing her , and moving my arms on her body . All over her... Well, where my courage lets me... I'm still avoiding second base. But i just need to feel more of her skin. So i move her cardigan to the side a little, exposing more of her skin, and start kissing her collarbone... I move her cardigan more to the side.. I wish i could have taken it off completely... She is driving me crazy.
Amy :
IS HE UNDRESSING ME?!
I can not believe it.. Let alone the things his kisses make me feel, just physically... the things i feel and my emotions right now just make me forget everything else. Just make me not even register anything around. Only his lips. And only his hands. But i should try to go back to reality. At least a little bit. Cause i'm losing it right now... I should try to concentrate at least a little bit. I just try to compose myself and feel all of my body.
And then, i start to feel it... IS HE HARD?
I always said i was hoping... But i never, EVER thought this moment would come... That I would feel him hard against me... That it will actually be real.
I just can not stop myself and i just move my body a little and grind against him...
"Amy..."
His voice... Shock, restraint, objection and desire all at once... I know I should stop but i can't. I'm grinding against him once more...
"Please look at me" his voice is so soft.
I gather my strength and open my eyes, and turn to look at him.. and he looks straght into my eyes... So simple. Without hiding.
He is not ready. I understand. I should. Frankly, i'm not ready either. Physically i am , emotionally i'm totally not. He just caught me unexpected... I should tell him. Reassure him we're on the same page... I don't want him to worry.
I bring my right hand to his face and cup his cheek.
"I love you"
"I love you Amy..."
I feel like it's kind of monumental. He's not ready to talk about it right this second, but he knows what i'm trying to convey. I accept and love him no matter what. Homo Novus, or an alien with urges, or a simple (yet brilliant... always briliant) man... I don't care. I just love him anyway, I just love him the way he is.
" I am not sure if i am ready for anything big yet" he whispers
I chuckle and stroke his cheek : "it's okay.. me neither"
"... But i was wondering ... If i could stay with you tonight. I just can not go away from you today... "
"Yes" i smile. "We'll just cuddle... and watch a movie. How about that?"
"It's good" he smiles. "I just need a moment to.. um... compose myself.. "
"Sure" I smile at him and i hope my smile is reassuring, and force myself to separate from him. "I'll just find a movie, and we'll watch it here , ok? Join me as you're ready"
"Ok"
He goes to the bathroom, and i am just trying to compose myself as well, and to get my emotions back to normal, while searching for a movie for us to watch. He is staying. He. is. staying. No big deal... No big deal. This is just a sleepover... This is nothing major. I should just breathe. I'm forgetting to breathe. So he had an erection.. No big deal. And he didn't run away.. He hasn't shut down... And he wants to stay with me... Even though he said he's not ready. He's not ready for intimacy, but he is ready for love.. He wants to stay with me. He just said "i just can not go away from you today". It is just overwhelming..
And he is in my apartment.
Back in my life.
Back to being my boyfriend.
Life is just beyond wonderful...
He comes back, sits on the couch and makes room for me to snuggle close to him...
I find it so sweet it almost makes me cry.
I turn on the tv, snuggle close to him, inhaling his baby powder.. So familiar. This smell. His smell...
Suddenly I remember how we cuddled like that many years ago, when bestie and Bernadette upset me.
I smile. How everything has changed since then... Three hundred sixty degrees.
"Sheldon?"
" Yes?"
"I am just so happy to be your girlfriend again".
A/N: I am torn whether i should leave it like this, or if it should be 2-3 chapters... Thoughts?