Have you ever saw something that you knew you just had to have? From the very moment you laid eyes on it you knew you would have it, the time it would take to get it or the cost or even maybe the heartache it may cause you in the end didn't matter because you knew in the long run it would finally make you feel complete. Santana was my love and addiction at first sight,she was everything you could dream of. She was gorgeous beyond belief with dimples and chocolate brown eyes, her hair was black as night but thick and no matter the way she had it was always just right, she had a laugh that could stop you in your tracks, and the way she spoke mesmerized you. When we became best friends in the first grade everything was just fun and games, we played dress up and I would let Santana do my hair and her sassiness always made me laugh. She has always been very strong headed with such a short temper, and even when she grew up it never ever changed. I have to say with me though she was always very soft and her tone of voice even changed when speaking to me. Our friends use to say that there was three sides to Santana : Snixx , Satan, and Butter Britt mode. She just genuinely loved me and cared for me. No one quite knew how she could go from bitchy too sweet in a matter of seconds of seeing me walk through the door. I don't think that I ever second guessed it really. When we finally came out to everyone everything was just so much easier. I remember before all of that she was so much more scared and restricted, she never let me fully claim her and if I wanted to ever do something coupley outside in the real world it was always a strict no from her. I just adjusted to it and always thought it would be that way, I didn't mind because for Santana I would do anything just to have her love me everyday the way she did. Finally the day came where we sat down and talked after the T.V campaign ad came out. We both knew that it was now or nothing and she said that she wanted a complete and happy forever with me, she didn't want to be scared anymore and eventually she knew the day would come and even though she would have like to come out herself she was still glad all of this would finally be done. Though I was happy I knew things would be all brand new and I had gotten so use to hiding and sneaking around I was scared too. Luckily our friends and family were so supportive, at least I thought…..