"He doesn't care, he nefur will."
You think as you slide your claw across your thigh, cutting a deep gash in the soft grey flesh.
"I'll nefur be anything but the autistic cat-girl of a furriend to him."
Olive blood gushes from the wounds on your thighs, pooling around you. Your sobs intensify as you recall the days events~
"K-karkitty, there's something I need to tell mew, and I-"
"What do you want, Nepeta?"
"I-I..." You took a deep breath as you prepared to say something you never thought you would be able to say. "Karkitty, I'm flushed fur mew, so flushed that it hurts. I need to know if your flushed fur me, b-because I can't keep living in the dark apawt what's going on." Then came the unbearable silence. He stared, not blinking, not saying a word. Eventually you couldn't take it, so you ran. You ran through hallway after hallway trying to get as far away as possible.
You snap back to reality as you realize what you've done. You stare at the growing pool of blood, thinking about Equius. You feel awful. Your poor meowrail, who stayed with you through all of your sleepless nights, who held you as you cried over someone you could never have, and in your last moments of consciousness you hate yourself for being so selfish, but you welcome the darkening of your vision as you slip away, one last tear of regret sliding down your cheek.
"DANMMIT"
You think, cursing yourself for letting her run off like that. She just confessed her love for you and you stood there like a confused wriggler until she left, sobbing. She must hate you now. You wish you'd told her that you felt the same way... Maybe she'll forgive you. Maybe I'd you go talk to her, you'll be able to fix this mess, yeah! You head in the direction she went, love swelling in your chest as you plan how to tell her that you recuperate her feelings.